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(Tuesday, July 31, 2007-)
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Jingy posted a cute topic...that i'm talking to Andy about on the phone, haha. :P
Nice Guy Paradox
Jingjing's Forum Post:
"I think one of the important point from the article is : Women are attracted to nice guys who don't have to be nice. Of course nice guys have gravity...when he is not being a doormat or pushover. I personally like guys who are nice to me not because that is just way they are with everyone...i want them to be nice to me because something about me make them want to be nice (when they don't have to be) because i am special to them. I think it also comes down to the whole challenge thing...like men, women are turned off by guys who are too easy to get, guys who just follow your every command and never disagree. Through out history, powerful men always get the women they want. I don't think it is hard to understand why. Women like guys who are powerful because it makes women feel awesome to tame them. Sometimes, being nice can be looked at as being weak...weak men don't make good providers, so they will get passed on. Not saying nice = weak...so I'd say, if you are a nice guy, love it! I like that, but DO NOT be a pussy, pick your battles. Once while, show that you have power, so women feel they can count on you when **** goes down.
O! sometimes nice guys are willing to take **** from people, get abused a lot...dont be that guy."
and my forum post:
"Hm i think it might be a confidence thing as well.
Guys who exude confidence, tend to be more attractive...because they don't "need" to bow down to everything every cute girl wants. Hmm also the girl they're interested in feels special because the guy doesn't act that way to every person; that they only act that way to specific girls they're interested in. Basically - they're not desperate...and actually like you for you.
I'm not particularly ever attracted to a guy that's just overly nice to me all the time. They have to have some type of "tough love"...because then the "special" niceness that you get everyday just becomes repetitive. Usually it ends up as a friendship...that can't get any deeper.
Hmm i don't know how to say it in english, lol. Atarimai ni naruwake...zettai mezurashikunai~youni naruwake aka tsumaranai? maybe?
Eh? It's different for every girl, i think?
Hmm, well also...nice guys can be SO nice sometimes where they don't make ANY OBVIOUS moves to be "respectful" to the girl [because they care so much, etc]. Yeah, that's really nice - but honestly, she'll never know that you're interested if you don't say anything to her. You'll never know if you even have a CHANCE if you sit back and watch the world fly by.
I hate it how nowadays it's accepted that a guy doesn't have to ask out a girl. Maybe I'm old-fashioned, but why do girls have to make up for the lack of confidence some guys have? Like girls have any less insecurities! It should work both ways - where if someone is interested in someone, that they both should feel comfortable to make a move. For Christ's sake, what's the worst the person can say, "Oh sorry, I'm not interested."
Like that's something to be afraid of!
Oof! >.<
I'm just bitter because I've pretty much had to ask out every guy that I've been interested in. AND EVEN THEN, they usually were quiet and SOOO reserved that i had NO idea that they were interested back! PFFTT @ NERDY NICE BOYS! YARGH! lol <3"
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Honestly, haha i have a REALLY REALLY REALLY weird type. It's a nice in a twisted way. LOL >.O haha...
I don't think the overly nice guy thing is all that bad. It's just not um...good bait? It's alright when you're already IN a relationship...but when you're fishing, you have to have extra flamboyant bait. Hmm...that doesn't make sense at all - I'm sorry T_T. I dunno how to really explain this.
I'm not saying to be someone you're not - just...umm...don't make it obvious that you're like in love with the person? I guess? -_- Ugh i suck at this.
Hm...for example, Andy gushed about this girl...and made it pretty obvious what his feelings were to anyone he told. Yeah, then i told him about this tactic...that'd change how girls looked at him - forever. I'm not elaborating that one lol...because it
I told him...to not gush and not act so obviously interested. It's more attractive if you're in control of the situation - basically... if you're not a homo gushing fanboy. LOL?
......im on the phone again...bbl. >.> save me.
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Oh dehr...
-_- so sleepy...i had insomnia last night/this morning.
It happens every once in a while...what's horrible is that it starts off as the "i've got too many things on my mind" insomnia...but that actually goes away after a while. Then...it feels like i just can't get comfortable. I even tried to sleep right now...and i can't.
I'll probably nap later in the afternoon. Im gonna need to restup for the raid tonight. LOL My brain's not 100% on...and it needs to be for later. <3
...WTF why in gods name am i listening to bon jovi right now?
Back to "the View".
...meh can't talk must call kaiser for an ambien perscription. Insomnia sucks on trips. I had a few perscribed ambien on another trip [you ask your dr for a trip perscription...and they give you enough for the days you're away] i think i got 4 pills last time. I got into ambien from Jingjing, haha. She let me try one on a nomoo trip before (i couldn't fucking sleep) and it was wonderful. Haha...you fall asleep in about 5min...and wakeup in the morning fresh and not groggy.
I used to take the little blue pill...dramamine, sleepysleep<3 but that always made me groggy in the morning so i gave up on it.
What's nice about ambien is that you can take half and it still works wonderful. <3 Gonna call my dr in a bit, /wink.
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(Monday, July 30, 2007-)
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Watching the view [yeah...i watch the view, lol].
They're talking about usher & his wedding cancellation because his mother didn't approve his to-be wife.
Hm...when it gets to that point [when the wedding's already planned] wouldn't a supportive parent just suck it up and go to the wedding and act like they care?
HMmmm then again, when my mom doesn't approve something, she can be quite stubborn and hold grudges for quite a while, haha. :P She didn't like some of the guys i dated for a bit...and when she didn't approve, lol she didn't fail to tell me either. She approved of Koichi though [strangely enough]. That's only because he was "cute", "catholic", and a good student. He looked like the type of boy my mother would've wanted me to go out with. LOL little did she know, omfg...oh man.
I wish i could show you pictures from back in the day. We went to Japanese school on Saturdays like good children & Mass on Sunday. NO, i didn't go to mass with him - thank god...but you know my mom appreciated lol knowing he went to mass on Sunday. How easily amused she can be.
Yeah when i first started going out with Damon, he wasn't my mom's type. My dad wasn't all too happy either because he couldn't have a baseball conversation with him either. LOL haha, that's how he judges whether or not it's a good one, lol if he can have a baseball conversation with him...and at least recognize baseball stadiums. Haha we used to play this game where he'd name the city and i'd name the team, stadium, & all star players. LOL, i couldn't do that now...well maybe, haha but i haven't been up to date with all the newer players on the active rosters. He just expects the significant other to know them as well, haha. It's quite a feat - especially when my type is usually particularly nerdy.
Oh yeah and my MOTHER, omg. Damon had long hair...haha and was catholic, but didn't attend mass. LOL My mom would even tell me, "What kind of mother does he have that doesn't take him to mass?" >.< Then many years pass...and she finally accepts everything. It took a while though. :P She doesn't quite understand his antisocial-ness either. Haha...My mom liked me being super social in high school/college [joining clubs - organizing events, extra curriculars], basically being outgoing. I guess she was confused why i liked someone more quiet, haha. -_-
Yeah, i can be super social, haha...but it's more of like a talent that i have to spec in. It's there, but i hardly like to waste points into it. I should put 5 points into it all the time, but i'd rather put points into other things...another talent tree - possibly one with higher defense/resistance talents. LOLL? Hahaha, it's so true though. :)
OMG i wanna make a michie talent tree! haha...brb <3
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(Saturday, July 28, 2007-)
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Just finished watching the movie "Flyboys".
XD gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why didn't he just ninjahearth with her! >.< WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?!?!
T_T
james franco movies make me cry. you just wanna hug him. all his movies are so unfortunate...lol.
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(Friday, July 27, 2007-)
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Hmmm yeah tough day. I know, i shouldn't complain - it could be way worse and it's tough for everyone - not just me...yeah yeah, i know.
Out of all my Dads thousands of clients, i have ONE. One client still remains my responsibility to this day.
Even if i'm working somewhere else, that account is still my responsibility.
It's fine.
Hm... my dad forgets that i'm 23. Well no, he knows i'm 23, but he doesn't think that number applies to me or something. As if my own personal goals weren't high enough...my dad has standards set for me that are so unreachable sometimes, i dunno what the hell he's thinking.
For example, "Christine can reprogram the database if we need alterations." and when i reply to him, "Uhh...no i can't." He gets all angry like, "So what you're trying to tell me is that a 15 year old can do it, but as you grow up in age you grow more incapable?"
Okay for one thing, maybe he's right. Maybe i do grow more incapable as I age. I haven't programmed an ASP/SQL database in fucking 8 years. I don't even remember the goddamn syntax. I guess I could pick it up again, but that would require hours of relearning the syntax, installing compilers, and trial-error time that I HONESTLY don't feel like allocating time for. I'm not stupid, damnit - i'm fucking practical. I can't re-learn a programming language from 8 years ago in 5 minutes. I'm sorry i'm not Data, DAD.
God he wanted me to go into comp-sci/engineering SO effing bad.
It just frustrates me that i'm not what he wanted me to be or something. He would've been so overjoyed if I were born as a boy, grew up liking baseball, got decent grades, had a similar sarcastic attitude, and graduated a comp-sci/engineering major.
OH ho ho ho and when he found out that i was still helping out SCG and doing contract work, you know he had a field day with that one. "You can't just apply for a job that's more permanent?" -_- ugh...can't you just be satisfied that i HAD a job? or that a 21 year old got a job as an associate producer? I'm not fucking blowing smoke up my ass or anything - it's more like, well shit i know it's not the best...but i'm trying to make the best out of any crap situation.
It's like in HS, when i got straight A's and ONE C-. I got a C- in [believe it or not] Art 1. I was in this accelerated college prep thing called the Humanities Academy and we were required to take an Art course as well as hardass freaking ap general ed courses. Anyway, since ART was a humanities elective and "not as important" as ace-ing my GE classes, I spent most of my time working on the HARD classes and neglecting the easy class.
Anyway, my dad & mom had a shitfit about my C-. They wouldn't even fucking acknowledge the fact that i had 6 other A's. YES, 7 CLASSES. They even attempted to make me retake the class for a higher grade. It wasn't possible since i was a senior, but they argued w/ the school for a while nevertheless.
Yeah THAT SUCKS.
So anyway, i had to drive to Alameda today to shoot pictures for this one account i'm working on. My dad doesn't like me driving anywhere that's more than 15min away. He's paranoid. Anyway he offered to drive me. I went with him and honestly the WHOLE EFFING WAY THERE, he nagged me on how much money i've been spending. "Do you honestly think money grows on trees?", "YES DAD, and when you shake the tree...money bags fall out...then if you plant those money bags, they turn into other money trees!"
MY DAD USES THAT "Money doesn't grow on trees." fucking phrase. It's so OLD FASHIONED it's gross!!! Okay well no, i don't hate it that much...but he's so cliché sometimes, it grosses me out.
So i ask him, "What the hell did i buy that you're so upset about?" and he replies, "Nothing, but you were thinking about spending money on hair just a few days ago. You have responsibilities as an adult...we're not gonna hold your hand the whole way through...and you have to make better judgment calls and less impulsive decisions."
Uhhh...when i asked..."What the hell did i buy that you're so upset about?" and when he replied, "Nothing [...]" that was my whole point.
So then i said, "uhh...well...i didn't end up buying anything, did i?" and he said, "Well why would you even look into buy something so useless anyway? That just shows so much immaturity."
GOD. He just wants to win an argument SO FUCKING BAD that i just dropped it. I didn't even fucking respond. LIKE there's NO GODDAMN premise of argument! I DIDN'T BUY HAIR EXTENSIONS! I MISS MY GODDAMN HAIR! SO SUE ME THAT I FUCKING LOOKED ONLINE! I didn't do anything wrong!
YARGH...but he JUST has to argue. That's how he shows he cares AND I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. I know he doesn't mean half the shit he brings up. I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT! He's smiling half the time. I honestly feel like it brings him joy when he gives me misery. Either that or he enjoys my overly asshole-y sarcastic responses so he adds fuel to the fire to keep it burning.
The difference between him and I is that I HONESTLY don't like it after a while. After a while it turns into a real fight [well for me] and he gets me to hate his fucking guts. Like you ungrateful asshole, what did osaka say? OH "Don't look a gift horse in the mouth?" DAMNIT. Be KIND to the animals you whore!?!! -_-
SOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooo controlling -_-!!
I refused to go to the Giants game w/ him tonight. YEAH I WAS THAT annoyed. I think he's going to take one of his good friends...either Jeff or my mom.
"You're not watching the giant's game?"
OF COURSE im watching the game - just not with you teasing me about Tim Lincecum the WHOLE FUCKING night. HOLY GOD. YOU KNOW, if i was a boy, he'd NEVER tease me about freaking baseball players. Well, lol he'd probably tease me about girls...haha, but STILL! DAMN, in 10th grade it was Derek Jeter. Then Arod...and ichiro. Honestly dad, DO YOU HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT ANY OF THESE GUYS ARE MY TYPE AT ALL? SERIOUSLY!? The point is [to me at least] he ISN'T serious...which is why he jokes about them OH SO VERY MUCH. NOW it's Tim Lincecum. YES DAD, I KNOW HE's my age. GUH!?!!!!?!
-_- NO thanks. I looked him up yesterday because when i saw him, he looked SO FREAKING YOUNG that i was driven to look up a DOB. He's a pretty good player, I guess? But COME ON! -_- JEEZ. I have my desktop background saved for only 2 celebrities [sorta] and neither of which spots are reserved for a rookie pitcher of the Giants - that's for sure.
YARGH!
-_- bah okay i think im done venting.
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(Thursday, July 26, 2007-)
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OH yeah...
I already like Leotheras the Blind and i have even got there yet. :P
MUAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA
Phase 2
Demon Phase, lasts about 60 seconds.
Leotharas turns into a demon and remains stationary while shooting out Chaos Blasts on his target. In this phase, the warlock offtank tanks Leotheras from range so that melee DPS can still attack him without being hit by Chaos Blast.
The offtank warlock needs to use Searing Pain to grab and hold aggro on Leotheras. It doesn't really matter where the warlock stands as long as there it is clear of Leotheras and there isn't anyone in a 10-15 yard range of him. Everyone needs to be well clear of the offtank warlock to avoid being hit by Chaos Blast, which Leotheras will start casting on the warlock. 15 seconds into the phase, he'll summmon Inner Demons for some random people, and they will have to kill their own Inner Demon. After the 60 seconds are over, he'll go back into his humanoid form.
He will rotate between Phases 1 and 2 until he's at 15%. This is when Phase 3 starts.
/wink
It's really hard to watch the giants vs. braves game while i'm trying to learn this strategy, haha. I hear an "OHHHH!!!!" right behind me...and quickly turn - start cheering...and then fucking forget what the hell i just read, haha. :P
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+5:24 PM]*
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I couldn't remember my old mlb password to bats4ever@aol.com haha...so i had to renew my oldass aol account JUST so i could resend the password to it.
I had to look up Tim Lincecum's stats lol and decided to watch some stuff i missed - and you had to log in to look. I couldn't for the life of me remember the old password from... 1997, haha.
<3
Gah!! XD I had all this old mail from old friends and old addresses, haha! Gross.
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(Wednesday, July 25, 2007-)
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I so almost just payed $1400 on HAIR. Yeah i'm an idiot.
I really miss my long hair though T_T it's depressing, haha.
I did the consultation, the hair matching, the whole shebang. I even set up the appointment to get the extensions put in.
LOL what swayed my decision?
I thought of what i could buy with $1400. I could UPGRADE the RAM in my computer. Fuck, i could buy a new computer. Not that I would...but still...$1400 is a lot of fucking money.
I REALLY miss my hair. T_T I don't regret cutting it off because it felt good at the time...i just feel like i look like a 12 year old haha and that saddens me. LOL
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It's going to be a good day. XD
I'd blog more, but i had quite a long convo w/ frank last night - i'm all vented out.
Gegsn respecced to prot, LOL. ^_^ gahhh i think prot is my favorite - leveling w/ a paladin spec. I really like Holy when we're already 70...but leveling with a prot spec paladin was fun. I never died - EVER. He'd tank my aggro and keep me alive if needed. I could never pull aggro off of him either. XD Yeah it was cool.
There really hasn't been a reason for him to switch back since then...until now ;P. Justin's paladin is holy...and we're in lack of a tank, haha so shoji's taking over i think??
O_O I NEED TO LEVEL UP MIICHIIE while i still can...
Last night i had a dream that i couldn't sleep...tossing and turning but i couldn't just fall asleep. Anyway i woke up SO SUPER tired this morning...haha even if it were just a dream. -_- weird.
Alright im getting my coffee and watching morning shows /wave.
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(Tuesday, July 24, 2007-)
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G'morning :D
I'm feeling better this morning. I was so pissed last night - HONESTLY i almost impulsively moved michie over to another server. I SWEAR, lol. Then i remember that i couldn't do that because today was a raid day, haha.
I had a talk with damon last night about nerdiness. T_T I had a suzumiya haruhi moment where i got bored and not satisfied with myself. I think it's episode 13? Yep, confirmed. First quarter of episode 13.
Anyway, he thinks im special by being nerdy and weird. If i ever did change, then i'd be conforming to everything normal. Even though i don't feel special - even though i feel weird and bad...that maybe the weird and bad feeling is a hint that i'm not normal - thus, being special after all.
I guess i can be satisfied with that - for now at least.
Hmm i don't like being the center of attention, the only girl in the raid, the only warlock - etc. It's more on the lines of...goals that i place for myself to meet. I get frustrated if i don't reach them. -_-
Meh. I gotta lvl miichiie to 45 soon - catch up to Bazington. I'm losing motivation playing her though. -_- I'm losing motivation to play this game. /sigh we'll see.
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(Monday, July 23, 2007-)
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I'm so pissed off at Frank, it's not even funny.
I ask him ONE THING - give me my fucking flash key. And no, once again...he FAILS to deliver. That's the fucking LAST time i lend him something. He can't return anything to save his life. I was surprised i got fucking 650g back in the mail.
He didn't even apologize for fucking ruining my fucking transmute. I even texted saying, HEY I NEED A PRIMAL MIGHT. Forget it, i'll find some other smarter alchemist that won't fucking kick me off and hearth.
Hmm it just added funk to the already shit tastic day, i guess.
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I really REALLY don't want to play on Ner'zhul. -_- Actually if it weren't for Osaka, Sho, and Justin - i probably wouldn't even play at all anymore.
No, i could really care less if Azer played on my server or if he played at all. For the first part, we rarely play together anyway - and he's on a different TIER of EEEEEE1337NESS /coughASSHOLYNESS/cough that i'd hope to god to never find myself on.
No the whole, "i don't even wanna play anymore" thing doesn't just come from Frank. There's a bunch of things added together including guild drama and lack of progression. He's just the irritating cake topper.
I think I'm officially over the whole being ignored thing and "i'll only answer to you when i need something" thing. Yeah, whatever. Like i've ever asked him to do ANYTHING that i probably wouldn't do for him in return.
Yeah i'm THAT pissed.
OH YEAH that MC run didn't make things any better. I think i'd rather sleep with my ex boyfriend and RUIN MY marriage than EVER - EVER EVER EVER go to fucking MC with Kookee, Alan, and Shookers....ACTUALLY ALL THOSE RANGED DPSERS EVER - EVER AGAIN. As if because we've reached 70...that lvl 62 MC elites won't fucking hurt us at all. -_- GOD i hate it when i say something and MEAN it and it falls onto deaf ears. "the point of warlocks are to have the highest amount of dps yet the lowest amount of threat...or as LOW threat as you can make it...ESPECIALLY if you're demonology." What the hell does anyone care? They don't. They're all so eager to out dps me that they don't give a fuck if they pull and WIPE THE WHOLE GODDAMN RAID. -________-!!!!!
GOD DAMNIT i don't even wanna do dailies.
>.< OH if that wasn't bad enough...I BLEW, yes BLEW 500g today ON FUCKING PRIMAL FUCKING MIGHTS because of Frank's wonderful hearth. Well no i blew 100g because of his hearth, and 300g on other primal mights...and the last 100ishg on 10 greater planar essences and eternium OREEEEEEEE FOR CHRISTS SAKE. It all went into the investment of a RUNED ETERNIUM ROD for enchanting - because Anday needed mongoose on his weapon to find out RIGHT AFTER i made the effing rod that he didn't need the enchant anymore. >.O Damnit!! -_-
Well i guess it doesn't really matter...i needed the rod anyway, but the difference is - i would've FARMED for those fucking primal mights versus spending fucking a halfk of gold im supposed to be saving.
I honestly give up saving for a mount. Someone's always going to need something and the mount honestly doesn't mean enough to me to fucking not be able to use funds on other people. What? I mean, i'd rather get osaka's epic mount than get michie one. I could give a shit less about a mount if it means i have enough funds to craft the belt of blasting if i ever get the drop, or other things. Or a special present like the scarlet chestpiece XD. I owe bazington bigtime...so i'll probably blow it on him soon. If the robes of insight are at the AH i'd probably get him those.
Trust me, i care about the mount - sorta. I took screenshots a long time ago...there was this nagrand quest where you got to ride a dragon. Michie looked so cute on one. I thought it was great, but i wasn't gonna waste my time on dailies to get exalted to get an epic dragon. I have a screenshot on a dragon already that means enough to me.
Hmm...and i think it's good that im getting so tired of WoW about now...lol, because i'm going to have to give it up for the most part in about a few weeks. I'll be on for raiding...maybe? I dunno -_- i haven't even decided that yet.
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On another random note, SEE...guys don't like girls that play video games. -_- Justin and Andy both think it's weird. UGH! I make Justin feel nerdy and he doesn't like that. T_T Shoji thinks it's cool...but to a certain extent. I think osaka doesn't really think about it much... and i KNOW the rest of them down there probably wouldn't date a girl that did like games >.<. It's so laaaaame! T_T I was multitasking raiding MC + FF2ing. Dafansu was laughing at me so bad in vent. I KNOW - he's kidding - but that still isn't the type of girl ANYONE would like, really. I'm not girly and sleazy enough to be attractive. God what the fuck was Damon thinking?
I don't even wanna go to blizzcon anymore T_T. I was so excited like a few days ago.
I'll still be Frank's bitch and drive down to visit no moo. It's a commitment i made a long time ago that i won't go back on. I'll give Alan my ticket. He'll take it. I can stay with Andy + Justin while everyone's attends the con. -_- I've so had it with nerdy shit. It makes me sad.
It's episode 14 - seriously.
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Now Playing: Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani
Kinda late post - yeah i know, it's just been quite a morning already.
So i guess my post is about what it's like to be an only child.
LOL i was reading this self-examination article of an only child psychologist.
It just made me smile because I understand everything she means.
1. she's asian american
2. she had braces + glasses in jr high and was a big dork sorta
3. she had this retarded relationship with her cheater exboyfriend
4. she's gullible
5. her relationships with guys. "She places guys and potatos on the same level..."~kyon [suzumiya haruhi]
6. Only child syndrome.
"I'm a classic case. What is it exactly? Well I don't know if this is actually a clinical term, but I blame a lot of my issues on being an only child. The solitude, the lack of constant peer interaction, the unproportional amount of adult contact, all creating a proneness to loneliness, selfishness, pride, a need of belonging and approval, in addition to having a weight of responsibility to my family at a very early age."
[WHY AM I PSYCHOANALYZING THIS!? >.< God.]
Anyway, in response to her quote, the difference between her and I...is that i actually appreciated the abovementioned items.
a. "Solitude" & "Lack of constant peer interaction": Okay...so, at school...i was social - really i was. Hmm...even then, I still enjoyed being alone in my "bat cave" a million times more than hanging out with a bunch of kids my own age.
Hm i could pull off being social really well - trust me in my whole time in school k-college, i've always been pretty social. That doesn't even begin to describe how much more /sigh PHEW it felt when i got home, closed my door, and played video games by myself. I don't really know what to call that? I wasn't antisocial and introverted by any means...but hmm, i liked alone time A LOT more than people time - haha the minimal alone time i did have.
b. "The unproportional amount of adult interaction": In my free time, having conversations with kids my own age wasn't all the most enticing, i guess. Hmm I guess the topics of conversation w/ them weren't always the most educational [ew gross, i can't believe i'm saying this]. Maybe educational isn't quite the term...but I liked learning about current events or knowing random things that my fellow peers had NO idea about.
I had 2 first cousins: Rey and Rangell. They're brothers, sons of my Aunt [my mom's sister]. Hmm, well they were quite a bit older than me - considering my parents had me quite late in life, i was the baby of all the cousins. Anyway I grew up [sorta] with them...and they were the closest people to me through my child/adolescent changes. Rey's about 33 or 34 right now and Rangell's about 30. Yeah - quite a bit older. Anyway, other than parents, grandparents, aunts & uncles...they were the people i looked up to closest to my age.
Hm...Keep in mind that Rey is totally a nerd and Rangell is totally a jock. Two sides of the spectrum - socially, i guess. They both have nerdy tendencies...but Rey actually lived out the whole introverted antisocial thing while his brother was in varsity football/baseball and was totally social and outgoing. Since they were in High School or College when i was in late elementary school, you kinda pick up fads - gaming knowledge, etc...that a normal 10 year oldish kid wouldn't get. Meh i guess it makes sense why I became tomboyish/nerdy...or into sports+sci-fi. I blame it all on them.
One labor day weekend, I researched the abundance of space anomalies FOR FUN - just because iono, my cousin was a big nerd and would appreciate it, i guess. :P We looked at the mars anomalies for hours before resuming a star trek marathon.
c. "lonliness": Hmm i don't even think i felt lonely, haha. I think i strived to be alone sometimes. I remember the phrase, "Okay Mom...go away" a lot, haha. It sounds really assholey but honestly you have NO idea - my mother didn't have a sense of privacy, lol. She had a persistence like NO other.
d. "selfishness": hmmm well yeah, it's gotten 90% better nowadays but when I was younger...even all the way to college i was pretty selfish. I never really ever had to share anything. Hm, even with my cousins..."you have your own" was a typical thing, i guess. I guess, you'd assume..."That's great, you ungrateful spoiled brat!" but honestly, it just made things a bit harder later on in life.
Hmm having roommates was weird at first. I learned a lot when rooming with people, i guess. When my roommates would come by my room to "borrow" something without asking, it used to really bug me. LoL I didn't really like sharing for a long time. I'd think to myself, omg it's not like i ever go into YOUR room without you knowing and take something of yours. Since then, i've grown up...thankfully haha, and realized that the material item isn't that big of a deal - that sharing is caring /wink.
Maybe it's because i'm used to my mom rearranging my room. She would just come in and "help" clean the room. I'd never know where anything was and it would PISS ME OFF so much, hahaha. I know that sounds spoiled and ungrateful also...but i dunno, there's something about people going through my shit that pisses me off. Even though i don't have anything to hide - or anything "worth seeing"...it still annoys me. Oh yeah and the few times that i DID have things "worth seeing" of course, you know she'd look at it/read it, whatever.
It still annoys me when she "helps" clean though. I don't think that'll ever change. She'll go through my drawers to put away my clothes and I tell her, "Mom! Just leave it on the bed...i'll put it away. ARGH!" "Christine, i'm just HELPING you...you'll get to it later on and by then you'll be tired and end up putting it on the floor." Which is probably true, but what the hell does that matter, honestly?
Anyway, this psychologist continues to talk a bit about being territorial, haha. LOL i have passwords - DIFFICULT passwords set to everything. I clear my cache/history/cookies everytime people use my computer - WHICH IS RARE ANYWAY. Lol, hmm...what else...hm jealousy? Yeah i'm not really that jealous, LOL. Or...maybe I am, but i suppress it really well, haha? Yeah I don't think i'm those overly-paranoid girlfriend/spouses, but hmmm i have my days maybe? Everyone does. So all in all, am i territorial? Probably - but i have a hard time showing it. It's not the right thing to do.
e. "Pride": Well yeah, i've done pretty well in everything i gave effort to. I mean, not the top in the class - but pretty good. I have REALLY REALLY high standards for everything and especially for myself. It makes things exceptionally difficult when i'm doing something i'm not entirely good at. LoL im impatient also...so i expect to just master things REALLY quickly [well not master...but be good at] and if i'm not, i get really bored, unmotivated, and pissed. Which is why the Suzumiya Haruhi series freaks me out quite a bit. You'd just have to see it to understand.
I'm not really PROUD of the accomplishments so far...it's actually the opposite. On the outside it's a confidence that seems like pride. On the inside, it's frustration that i can't be better in a shorter amount of time. I don't fail things unless i absolutely don't try. When i fail things that i'm good at - it makes me hate everything about anything.
LOL I guess that's why i was so goddamn pissed working on graviton - missing our Alpha declaration. It didn't matter that the whole rest of the class missed Alpha also...but the fact that I failed that milestone pissed me off. I don't fail milestones - it's not part of my internal programming. LoL maybe it's sorta good? Because i'm always determined to do something better regardless of the consequences? LOL it's good and dangerous at the same time - it's the only way to live, haha. /wink
f. "Need of belonging and approval": Kyeahhhh hmmm...I guess this is true, but in a weird way. I find approval in different things. I guess gaming is my biggest feeling of belonging & approval. I honestly don't give a shit what joe shmo thinks about me...but when my SWSTATS meter reads that i'm on the top 3 dps of the raid or my threat meter says i'm on the bottom - that's a big sense of approval. It's numerical and quite accurate. When i beat tetris under lvl 5 vs com, YEAH that screen that says you win + the score, is approval.
I'm not that good at accepting gifts from people...as well as compliments. So their approval - whether or not it's a, "Great job, Michie...your dps is awesome!" or "Christine, it's an accomplishment that you've *place accomplishment here*!" is kinda brushed off. I'm not ungrateful, it's just that it's hard for me to take shit like that seriously.
Hm, on another note...yeah i do try my hardest to make my parents proud of me. Even though i don't show it all that often i do worry what they think about me. Yeah, i dunno it's weird. And the few times that my dad doesn't throw a sarcastic comment my way and actually compliment progress, i get all weirded out but satisfied.
g. "The weight of responsibility to my family at a very early age": Yeah they talked to me like i was an adult since i was like 8. They expected me to understand their responsibilities and such...and i did. It's just weird, i dunno. I'd elaborate more, but i honestly don't know what to say.
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Hmm why did i write this longass blog entry? Because hm... well my uncle's been re-admitted to a mental institution today. He flew off the deep end last month and attempted to attack me with a lawnmower. Yeah - it wasn't so fun. Hmm... i had to call the cops, have my house on surveillance, and file for my 3rd restraining order in my lifetime. Yeah it hasn't been the most fun summer.
Hm well, my grandparents came over this morning to check on me. I was having a smoke because of a conversation earlier i had with the sheriff's department about my uncle's hospitalization. It's a lot in one day - i just wanted ONE smoke and a break. Anyway, my grandparents came by and saw me smoking and all hell broke loose.
YOU KNOW, if i had a brother/sister...they wouldn't even mention anything. NO...i get a call from my mom, then my dad, my aunt, my other uncle, my grandparents called back when they got home...even a call from the sheriff's department asking me if i was feeling okay - that my grandparents suspect that i'm depressed from my "smoking habits". DUDE I HAD ONE SMOKE!? You don't have to call in the cavalry, SERIOUSLY.
So yeah - it got a bit overwhelming and it's because of having only child syndrome, lol i swear.
After all that commotion - i still am having an okay day...it's really not that bad, but i seriously have to take a step back and laugh about the misery to prevent insanity.
What's cool about all the abovementioned stuff...is that a normal girl would probably breakdown, cry..., vent to a friend...etc. LoL, but i'm so weird... that i laugh about it, thank GOD that i'm not my uncle right now, then write a hugeass essay about only child syndrome. Okay maybe it's not cool, lol...but i'd like to think that optimism is 100x better than being pessimistic.
MEH. okay well im done, adios.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Sunday, July 22, 2007-)
+11:59 AM]*
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Now Playing: The kids bop commercial - Gwen Stefani - Sweet Escape
:D I'm raiding SSC on tuesday then Mag on Sunday. I'm not giving up my thursday Kara spot until there are two groups formed. I know, hypocritical [i told frank he can go raid with sb if he gets in...and he doesn't have to stick around] but i only said that because it's probably what he wants to hear.
There are only a few more things that i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY zomg x1095837382109203958 want upgrades to. Well lol, i want upgrades to everything - to t5 eventually...but only a few upgrades for SSC.
I want...
#1. Mainhand: Nathrezim Mindblade
#2. Trinket: Eye of Magtheridon
#3. Legs: a)Trial-Fire Trousers!! OMG...if not that then at least...
b)Leggings of the Seventh Circle
Now luckily #1 and #3a are both from Kara. #3b is from a world boss in Hellfire, i think? aaaaaaaaaaand #2 is from Mag, doi <3. Luckily i'm going to Mag/Gruul's next Sunday. HOPEFULLY it drops and i have enough dkp to roll on it :D...<33333
I am the UNLUCKIEST person ever, LOL! Seriously - i have the worst luck...but i think sometimes, it's SO BAD that there are an even amount of lotsa bad that cancels eachother out and i get "lucky". Hmmm i dunno how to make that make any sense. LoL it made sense in my head >.<.
Hmmm the next times i go to Kara, i'll roll, i promise. >;D
There's not really much i can upgrade anymore. >.< It's only a matter of time where i'll get bored and not wanna raid anymore. Haha i hope not - but it's honestly a trait that i wish i didn't have. If i get bored with something, i just drop it and move on. It's suzumiya haruhi-esque, which is why i appreciate that show so much, i guess. I know exactly how she feels. I wish i could be an archaeologist in egypt sometimes or an astronaut, a zookeeper, a novelist, a biochemist, a culinary specialist, etc.
I'm already bored with Karazhan. LOL it's to the point where i hold up a really really high standard with our performance in certain instances, Kara - if we don't clear in like 4ish hours, i'm pretty pissed behind vent. Hmm and if we die from a boss non accidentally [a DC or something], if we honestly were trying our hardest and wipe on a boss, i don't even want to play. Maybe I'm spoiled, but i'm not used to playing with people who don't know how to play anymore. If they pull aggro and die, i honestly would rather give up my spot and have another person take over and learn with this person. Maybe i've had my fill of pve learning for now? Iono. I honestly don't think i'm anywhere near Bloodywave's skills or anything...but getting this far already feels like an accomplishment, lol. I know it's stupid.
I hate being top dps because there's nothing to aim for - i like being like top 3...because it pushes you to strive for a higher dps. And...even if you can't ever make it, you're still top 3 dps of your guild. That makes me happy, lol. Dino's 5th or 6th ranked on our server in raid progression, and i honestly appreciate their humility sometimes. You'd think ewww only 5th or 6th ranked? But that's out of thousands of guilds on our server. Hmm sometimes I take what i have for granted sometimes...and have to step back and appreciate what i've gone through - who's helped in the process.
Hm yeah yeah, Yuki - i can't devote that much time to raiding. LOL you'd think i could, but I guess my playstyle is much more unpredictable than the average norm, i guess. I'm motivated to excel by people who i care about, i guess. Yuki's the biggest influence so far - WoW related I guess, he freaking isn't satisfied with ANYTHING i do, i swear, lol! I totally appreciate his honesty and support.
Hmm the thing is...i don't always wanna play WoW. I play WoW because my friends are on or i can make new friends...and play with them. I don't just wanna play because there are quests that fill my empty time. That makes me feel like i've wasted my life. As long as it involves people I care about - then it's never a waste of my time. Hmm...I guess that's one of the reasons why i hate dailies so much. It's such a waste of fucking time - a smart marketing decision on Blizzard's behalf. It provides incentive to the player to keep them on for a longer amount of time. Gathering quests are the LAMEST fucking quests in the WORLD - but it's WONDERFUL because blizzard keeps you on for THAT much longer.
/wink If the whole game revolved around instancing and straight pvping, people would eventually get bored. That's where the side quests come in handy. By introducing an economic system [capital & gain/supply & demand], it gave value to time. I really don't feel like writing an essay on this - but all in all, the blizzard dev team are composed of sneaky sneaky smart individuals. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that people like rewards and options. This game is the epitome of rewards and options. In laymans terms, people like feeling "special" or "out of the ordinary". This game gives the player multiple ways of getting there without having to actually change IRL. In the end, they get the satisfaction of feeling special by having a piece of gear/mount/place whatever special item here without actually accomplishing ANYTHING in real life.
Yeah it's hax.
Why do i still play it if i know better? Because I like the satisfaction of getting a piece of gear that i've been striving for for a while, or giving a friend a piece of gear that i KNOW they've been wanting for a while. I know their what their reactions are going to be; the excitement, etc. I like two shot killing people in battlegrounds when i CANT do that in real life.
Now one thing i can't figure out is why i like paladins so much. In game i could give you a longass description - even gameplay mechanics. In real life though, I know i can figure it out, but my rationality won't allow me to. I've never dated a paladin-esque person - ever. I've always dated high dps warlock/rogue-esque people. Even Damon's a mage - troll mage, at that [lol probably arcane/fire]. I think i like the combatant personality types of these...>.< where they give me a bit of sarcasm/personal opinion. I guess i like it when they can stand up for themselves maybe even if there's no room for argument.
I love arguments where i'm smiling the whole time - hmm... i don't know how to explain that one. Like where it's just sarcasm building on sarcasm, or smart ass remarks that are just so far fetched that the whole argument basically is a merely a joke. I grew up that way, iono. I need tough love and i HATE being smothered. I HATE IT OMFG. I'd never date a guy that NEEDS to snuggle every chance. YUCK. Go beat off and gimmie a call whenever it's out of your system. Hmm back to the whole tough love thing...don't get me wrong, i appreciate hugs and snuggly girl stuff every once in a while - but those things are special. They shouldn't be overdone. If you're like...tough lovey 80% of the time, then in the 20% of the time you're squishysoft it's that much more special - i think.
Maybe i am complicated, sorry. LOL this blog is making me want to rewrite a list of prerequisites, haha not that it matters but my type has much evolved. I never thought that i was high maintenance, but Damon tells me I am. Hm i'm not offended by it much honestly - even though i pout when he says it. It's not a real pout. It's not high maintenance like the typical "high maintenance girly girl". It's a constant need of mental stimulis - which is another reason why Suzumiya Haruhi and i are like THIS!
That's probably the whole reason why i've dated "high dps classes". Maybe i figure, if i date someone like me...that they'll be challenging enough and fun. It always ends in a REAL argument; boring and annoying. I never feel comfortable being myself around most of these people. I always hold back nerdiness, girlyness, place other michie trait here.
Now paladins, hmm...i still can't figure it out. LoL it's probably obvious, and i just refuse to accept it. Yeah, i dunno why i like them so much. They're so different, it's nuts. Yeah, yeah opposites attract maybe? They're not all that different though in many ways. I am NOT figuring this out. /wink, lol Who's Q?
I could sum it up in 1 sentence - actually in 3 words. OH GOD NOT THOSE WORDS, i promise, LOL...honestly not those words. Jesus, it starts with a "They _____ __."
Which is why i understood why Haruhi chose Kyon - OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD. You can't even tell if he really likes her or not THE WHOLE SERIES. Well jesus, i couldn't tell. The story leans towards Kyon really liking Asahina - so you'd think...yeah i dunno. There's somthing so annoying about him that i like. I dunno why, it's horrible. Even in the 2nd to the last episode [even the beginning of the last episode], he doesn't seem to like her. He's so annoyed of her it's horrible. Throughout the series, you kinda want to yell at him for being such a pansy bitch and say, "OMG IF YOU HATE HER THAT MUCH THEN JUST LEAVE HER OMFG!" but he never does.
Well, then the last episode happens, and well - that shot out of left field for me at least. Of course watching episode 14 felt like that one day at work...when i got into that fairly large argument with Frank about who he liked and why he wouldn't tell me. Where you're so dead set on the answer being one way and it ends up totally not what you were expecting.
Yeah many people said that it was kind of obvious, but not for the person who was living through the situation. You trust the person to tell you the truth and if their "truth" is something different, you've come to accept that, i guess. OH, that was reflecting episode 14 - btw, lol. GAH i think i'm gonna have to rewrite some of this later on. I don't want it to come out weird.
But anyway...after watching that series in episode order - then chronologically... lots of stuff that I couldn't figure out in my own life made sense.
She chose Kyon because he complimented her. NONO, not like...compliments...but complimented like...complementary colors. Like, they weren't Black and White - one was Black & Gray striped and the other was White and Gray striped. That doesn't make any sense at all T_T im sorry. He was the normal out of her so NOT NORMAL life. In the end...he was really NOT that normal because of her. You just have to see it - it's hard to explain. It's my life in nutshell. There were some episodes that i honestly had to pause and take a shower for. The similarities were so striking, that it gave me a chill and i had to take a break.
OH GOD too much blogging. i gotta get back to cleaning the house, adios.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, July 21, 2007-)
+10:40 AM]*
xoxo~
OMG kazzumd, why did you leave us??? >.< his brain makes me giddy.
"uh yea its needed for high dps, did you read all the posts and links? Eventually you get to someone that says its good, and backs it up.
all mobs in the game have 50 resistance and equal level to you and then its modified by 5 resistance by level difference.
So a level 63 has 65 spell resistance.
Where this really matters is binary spells, spells with more than one effect IE frostbolt, or every dot in the game. For binary spells your hit and chance to resist are put into one roll. So you have a 63 boss with 16% to miss, and then 65 spell resistance. It converts the 65 spell resistance to a % to miss and adds that to its total resistance check. Lets just say that would be 25% to miss. Binaries can't have a partial resist, they are fully resisted or hit for full effect.
So spell penetration is useful in PvE, but not really when there's a warlock around to give you a curse. And most noticeably for frost mages, shadow priests and other warlocks.
Also that's not including that some mobs and mob types have higher than baseline resistance and some have none and others have vulnerabilities. Noticeably Dragons have high fire resistance, or immunity and high shadow resistance. Elementals with have a high resistant to their type or immunity, but not always, some void walkers appear to have no more than the by level baseline. Also most undead have high shadow resistance.
Also for dotting classes spell penetration is really needed because in addition to having to make the hit or miss check you have to roll a resistance check verses every tick of the effect. So a mob with 65 resistance is virtually guaranteed to have at least one partial resist per effect.
If you really want to see this, download Combat Stats, it keeps track of all your partial resists by spell. Back when I had no spell penetration and was raiding BWL/AQ40 with TPK I would typically see about 30% of all my dot tick getting some kind of partial resist, 25%,50%,75% or 100% on the ticks and that was WITH COS up. This was on boss fights, notable the 3 dragons in bwl always saw a descent drop in dps.
The thing about most of those post is they're reference resistance data from GLOCK, with was a horrible mod and gave a lot of faulty data. Primarily because it didn't scan for debuffs like COE and COS and then gave a mobs resistance level. Quit a while ago there was a Warlock raid leader in the warlock forums that ran GLOCK on his raids and didn't have anyone use COS or COE in the raids this was for his Naxx runs. GLOCK recorded that raz have approximately 125 shadow resistance, however when you run it with COS up it came in lower than the difference should have been. Apparently GLOCK's factoring equations had difficultly factoring resistance when the %.
Personally i think that has to do with the resistance check equations itself. From looking at the datum blizzard has supplied I would infer that the equation is logarithmic, set to give you a high total damage mitigation but you still take damage at higher resistance levels.
I have partially verified this back when I was running bwl. At between 195 and 205 fire resistance for firemaw I was able to get a partial resistance on about 75% of his fire debuffs. Finding this specific area was important because his debuff was a binary spell, it did fire damage and applied a stacking debuff.
Most of the people that have tried to tack this problem have made several mistakes.
A) Not accounting for curses
B) using linear algebra to solve for the resistance level
and fianlly
C) being fucking stupid and never just run undead strath on a warlock and recorded your resistance levels with and without cos and compared them to another level 60 instance with out undead.
If you do option C its become readily visible that undead have higher shadow resistance level than they should and if you use something like the eye of moam http://www.wowhead.com/?item=21473 you could completely mitigate this.
I also ran MC with the eye and was able to do FAR FAR more damage on the order of over 100 dps by using the eye and that was with COE up already.
All it takes is simple observation to know that spell penetration is a good stat but situation and better for some classes than others.
I can go into futher detail later, but ive got to cook breakfast for my girlfriend ;)"
LOLOL I Appreciate Kazzmd's post...lol i really do, but then Shookers replied...
"Ironically that entire essay is totally useless because
A) CoS/CoE is always up in any meaningful raid
B) This isn't Pre-BC. There are no significant raid mobs with higher than baseline resists
Therefore
Spell Penetration = 100% useless for pve.
And resistances are more exponential than logarithmic. The difference between 364 and 365 resistance is fairly big, where as the difference between 0 and 1 is negligible"
LOL he's right. :D this isn't pre-bc anymore [thank god or i'd never catch up and be forced to play something else]. And he's RIGHT, both CoS AND CoE are always up. I'm the CoS bitch, which is why i specced malediction. /wink <3
Shookers is such an asshole...a high dps asshole.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+12:52 AM]*
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<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, July 20, 2007-)
+10:45 AM]*
xoxo~
Morniiiing /wink
Awwwwww i had quite the convo with Andy last night, lol. Muh little bebi Sol is in LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUVVVVVVVE. I swear i thought it was heartburn and i was gonna advise to take some mylanta or pepcid ac or something. It's so cute because he does this rambling thing when he's nervous...lol like he's trying to dig himself into a burrow to hide & all the flung dirt in his digging process are his ramblings. It's so cute, hahahahaa >.< i can't help it.
I dunno why he felt that i could help him...but for some reason, i think i knew what to do. >.O it was weird? Like what to point out without hurting his feelings...XD he's a cute guy...he just has to be more confident.
lol we established 3 rules...
1. Be more confident! Girls like a guy that believes in himself - lol it's so hot, REALLY.
2. Don't ramble! ramble to me - but don't ramble to her or coworkers at that matter!
3. Be able to laugh at yourself! Don't be a stick in the mud...and overly defensive. She pokes fun at you because it's cute and she's being flirtatious. LoL She's expecting you to get all "wtf?! *place defensive boy maneuver here*" but when you're not as she expects - when you're polite, a gentleman, and man enough to laugh at yourself, it's totally attractive.
LOL NOT THAT I WOULD KNOW?! /wink ^_^ maybe im more ninja than i look.
Now it's my turn to ramble.
Along with rule #1. I think this is one of the reasons why Anakin is so hot. He's so WRONG in so many ways - but he's so confident and believes in himself so much. Most girls don't like squishy EMO guys on the outside. Hmmm it's kinda alright when you guys are together already for a while and the guy opens up and he's sensitive too. That's cute...but guys should never be more emotional on the outside than their girl, imo. The second a guy i barely know starts venting the world to me, they automatically forfeit their ballgame - seriously. Close friends are different - for example...Andy & Justin don't count AT ALL <3. I'm eager to find out what happens with Andy today.
#2 Rambling. LOL Andysol has a few traits that are SOOOOOOO /poke-worthy. He doesn't know what to say sometimes if you bring her up. He was telling me about her laugh XD lol...and his voice cracked...quite a bit. He also gets SO affected by everything she says/does. She apparently casts a debuff on him that turns up the clumsiness level too. LOL <3 it's so cute haha. OKAY now what's really funny is that ANDY talks A LOT...but when she's around all of a sudden he's muted. He says he feels comfortable to tell her like everything but he CAN'T...he PHYSICALLY CAN'T - lol he doesn't know what to say. HOW is that possible?! OMG that's so cute hahahahaaa i wanna /poke at him but i'd never drop his confidence for real! <3 haha
[zomggggggg DEREK JETER!? OH it's a gatorade commercial, lol]
#3 Being able to laugh at yourself...lol. Andy gets really defensive and grumpy sometimes! He's a sensitive guy - lol...and it's so obvious. Hmm super sensitive guys tend to pretend by being mad/grumpy at stuff on the outside to hide the worried/anxious/possibly hurt/squishy stuff on the inside. I know...because I'm like that...and most of my close boys are like that too. He can just be a bit defensive and expects that he doesn't have a chance before he attempts anything.
LOL That's probably one of the major reasons why i'm married right now. I didn't think i had a chance with anyone lol...and my current situation was pretty good so i just settled. Yeah i know, it's the pansy way out...but honestly - who'd be weird enough to date me? lol im being serious.
WHICH IS WHY - it's always out of left field when someone likes me I guess...because...hmm. Oh god i'm rambling. >.<
OKAY PHEW. Let me try to explain...
Okay like 16ish years ago I was on a tball team. It never crossed my mind that i was the 1 girl on the team. I thought of the positions i played, making my dad proud of me, and having fun. LOL i don't remember details...it's been a while...but the point was, if a boy was "mean" to me - i'd be MEAN back. I wasn't "mean" but REALLY MEAN. I didn't care because the boy wasn't the priority, i guess...tball was. LOL? GROSS. This is embarrassing and i'm not sure if i wanna keep elaborating.
Hmm the goal of being on the team was to be the best i could be - NOT to get distracted, i guess. I think I carried those traits for most of my life. I was just one of the boys trying to play first base like all the other boys playing their positions. Hmm...so if a boy acted different towards me - i thought there must be something wrong with him - which as i got older evolved to "omg he must be gay".
Lol and even now that im not so tomboyish [well...maybe i still am, iono >.< i let the girly out a lot now though], it still weirds me out everytime when a random person flirts. Hmm there are a few exceptions...a few people that don't weird me out anymore. I dunno, i'm not used to hearing girly compliments, so everytime i hear it - sometimes i dunno how to react. LoL like, ivy told me i was hot -_-...and i was mute for the rest of the raid. He was just being nice, but i've never been told that before...i dunno T_T it was weird. I was thinking to myself, "WHAT THE FUCK are you LOOKING AT? ARE YOU BLIND? Do you even know what hot looks like? Because that sure as hell isnt?! >.OOO!??! GAH CONCENTRATE ON THE FUCKING RAID! >B[!!!" but i didn't want to come off as a crazy bitch, so i replied, "XD ty" and continued to stay mute.
OUT OF LEFT FIELD. I was in a raid...how are gnome warlocks hot? YEAH they're not talking about my gnome, i know...i think that's what disappoints me. T_T I would've really meant the "XD ty" if it were complimenting my gear or my dps or something. /sigh >.>
I should be grateful for the compliment I guess, but unless it's from people [i care about] who's outside-WoW opinions actually matter, I really could care less. It's more disappointing than anything. I want to raid - so if we're not focusing on just that, then it just feels like an amateur guild [even though we're 5th on the server] and a high school clique. Maybe dinosaur isn't serious enough for me, lol iono.
OKAY that was a total ramble, haha...sorry.
***
On another note...
There's one thing that i do appreciate in our guild.
Shookers can be a complete dick sometimes...buuuuuuuuuuuuut, it's hot.
This guy applied to dinosaur...and he was kinda not up to par. Shookers let him have it.
"I shall go over for you in detail why we do not wish to have you join us:
- Your crappy spec which shows lack of class understanding
- The fact that you're letting your account expire means you don't like this game and likely won't play for longer
- You have no enchants which shows lack of commitment
- You have a terrible attitude. If you want to join my guild, you better not treat my members like pieces of shit.
- And ofcourse, the fact that we are full on druids
I hope you now understand why you would make a terrible addition to our guild.
Tah Tah"
/wink :D Shookers, you're so high dps it's nuts.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, July 19, 2007-)
+10:41 AM]*
xoxo~
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, July 18, 2007-)
+7:55 PM]*
xoxo~
OMYGOATSITFLOATS!
CORBY, Corby, CORBY you're nuts...and so is phil. XD
Summary cuz i gg get dindin but Gegsn's retribution, Miichiie's going Prot, Michie's not retired [Justin convinced her not to be...i haven't fully decided yet, but we'll see...things are looking good], Justin might join a raiding guild [WHAT WHAT!??!! XD], AND I HAVE YUKI'S LOGIN!?!?!!! >.OOOO!??!?!!
YES, to make me feel better, yuki gave me his login info...to play on another character if i didn't feel like playing Michie. NUTS, RIGHT!? This is coming from the guy that absolutely gave me shit for EVERYTHING. He's just so, "OMG NOT EVERYONE'S GONNA LIKE YOU MICHIE YOU HAVE TO BE TOUGH" "I don't buy your pouting - so don't try it on me." "when you pout it only makes me feel the need to be harder on you" kinda attitude. He's just so twisted in the head, LOL it's funny. Anyway he heard about the whole dinosaur shamble yeah there was more...>.> They've cancelled raiding until further notice. I'm not explaining why on blogger, it's a long fucking story...but yeah. Sooooooooo YUKI wants me to join SB LOLOL!?!?!!! And he's being really nice. It's funny...maybe i will...and just raid 30 hrs a week while i still can. :D It sounds way fun. /shrug
It's just funny because he tries so hard to be mean...and i'm so gullible that i believe him 90% of the time...and the few times he's nice, it's always so WEIRD. LOL?? Like, WTF? You're giving ME your info? WTF!? What the?
ANYWAY...i dunno what im doing...and im all kinda happy and confused...so im getting dinner. bye :D
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It's trying to choose between skyfire...
Skyfire: "yeah got a 3 day ban for "harsh language" extends till tomorrow on which day my account thus expires so....gg skyfire. I guess i'll be back on thursday"
Caught: "what kind of harsh language? i've been given a 'warning' for saying 'complete faggot'"
Skyfire: "I got caught up in a game of AV and said 'All the pussy bitches that arent pushing forward deserve to die a jews death.'"
Shugar...
Shugar: "LOL dude i asked a girl if she sucked a lot of dick in av... and 5 people said reported and nothing happened"
And scotto XD...
Gaffer: "On one rare occasion Scotto was in fact allowed to cross the street alone, his mother immediately realized what she had done and proceeded to ground him for 4 weeks."
I kinda like scotto, in a twisted - twisted way. He's only an asshole because of the reason why i'm such an asshole. LOL he's BRED that way.
Then there's Sweetpeach...the other girl in the Raid.
Sweetpeach: "I should be on since i love being yelled at all night and have everything blamed on healers when most of the time its not JUST because of us"
LOL I can't decide whether or not to appreciate her sarcasm or dislike her overdramatization. It's either that shit or talking about her breasts, gtfo seriously.
I love the morning, btw. I love it. AAAAAAND it's cloudy + possibly rainy. I LOVE LOVE LOVE today morning. I should move to washington state. Is it washington state? LoL i don't even know...where the Digipen/Nintendo headquarters are. I love rain when im inside - haha. I love blackouts and using the fireplace...XD i'm nuts.
On another note...I love my vista sidebar! LOL...I have a magic 8 ball thing, baseball scores, a voodoo doll and weatherbug! >.OOOO omgg haha. LoL it's like the exact same widgets...as my mac. XD nerdyyy.... OMGOMG I GET RSS FEEDS!? WHATWHAT?
okay...im done. im gonna play with vista more...i'm such a noob at it.
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(Tuesday, July 17, 2007-)
+9:56 AM]*
xoxo~
Gmoooooooooring.
LOL i had a talk with Damon last night about the decision to sorta-retire michie from FPD/NOMOO and he doesn't think I should. "But why would you stop playing with people you have fun with? That doesn't make any sense." Dude, it's not that simple...it's because I'm not playing with people i have fun with. There are new people that need to play with the people i have fun with so they can get kara-geared etc. There isn't a need for Michie anymore. I don't know how to explain it any other way. No one's deliberately being mean or anything - it's just there isn't a need for her dps when other people still need to learn...and there's adequate dps already.
No im not just leaving because she has her gear. Other people just don't have gear yet and need to be there more than I do. That's all T_T. MEH.
LOL anyway i felt bad for Damon a bit last night...because he's really supportive with my WoW stuff - i'm grateful. I feel bad because i vent to him about how excited/pissed off/place mood here in WoW, who i killed, who killed me, what i learned from leveling, MY NEW PONY[zomg!!!!!]...etc. It must get so annoying...i just feel bad -_-.
I wish he played - and rocked a lvl 70 troll mage [he's a fan of troll mages...from the card game]. He doesn't have to play on my server or with me for that matter - but honestly, it'd be fun if he knew what i meant when i shit talk about alliance in bgs...or /cheer when miichiie pwns because she's twinked. Or...being excited to train new skills, respeccing, etc. I was pissed off [not really pissed...lol] because i thought cleanse was taught at 40...but it's 42!!!!! XD I couldn't complain because i got my pony + other fun spells. <3 I can't wait for cleanse! ;D
Anyway it was stuff like that...that damon looked at me like, "...uh...okay?"
Hahaha...he says I like playing Warlocks and Paladins because it's like playing a square game. Haha i never realized it until he said something last night. He's right...I guess druids could match the square playing style too. "It's how you play all your Square games."
LOL...A typical square bossfight has 3 players against the boss. I play with two overpowered players and one filler character that usually dies in the first couple hits. I like relying on a melee/rezzing/white magic [buffs] character [usually the one with more hitpoints...attached is finalattack+phoenix materia aka "soulstone"] and a summoning/debuff/black magic character with a hugeass mana pool and lower hitpoints.
It starts with buffs[the many different kinds], then debuffs [the many different kinds] then stuns, close melee dps and ranged casting dps. There usually is a regen cast up [instead of mp5 it's hp1, lol]. Rebuff and re-debuff...because you only get like...a 5 minute buff/debuff cycle. "How do you remember when to put up buffs if you don't have a mod?" I didn't have a good answer to that before...but it's because i'm square trained. LoL, i'm forced to look because i know it's about to expire. I wish paladins had a regen HoT. That would be so fugging awesome.
OH man it almost makes me want to play 11 again. I hated the gameplay of 11...but it had so much potential. YOU COULD BE a paladin/dark knight...actually it'd be better as a dark knight/red mage. YOU COULD BE a LOCKADIN and do things on your own. It's everything michie it's not even funny. LOL Self sufficiency at its best. Well Red Mages are like destruction warlocks that can heal. They're not quite as powerful as Mages. Then there are dark knights...melee damage. /sigh...i'd have to play as a boy hume male if i ever played again...they're so freaking cute. I'd be motivated to play every day just to see my stupid character. LOL...you know what? i'm gonna play it right now. I'm gonna make a novice Hume male on bahamut, lol. /wink my account is still active.
On another note....I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanan play the lotr beta q.q! <3 It looks like fun.
Also...i've been organizing my computer - updating drivers and whatnot...and everytime i see the blond hair picture, it almost makes me miss it.
Iono, it didn't look bad...and it was so out of the ordinary, i liked it. Bah! LOL i would've kept it if it didn't make me feel so um... "smrt". People are so much nicer to you with blond hair too - it's amazing. My eyes looked HUGE! >.< WTHECK was up with that? Maybe i'll do it again someday /shrug?
alright im gonna game while i still can :D /wave
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(Monday, July 16, 2007-)
+10:57 PM]*
xoxo~
I'm officially retiring Michie from FPD/NOMOO. They don't need her anymore /sniffle.
T_T It breaks my heart.
I'm telling Ivy tomorrow I can raid with them on Thursdays too. There's more than enough people to fill Kara runs...and Alan-Beardyhead can handle the dps.
Andy doesn't like tanking for me so I'm not coming - it's that simple. I'm not making it hard or stressful on anyone. There are other people that don't dps as hard - take them, it'll make it easier on the group, whatever.
They want me to heal on Azer. I hate DYING regardless if i'm on Michie/Azer/anyone else. I can't save the newcomers - they ALL pull aggro and i only have ONE BoP. NO i will NOT use the bop on Anday - that's just retarded.
I just have to let go. T_T Gimmie a night, i'll get over it...or pretend like i have.
Michie's for SSC raiding and dailies w/ Gegsn.
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(Sunday, July 15, 2007-)
+10:51 PM]*
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i think i have food poisoning...>.< god damnit.
i've had a tummy ache for 2 days and haven't been able to hold down food really well. i'm also light headed and feel weak. LOL yeah i should probably go to the drs...but until it gets REALLY bad, i'm just gonna take my tums and relax.
I'm THAT stubborn, lol.
AND NO, i'm not pregnant. "I don't have pokemans."
...there isn't any way - trust me.
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+9:22 PM]*
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+2:19 PM]*
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WHAT it do, BITCHES.
nvidia hasn't released m9700 mobile sli ready drivers yet. I got it working, bitches.
haxxx <3
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(Saturday, July 14, 2007-)
+5:18 PM]*
xoxo~
Now Playing: Radiohead - Creep
I just woke up from a nap...yeah it wasn't even a really good nap.
Napping on a Saturday afternoon...lol i just got back from a family friends' wedding.
Line dancing @ weddings...wow. Yeah i dunno if you guys remember Justin Matteo from Cogswell...he was one of my friends that was in Pat's grade [inbetween Damon's year and my year]. He got married to Damon's mom's coworker (another teacher @ summerdale elementary school) Janet.
It was a cute wedding...pretty traditional Catholic.
When i was a little girl, i wanted a traditional catholic wedding...with a lacy long princess dress and an updo...i swear, lol. Then when i got older, i realized that i probably couldn't ever pull off that look...so i settled for something else. Don't ask. I don't wanna talk about it.
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On another note, I can't wait to see Harry Potter tonight! :D I miss no moo already - i wish i was down there. I feel so comfortable around them. Even playing video games...i don't feel weird - at all. I don't feel bad if i win...which is new...and nice...i miss them, OMIGARDS!
I gotta call up josh and see what we're doing. I think Frank's pooped out from his long week and won't be joining us :[ but it's okay...if he has baseball tomorrow...he's got a lot of resting to catch up on. I do miss him too though, despite our weird sorta-mean relationship. I wanted to ask him about his raiding guild and if they were like dino people...and the girls. I'm just curious XD. It's kinda fun learning about Frank...because i've known him for quite a long time...yet i probably know more about Osaka and Shoji than i do about him. Hmm everyone has different paces that they're comfortable going - and i've accepted his, i guess.
I wanna get miichiie to 70 sometime. LOL just cuz i'm so tired of playing michie...but everyone's 70...and i need to play her if i want to play with them. I can tank using shingle...but honestly, i get bored of playing a warrior. >.< There's not enough stuff to do and it's so gear dependent that it gets boring.
Alright i'm gonna get up and have some caffine. i'm sooooooo sleepy omygards. /wink
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(Friday, July 13, 2007-)
+10:27 AM]*
xoxo~
Continuing w/ the forums:
Swarb: "Um can we watch the language please? Harsh language tends to get people heated and distracted lets try to keep the discussion on point without the anger. Lets take a breather and remember its just a game and lets try to have fun and beat down those 0s and 1s on the LCD screen.
Edit: Jokes are fine, makes the raid more interesting. Though if you find jokes to be offensive or something Vent has the ability to lower individuals volume levels, or mute them if need be. I for one lower Kaster's volume cuz I'm afraid the vein popage might spill over into my headset and splatter me some how sometimes."
Conin: "i would like to suggest that healer chat should only have officers and healers.
There was a lot of joking around and shit going on in that channel prior to many attempts on lurker which in my view after having wiped nth number of times is just unacceptable"
Ferocious: "use my joking as a scapegoat, i dont care, my kidding around is not the reason our raids suck, period"
Skyfire: "i dont think konra cares that you joked around if you read what he said he was just asking you to turn down the sexual jokes...."
yaaaaaaaaayyy conin <3333 LOL he says "nth number" haha that's so cute. Skyfire was JUST AS BAD though /wink.
I was talking to Shoji last night and he said if i already got 1st in dps, then i don't have to prove myself anymore...and go. LOL He doesn't think i need to go w/ them...but i'm so stubborn and it's a challenge that i wanna continue with. LOL I like subjecting myself to difficult situations. Life isn't fun without a little misery. :)
He also think it's a type of hazing...because i AM a new raider.
I hate to admit it also...but I THINK i might've lvled up the wrong class. XD I have so much fun playing miichiie even pvping...it's horrible. She's so twinked it's not even funny. OKAY i take that back...i like Michie, but Miichiie's just as fun if not more fun. They're both super imba classes...i remember when paladins could KILL warlocks a while ago...before warlocks got buffed.
I dual screened Azer running Miichiie and Bazington through SM Cath for Baz's Whitemane's Chapeau. >.< LOL Miichiie's so twinked...that she does more dps than Azer. Well...she hits harder than Azer because frank needs to get him a better 2handed weapon LOL...the mana wrathe doesn't do any dps at all /wink.
Miichiie hits for about 500hit/500judgement. It's hot. /wink You'd think, "well if miichiie's so powerful, why do i use azer to run her through sm?" lol because she only hits hard. Azer's consecration can kill the whole instance w/ miichiie's sanctity aura cheat + his retribution aura. OH MAN. /wink
my dad's being a dick bbl.
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(Thursday, July 12, 2007-)
+9:47 AM]*
xoxo~
OKAY IT's working! I even repaired WoW. I'm hesitant to open WoW lol...because i don't want my computer to bluescreen again.
OMG! SO YEAH...i couldn't really sleep last night...haha, i can't sleep when my computers not working well - it makes me antsy or something.
ANYWAYYYYY
I sign onto dinoforums today aaaaaand:
GAFFER one of the bitches that was giving me a hard time said, "...as i understood it, there were a couple of new faces. maybe that had something to do with it? yes, i AM making excuses, but hey, it works if they're valid, m i rite"
then...Shookers said, "2-3 new ppl is not excuse for the ppl that have done it for weeks to fuck up on, 2-3 new ppl learning something doesnt mean the whole raid has to relearn it with them"
I'm holding in ALL my frustration. Let me remind you - i was one of the FEW people that actually DID the correct JOB - that KNEW what to do ahead of time. NOT TO MENTION TOP DPS w/ LOWEST WARLOCK THREAT, you mother fuckers.
Thank god i didn't say anything because ivy and konra omg konra...are HOT.
Ivy: "New people weren't the problem, it was the focus, which is what Konra's talking about here."
Konra: "Other things. Shookers, having someone click a portal out of town in the middle of a raid is not funny imo. I'm all down for having fun during a raid and on good nights we do, but that wasn't appropriate especially as an officer. And ferocious, the sexual comments are getting more annoying than funny. It's cool to make a joke, but shit man, you make these comments like every 2 minutes, is that really necessary? I know I speak for more than myself on that issue."
Ferocious: "last time i checked i never do any of this shit, so if other ppl cant learn when to joke with me and be serious then they shouldnt be fucking raiding in the first place.................SOOOO plz dont open your mouth again, if i do shitty on something then you can, but till then, just shut the fuck up plz, kk thx bye"
Konra: "My mention of you was about the consistent sexual remarks you make during raiding. There's a time for that shit and there isn't a time for that shit. When we get to the point we were last night wiping on farmable shit, people needed to be focused and not distracted by the comments anyone makes; you or anyone else. And telling me to shut the fuck up is a little childish. I came on here to make a point that we need to focus more and I pointed out some people that I noticed had an impact on the raid in a negative manner. I'm not here to talk shit about you, if you take it that way you are reading it wrong."
Shugar: "Maybe i can explain why i posted what i did. Last night was a bad raid and we have established that the reason it was bad is because people were unfocused. Now i said that i agreed that all the jokes are what lead us to become unfocused i dont think that anybody can argue with that but if you are going to name 2 people... only 2 people and expect them to not defend their actions... you better choose some saints. As for this post being drama maybe im not the best call for that one. I take offense easily but i forgive and forget quickly too."
PWNEEEED!!! <3 THANK YOU! OMGOMGOMG! <3333!!!!!!!!!omgomgomg!! YAAY NO MORE SEXUAL COMMENTS! <3 LOL
The 2 people were Shookers and Ferocious - the two people giving me ALL THE SHIT IN THE WORLD. LOL 2 of the people that pulled the most aggro and wiped us...LOL...hahahaha skyfire also sucked bigtime...AND so did Animalmagic & Scotto. The SUCKAGE was amazing.
gah i gotta try WoW now...it's almost 10:15...if it doesn't work i gotta call Tobiah to let me in so i can get frankeeeeeeeeeeeeeeieieiieieieieeeeee's laptop. HEY i might have to dual ssc/kara tonight. /wink
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(Wednesday, July 11, 2007-)
+12:44 PM]*
xoxo~
If this blog sounds angry...it's absolutely NOT. Im venting frustration...but in a happy silly manner. LOL im laughing the whole time i'm typing...so please n'énquiette pas!
LOLL THIS WAS TODAY'S BLOODSTAINED FORTUNE - my giblet fortune. How appropriate, lol?
i kid you not.
SSC!
On Hydross, it's kinda like a Ragnaros setup where everyone's around the boss. The differences are...that the ring around the boss is much smaller...and there are islands behind that ring. Those islands are all quite far except for ONE island...NOOB ISLAND that's right next to the ring...but out of OUCHIE RANGE.
SO YEAH, i got put on noob island because i'm the "NOOB". Let me PLEEEEEEASE remind you...all these people have raided BWL/AQ/Naxx except for me. I'm just pointing out a fact...and BECAUSE of that - I get the noob tag on my forehead. OH FORGET assist leading Karazhan for months on end or heroic instances - THAT APPARENTLY DOESN'T COUNT FOR SHIT.
What made it worse is that i responded in vent on accident today. They now officially know i'm a girl and POKE IT IN THE EYE LIKE A HUGEASS ZIT.
CONIN GAVE PEOPLE MY MYSPACE. >.O All of a sudden I'm hot? I'm so lost. I've never been hot before. It's weird and they're blind. I had to post the link. It's better that it comes from me than someone else, i guess.
It's hot to be a gnome warlock 0/43/18. LOL? That's so nerdy and lame it's funny. What are they smoking? >.O It's like that one time when i told Frank, "DUDE a guy would have to be SO GAY if they liked me - because...they'd have to be into guy stuff...really..." lolol <3
Hmm if i put myself in their shoes...would I think a person that's proud of their WoW character's hot? Hmm...LOL DAMN yeah i guess i would...but that's okay i'm weird. LOL? I like confident people haha >.O i think that's why i like paladins a lot...because it takes a lot to kill them...so usually people who play them are pretty confident in surviving. /wink I like warlocks too...but sometimes they're overly cocky and it's unattractive. :P I'm like goldilocks /wink and my paladins are the porridge <3.
OKAY SO last night WAS so back and forth grumpy and happy. LOL
1. CONIN + MYSPACE = MICHIE=GIRL
2. Noob Island
3. Sexist Pigs: OH YEAH...there was this one girl Chrysanthewhatever that literally NEEDED THE SPOTLIGHT LIKE 100% of the time. "Let me explain to you what a perfect breast is like." I was thinking to myself,"SHUT THE FUCK UP AND PLAY THE GODDAMN GAME YOU SLUTWHORE! THIS IS SPARTAAA!!" /wink
She was just adding fuel to the fire.
4. TALK in vent michie. "Michie you need to talk louder...Michie you need to turn up your volume i can barely hear you. Michie you need to talk more - you have a cute voice." YOU SEXIST PIGS NEED TO BEAT OFF BEFORE A RAID AND GROW THE FUCK UP! NO i'm NOT TALKING, you fucking LOSERS! LEARN HOW TO PAY ATTENTION AND NOT CAUSE A WIPE JUST BECAUSE GIRLS ARE IN THE VENT CHANNEL. Naxx raiders, PFFT - If i'm a noob in game, YOU'RE A NOOB IN LIFE!
5. eBAY account: "Michie, how much was your ebay account? It's pretty decked out." Blackivy + Conin stood up for me and yelled at him then blackivy proceeded to /kick him from the raid. Blackivy=Bearhug...bearhug was one of the 60s in NOMOO. NEVER ONCE have i EVER asked ANYONE ANYONE ANYONE to level MICHIE EVER. The ONLY time i asked for help was the 2k HH rep for HEROICS that the pansimooers WANTED to run. EBAY ACCOUNT...PFFT IF I WAS AN UNDEAD WARLOCK I'D FUCKING KOS CAMP YOU SO BAD.
6. "Click on the Portal":
Scotto/Animal: "Michie michie...click on the portal"
Michie: "uhh okay? /w blackivy we're taking a break to repair?"
Scotto: "/giggle /giggle /snicker /giggle! OMG MICHIE FELL FOR IT! HAHAHAHAA LOL IT'S JUST FUNNY WHEN A WARLOCK CAN'T TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A PORTAL AND A SUMMONING PORT!!! BWAHHAAA"
Michie: "So i'm not repairing?"
Blackivy: "You guys are fucking stupid. Grow up!"
Michie: "uhh...?"
Blackivy: "Michie fly back here. /w michie they tricked you into taking a portal midraid...don't worry it's not your fault."
Michie: "WTF?!"
Conin: "You guys are so fucked up...don't pick on Michie she's the nice one."
Blackivy: "You guys all need to stop fucking around. It's wasting time in our raid."
Animalmagic: "LOL sorry michie i take full blame on that one."
Michie: "..."
Gwendalyn: "Michie you need to speak up more...you have a cute voice."
Blackivy: "/w michie michie i'm sorry they're picking on you so much...you're just the new raider - a GIRL even, CUTE at THAT and they're just excited that's all. They don't mean any harm."
Michie: "/w blackivy don't worry. i'm not the one suffering durability loss and looking like a complete noob during the battles - i could care less what they think outside of this raid."
Blackivy: "/w michie MICHIE you're top dps! they don't mean any of it - the noobness part that is...you're not pulling aggro at all and haven't caused any wipes. You're pulling your weight...don't worry."
Michie: "/w blackivy I wish i was a boy."
Blackivy: "/w michie just kick ass...and show them who's top dps. that should speak for itself."
Michie: "/w blackivy oh don't worry...i'm dpsing."
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Conin: "/w michie DON'T PULL AGGRO AND DIE MICHIE because i CANT save you!"
Michie: "/w conin I think you need to tell that to scotto/animal/shookers considering they've wiped us 10+ times now."
Conin: "/w michie oh no i'm just warning you because they'd pick on you forever."
Michie: "/w conin it's alright...because girls will NEVER like them with that attitude."
7. Top DPS. YEAH bitches my FIRST SSC RUN and i topped dps most of the time w/o pulling aggro. I'm kinda glad that Frank wasn't here, lol...he makes me nervous sometimes.
Damage done w/o pets! W/ pets i was 1st and shookers was 2nd! <3
8. RAIDING SKILLS...
9. PREPARATION
10. PEOPLE SKILLS and the LACK thereof. I like smart people...A LOT.
Conclusion:
I'm going to start raiding with dinosaur. Yeah you'd think...OMG with all that bullshit why would i even wanna go back? BECAUSE IM NOT ADDING FUEL TO THE FIRE and QQing when it gets hard, i can take it. I'M putting these boys in their place by showing them who's top dps and who's actually contributing most to the raid. HONESTLY, i don't know ANY of these people IRL...and could care less what they think about girls w/e. I only QQ when my IRL friends give me shit...and if it's mean.
Everyone else in the world that gives me shit...are just GIVING me shit to make up for something they're LACKING. For those people, i don't fucking pity or care about their opinions at all. I just do my assigned duty and show that their full of shit by proving all their assumptions wrong.
Yeah Shookers is usually top dps. Scotto says, "Michie don't even try... you can't beat him...he's dps god."
Yeah go fuck yourself Scotto, don't underestimate my dps.
Conin: "But...michie it's your first SSC run...just focus on trying not to pull aggro."
DUDE?! Warlocks CAN multitask...i SWEAR! You people. When you hear that it's a girl, all of a sudden girls don't know what the fuck they're doing at all and all the big strong boys have to save them and explain in detail what to do...it's so FUGNUGGING annoying!
I CAN BEAT HARD MODE IN PUZZLE FIGHTER TOO! AAAAND LVL 5 vs COMPUTER TETRIS YOU ASSHAGS!
okay i'm done /wink. bring it.
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(Tuesday, July 10, 2007-)
+10:10 AM]*
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Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood morning sunshineee <3
eeeeeeeeek, im nervous haha >.< i'm being put on the main dps roster for ssc. I HAVE NO idea how word gets around so quickly...but dinosaur knew that i got the t4 helm 5 minutes after it dropped.
I have no dkp! >.O
Im so nervous i wanna steal frank and have him help me figure this stuff out. O_O DKP and assisting and zomgwtfeverything. Even the strat confuses me a bit. LOL I'm a little bit scared. I should've respecced a while ago. There's so much preparation involved when you don't really know what you're doing. I don't even know where it is, haha!
[18:23] kelvinpv: :D
[18:27] kiwwiekiwwie: what's the first ssc boss yuki?
[18:27] kiwwiekiwwie: tidewalker?
[18:29] kelvinpv: hydross
[18:29] kelvinpv: dinosaur can kil hydross and lurker
[18:31] kiwwiekiwwie: hmm okay
[18:31] kiwwiekiwwie: so what's the order of the first bosses in ssc yuki
[18:31] kiwwiekiwwie: hydross lurker then tidewalker?
[18:31] kelvinpv: uhm
[18:31] kelvinpv: the old order (when shit was hard)
[18:31] kelvinpv: is like
[18:31] kelvinpv: karathress first
[18:32] kiwwiekiwwie: k
[18:32] kelvinpv: then tidewalker, hydross/lurker, leotheras
[18:32] kelvinpv: new order
[18:32] kelvinpv: is u can do either
[18:32] kelvinpv: karathress, hydross, or lurker first
[18:32] kelvinpv: (They're the easy ones)
[18:32] kiwwiekiwwie: alright
[18:32] kelvinpv: good luck michie!
[18:32] kiwwiekiwwie: thanks
[18:32] kelvinpv: :D
[18:32] kelvinpv: break a leg
[18:32] kiwwiekiwwie: i'm excited lol
[18:32] kiwwiekiwwie: so i'm watching strats and reading lots
[18:35] kelvinpv: that's my dim sum girl!
[18:36] kelvinpv: just remember michie
[18:36] kelvinpv: when they say stop dps
[18:36] kelvinpv: you stop what you're doing! and stop dps!
[18:36] kiwwiekiwwie: okay O_<
[18:40] kelvinpv: break a leg! dont freak out!
[18:41] kiwwiekiwwie: yuki im just reading strats from bosskillers
[18:42] kelvinpv: GOOD~!!
[18:42] kiwwiekiwwie: is there anything else i should look at?
[18:42] kelvinpv: message me if u got questions
[18:43] kelvinpv: no they're pretty complete imo
Yuki's actually been really supportive too lately, lol. He's been cheering me on - which is WEIRD?! OMFG. I'm expecting him to say, "OMG MICHIE STOP WHINING AND JUST FREAKING READ/WATCH STRATS. YOU KNOW HOW TO STUDY!" He's being really nice, lol i almost don't know how to handle it. It's weirder than Frank being nice. >.O He's really nice deep down inside, i think. He just has a cactus outer shell to me - YEAH, i can take it.
SOMETIMES SOMETIMES SOMETIMES >_O I'm a little more irritable...lol. It just happens when I'm already pissed off about something. That's when Yuki and Frank's comments sting and i hate their guts. LOL I never really hate their guts...but i do get QQ-ey. HEY I can be a girl too sometimes, damn you all, lol /wink.
Yuki and Frank think that evverrrrrrryone and their mothers are nice to me...so they have to even it out by being mean. Little little little do they know...that being a girl in the WoW world ASKS for critiques up the butt. Everyone seems to think that you don't know anything about everything and tries to "help" you - gives you pointers. I just brush off 99.9% of the crap and only listen to my pansimooers...because i know they're being honest.
I know - i don't let it get to me everytime they say stuff but once in a while there's so much pressure to "not suck" that i'd rather not stress at least yuki out and not play Michie. It gives me insane urge to retire Michie. I never thought i sucked that much as a warlock until playing with Yuki and Frank, lol. They have this wonderful elitest [lol i almost typed titlest] aura. It's not a bad thing - they deserve every part of it. They've invested all their time into their characters...it's only fair. They feel like BW to me. Like even though i can outdps BW now...he's still on a different level of WoW and i feel like i'll never catch up.
BAH THEN YUKI GETS ALL NICE and SUPPORTIVE AND STUFFS and i'm LOST again, hahahaha. GUYS ARE SO WEIRD! Now he's like, "gogo michie you can do it! you'll be fine!" Uhhhhh? Two seconds ago you said i needed a million pieces of gear, my spec was wrong, and that i didn't dps enough. WHAT?
GOD GUYS ARE SO WEIRD. I don't understand.
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On another note.../wink for some reason, when Barbara Walters is sad, it makes me sad too. LOL? YEAH SO WHAT I WATCH THE VIEW. Two close friends of her passed away last week...and she was venting about it a bit. Oh if she ever passes away, i'll be so sad. Q_Q I used to watch 20/20 every friday night after TGIF. Yeah, i know lame.
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I went onto blogger this morning...because for the last week or so i had quite a bit of stuff that i wanted to vent about. Hmm...but everytime i get to blogger, it gets really hard to say the stuff i wanted to vent about.
1. Anderson Cooper
2. Hillary Clinton
3. Golf
4. Mr. Nguyen & Gardening
5. CAMPING!!! OMGOMG NEED A GPS PHONE!!!! XD
6. RAID - SSC/TK: Hydross/Lurker/Tidewalker
* WoW Respecs? Affliction? DAMN.
* Miichiie...baz needs to get to 50. <3 i can save him.
7. Remodeling the House
8. 20/20 sheds new light on hell
9. Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix
10. Dr. Grim for Josh
/wink
<3 carpe diem <3
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Gez Fry