My dog's barking A LOT...so i officially have given up for a while and don't give a flying fuck if the cops give me another warning. I'm inside with headphones on. I can't hear SHIT. :) Yeah, i'm avoiding the dog - but it's being a royal pain in the ass and I HONESTLY don't feel like being loving right now. He woke me up at 5am BARKING AT A FLY - YES AN INSECT.
So Andy and I talked about our legendary weapon specs... Yes bored last night talking about nerdy stuff.
This is Andy:
Shields are definitely easier to make than weapons - seriously, haha. His chance on hit kinda goes with his Use. He has this use attack thing that allows him to intervene multiple party members as well a high threat [low dps] attack [much like shield bash] that takes their aggro. It kinda works like Avenger's Shield, but it causes the player to be able to do the intervening and not the actual item.
The Chance on hit basically means when the player bashes into an enemy during the use intervene, the party has a chance to enter a trance phase that lasts 4 seconds resisting stuns/fear.
Ummm...everything else is pretty self explanatory. >.>
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aaaaaaaaand this is Michie:
OKAY lemmie explain...haha I wanted to buff my stats a bit because if a paladin DID use a 2 handed mace - that's kinda dumb considering you could get more bonuses to using a 1 handed mace + shield. I'm not a 1 handed mace - i'm just not. SOOO It's basically the same concept on how a Staff would work to a caster instead of a Casting Main hand + Offhand.
SOooo...the stats are a little buffed PLUS the pally aura is extended by 25 yards. >.> I dunno - i might change that, /shrug? Andy and I couldn't think of something nice for specifically paladin usage. OHhhhhhhhhh - MP5!! Yeah, i'm probably changing that, lol. 20mp1? I dunno -_-...
Also - the Chance on Hit proc is only 25% for the first one and 15% on the 2nd one. I'm not that overpowered. ANDY came up with the chance on hit/percentages.
600 +healing for a legendary weapon is NOT overpowered. I looked on WoWWiki just to make sure. That's pretty much the highest +healing obtainable so far. I thought it was somewhat fair, lol. :P 280 +dmg on a healing weapon is kinda nice. It's not that great - but it's like a happy bonus. You wouldn't even need the +81 healing enchant on it...so having the +40 spell dmg enchant would be nice. +320 +dmg on a healing weapon, /sigh. I'd fucking go holy for that shit, damn.
Hm I'm not sure if I LIKE the "Use" yet. It's a 20min CD [according to Andy]. It sounds kinda cool...:D Like, for 2 minutes...you keep regenerating mana even while you're casting.
Haha If Miichiie was 70, lol...[and if it were somewhat obtainable and/or real] I'd want it. Haha..<3 Well I guess that's the point.
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Ninja Paladin, haha /wink.
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OMG! <3 I want a pendant haha...
See, i'd never wear that - but i'd wear it if it were a necklace pedant thing. :( Stupid wannabe tiffany's bracelet crap. There's no tiffany's in baseball! >.< Well, that would be kinda cute - but what ever happened to the regular SF logo as a pendant on a regular skinny chain. >.< GUH. I swear there used to be a 2 piece hat and logo pendant set like a year ago? Maybe I'm nuts.
I almost want the keychain more than the bracelet. :( UGH. I'd never effing wear the bracelet! >.> It'd be a waste. Haha I know, weird huh? I used to wear bracelets all the time. Now it's just annoying - i dunno why. No literally - i keep playing with them and end up taking it off.
OMG - it's so cute...i don't even like wearing niners gear - and they sure as hell don't deserve the support after watching the last game, lol.
OMFG!!! WTF!? Why does the NFL have such cuter gear? Jesus.
OMG!! >.< this is so effing cute. If i ever hatch a baby and umm it's a girl - lol i'm SO getting this!
HOLY SHIT. OMG...QQ QQ LITTLE GIANTS FAN QQ
I don't like the pink "girly" versions of the team accessories. Hmm...once someone argued with me and said, "but you get pink versions of video game stuff and paint your ps2 pink. How is that any different?" Because consoles release their shit in those colors [except for my ps2 which was also released as pink at one point]. They don't have "team" colors. It's the color of a console - not a team...that was established with recognizable colors. Orange & Black [sometimes white too] ARE the giants colors. That's just how it is. It's not a clean slate where it doesn't matter what color the jerseys are - NO all of them wear the same color.
Anyway, I don't think i'd ever get anything pink. Even if i had a girl, she'd have to suck it up and wear orange and black. I'd put orange and black ribbons in her hair haha...
See...they have this:
Yeah, it's cute - but...i'd rather get:
regardless if it were for a boy OR girl. Who cares? It's representing your team <3 - i wouldn't have it any other way.
My kid's gonna be so confused lol. Damon and my family [well more of his family] are from chicago, so the kid's gonna be wearing white sox "crap" too. LOL /wink.
AWwww >.< damn. It's so cute.
Awwww QQ, it says "rookie of the year"...awww >.<
AWWW O_O i almost wanna buy this, haha...lol. It's so effing cute.
Jesus i have to stop looking, it's making me squirmy.
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On another random note:
<3 Poor Yuki, haha...i'm so mean to him. He deserves it. I'm not being his little punching bag anymore, lol - he has no idea how much of his shit i just "put up with". Yeah and the time that i finally give up [reveal a little of the inner christine] and say, "Whatever, Yuki. /dnd" He gets all worried and, "omg Michie stop ignoring me." WELL STOP BEING A DOUCHE and i'll stop being a douche back, haha.
I'm so fucking sick of being absolutely nice to everyone. It's a lot of effort - you have NO idea! Well you might, haha...but it's a lot. I'm usually pretty good at being nice on the outside - but sometimes, If you're getting shit flung at you from all directions, it's hard to maintain a happy & nice facade.
HE SO DESERVES IT though >.<
UGH i need photoshop!! >.< I only have my Adobe6 products >.< UGHHHHH!!! WTBCS2! Lol i'm just gonna download the trial cs3 edition. I need good photoshop >.<...it'll give me 30 days <3
I have pictures i wanna post but i CANT because i can't EFFING CROP them UGH! DOWNLOAD FASTER YOU WHORE!!! >.>
[...on a random note, my dog needs to get shot in the face. not really, but he does NOT stop effing barking. i should've got a cat. things that require a lot of attention annoy me. "it just wants love and attention." YEAH so give it some. I'm busy. LoL, i DO give it love - just not when i'm doing shit. UGH.]
[DOWNLOAD THESE SONGS, YOU WHORE] Finger Eleven - Paralyzer
Lifehouse - First Time
Damnit i should make a tasklist today. There are so many things i have to do. >.>FUCK...and I'm wasting my time by giggling @ baby baseball clothes & downloading photoshop cs3. What a nerrrrrrrrrrrrrrd.
I might as well get on WoW and train Miichiie. She hit 44 yesterday, lol. Yeah - i stopped playing her when she had no rest xp. It's a bitch to level her that slowly.
I'm so lazy with gathering professions too. >.> I kinda wanna respec her to jewelcrafting/mining. I hate fucking wasting my time picking shit up tho...-_- It's so boring. Not that - disenchanting shit is all that much more fun - i dunno i don't wanna explain that right now...my dog is pissing me off. It won't effing shut up.
ARGH i wanna get his balls removed. He's so goddamn active - it's HARD not being angry at him. Yeah I KNOW - children are even harder. The difference is - with CHILDREN, you have them since they're born...[for the most part] and YOU train them not to have horrible annoying habits [like barking] when w/ GARGIE, HE CAME like this at 8 months already. It's hard to RE-TRAIN a puppy vs. training him well from the start. I blame his previous owners - they were idiots.
Yeah I know, I'm no better - being the "cold hearted bitch". I'm really not that cold hearted, i promise. >.> It just comes off that way to those who don't understand.
LOL speaking of not-understanding... I talked to Frank yesterday about the whole "legendary weapon" thing w/ Andy, haha. Well, he agreed that it was a good description - but I'm not sure if he was being sarcastic or nice. Haha, YEAH I know...Josh, "Well SHIT Christine, were you even listening?" No probably not, haha. It's funny because I HONESTLY deep down inside DO wanna know, XD but when it ever gets to the point where I possibly might find out - I always do the plug ears lalalalalalalala thing. Don't ask, I'm weird and don't even understand it. It'd be nice to be his legendary weapon, well DUH [wow that was brilliant]. But I honestly don't think I am...? And Errr...my brain just got foggy and i don't know how to keep this topic going. >.>
LOL my brain just did this cloudy thing as a defense mechanism where I automatically don't look deeper into whatever. It does that every once in a while - lol, it's how i "who's Q?". Right when I said, "I honestly deep down inside DO wanna know" the smoke appeared and made everything unclear and safe, LoL.
GARGIE SHUT THE FUCK UP. OMGGGGGGG. I'm gonna CRY. SHUT THE FUCK UP. OMFGOMFG. Im gonna put duct tape around his mouth and strangle him.
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WoW SS's <3
Let me introduce you to Yuki's insides:
and:
YES, it's weird in a tolerable way.
@ SSC:
Enders Aggro:
Yeah, left field. DUDE he's seen my myspace? Okay I guess it's not that weird, but still - lol, WoW's just a game.
Luzzil & Michie Bears <3
Pimpcane Smackdown, lol
OMGCONINZOMGHAHA<3
Dino-dins are usually good - but for some reason, that day they sucked.
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Okay Random Cute Shots:
After healing shadowlabs, It was really late and I usually log @ the scryer inn as Michie, lol - too bad I was on Azer. Lol he's FINE, he's just taking a vacation in the Scryer Inn right now.
OH i played Dressup w/ Fufee. <3 I think michie looks wayyy cuter in devout /wink. haha
Michie Hiding inbetween flaaroon's legs.
AAAAAAAAAAND last but not least...my first 8k shadowbolt crit <3.
Yay j'ai fini. <3
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OH MAN.
Kevin came over this morning so we could watch Batman Begins. >.>
He helped make my lunch lol...he made my spaghetti so i wouldn't miss the first batman beyond chapters. >.> Awww.
Yeah, it was good. LOL and the whole immortality thing made sense - haha I watched the animated batman series like no other, you can't blame me.
AND NO, i'm not a sap - kevin. HIS PARENTS died. Of course I'm going to QQ - lol that totally sucks.
I'd ask kev to come back to watch the rockies & giants tonight, but i'm raiding :( and I'm not sure if he'd appreciate it if I watched the game + raided. Well no, I know he wouldn't be "upset" but it's hard to raid + pay attention to guests at the same time and I don't want to be rude. Kevin hasn't ever raided - not that that's an issue, but he might not understand why I can't give the game/him undivided attention.
LOL you'd be surprised - I can watch a game and raid at the same time. It's the 3rd thing that makes it hard, lol. Like, I can't usually Raid+watch a game+eat at the same time. I pretty much shove food in my face between pulls. Being a warlock - you're kinda required to super multitask already - so eating is pretty much not an option.
Hm also talking on the phone, haha...i can't answer the phone during a raid. Well - I can if it's inbetween pulls...but overall - i usually don't answer. I pick up every once in a while when Josh calls but the conversation doesn't usually make much sense at all - and I barely pick up anything from it. I'm on vent during the whole thing listening for new instructions - so it's hard to process multiple conversations at once. At least with watching the game - I can turn around for a quick glimpse at the score, the outs, the "x-x" balls/strikes number, and inning. LOL i know, nerd. My tv's volume is usually pretty low - or muted during a raid. I don't need commentary to figure out what the hell is going on.
I dunno, I think kevin's more the type where you need to keep him company or something. It's not bad - but it's absolutely not how I am at all. Maybe it's part of only child syndrome. I love company sometimes, i swear. It's just that the company can't expect me to drop everything and cater to their every whim when i'm already doing something. I love to be accommodating - and sometimes If i have to raid and can't be, i feel guilty and morally obligated to keep people "entertained" if they don't understand raiding.
I dunno - Damon didn't get it for a while. He's pretty open with it, but since he doesn't play, we do get in conflicts about it every once in a while. Hah, it's just kind of funny that you'd expect the woman to be upset that the guy in the relationship plays video games and lacking giving attention. He doesn't care that I play video games, but he does get upset sometimes that WoW takes up a lot of my time.
UGH i just wish he fucking played it even just a little. It's hard to be totally into something that your counterpart isn't. Even just baseball...that absolutely sucks sometimes. Like, when the Giants are in last place - but are on a 5 game winning streak, how disappointed I am...and when I go to him to QQ - he DOESN'T understand. UGH?! -_- "Shouldn't you be happy that they're winning?" UGH! >.> You don't understand at ALL. -_- UGH.
I guess I'm at fault for that too though. He used to be into FPSs a good amount. I think he's still into them - but i absolutely can't get into them. It's not like I don't try to like them - haha, but i HATE feeling sick after i play for 10 minutes. It's annoying. I know, I guess I could make myself play them - suck it up and just play them, haha. I just figure - if it's something that makes me feel bad, i avoid it. Yay, problem solved.
Andy called me a legendary dagger last night - lol, because he thought he couldn't train in daggers. Then he quickly changed the legendary dagger to a mace - because in actuality he CAN train in daggers and not maces - he's getting his classes fucked up. LoL :P He doesn't have the "proficiency".
Haha I wanna make a black shirt that says [michie]. haha I kid, I kid. <3
Yeah, I sucked it up and called him last night - despite being super tired. I really like to avoid people getting upset if I can prevent it. Even though it's only small actions like calling to check up on people - it really is all the little things that add up...that help. Maybe I'm really a warlock at heart and i'm used to the whole playstyle w/ DOTs, but it honestly helps output the most amount of dps and/or heals.
He just needs someone to hear him out and/or to care. If i can help out, I will. My parents didn't raise me in any other way. I'll righteous defend frivolously - i mean, some people can't handle a lot of drama in their lives. LoL - Maybe I'm being a cocky bastard, but I like the challenge and feel confident enough to tank - even if I'm undergeared or a cloth-wearer.
LoL It's like that shadowlabs run w/ Josh... I MT'd Shadowlabs on MICHIE - YES, MICHIE. Soul-Link/Drain Life tanking, FTW. It was just a challenge and something I wanted to try.
I just know that deep down - I could probably handle the crap better than they can handle it, so why not righteous defend and blessing of sacrifice them if i can, right? You'd be surprised. /wink
I'm not a paladin. REALLY. I'm just trained like one. I can't be one, because I'm way too high dps and determined. Hmm like some people play pitcher and some people play catcher. That totally wasn't a gay joke, I promise. Ugh, I'm changing my analogy.
Some people are trained to backup the defensive line, while some people are on the offensive receiving end. I'm the support receiver. It's on the offensive - but supporting the play.
Okay this analogy isn't getting me anywhere. -_- It makes sense in my head, but for some reason I can't get it out. Haha...
I have a hard time feeling anything, really - lol. I'm never really angry or overjoyed or place set emotion here with most people. I'm pretty good at being frustrated and happy. There pretty much aren't any other emotions, lol. So the world outside of my imaginary little bubble [my wings] - will see the happy face, or the frustrated face. Inside, I honestly haven't even really figured that one out yet. It's kinda objective and is somewhat emotionless...i dunno? I guess that's why i don't mind righteous defending people - because i just suck up the bad emotions - and get rid of them. LOL like a cleanse, haha. Maybe it's more like a devour magic, hah.
Nah, OH okay...i guess it's more like rational thinking, versus emotional thinking. If I have no emotional attachment to the person, it's so easy to just rationalize what the problem is and "get the fuck over it". Hm I guess it gets trickier when I'm emotionally attached. Like, the rational thinking TRIES so hard to do its job, but the emotional "caring" steps in and clouds my mind. Almost as if "caring" equates to "sith" haha, nuts. It's not sithlike - if anything, it's compassionate. Hmm but to be overly compassionate reveals weakness - that I refuse to show? Maybe? UGH, WHY?
I can't even figure it out.
DAMNIT. NUTS.
I always feel like I get so close to understanding...then my computer freezes. MY internal computer just froze.
Meh im gonna take a nap before teh raid. /wave
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I know - i'm supposed to blog about Nikki and Kuya...lol but i was going through old posts and found an old survey - that i still kinda agree with.
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Christmas 2k5
47 ODD Things About You
If you opened this, FILL IT OUT!
How tall are you barefoot? I'm 5'1 but I like to slouch and say i'm 5'
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? EWw :( yuck
3. Do you own a gun? Several :D
4. Do you play the ads on the side of the screen? Haha, sometimes...but I try hard not to click the link.
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? Hah, nope...it's usually fun. I like meeting new people and learning where they come from.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? vienna beef + a poppy seed bun.
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Honestly, I have too many to just choose one. I really like the Alvin & the Chipmunks...Christmas song [i know, gayy shut up]...
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee, black or apple juice, whatever's available...and depending on how tired I am.
9. Can you do push ups? The right way. :D
10. Is your bathroom clean? Clean enough. It's a bathroom...how clean can it be?
11. Your worst fear? Spiders & Heights....i guess
12. Do you like painkillers? When things hurt? Haha...
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? I have no freaking idea.
14. Do you own a knife? Yes?
15. Do you have A.D.D.? Aren't we the ADD generation?
16. Middle Name? Michie or Christine, depends on what legal document you're looking at.
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? :*[, hate, & Naboo
18. When's your normal bedtime? Past 3, probably.
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: coke, gamer's delight: dp, apple juice
20. What time did you wake up today? 7:00
21. Name one person that comes to mind right now. No
22. Current worry? I don't worry; I avoid.
23. Current hate? Hah, lots.
24. Favorite place to be? At home, on my piano...I'd never admit it though.
25. Least favorite place to be? atm, Cogswell. Everything about it sucks.
27. Do you own slippers? Yup :D
28. What shirt are you wearing? a maroon hoodie - pirate pride, bitches.
29. Do you tan or burn? burn, unfortunately.
30. Favorite color(s)? black
31. Would you be a pirate? I am a Pirate alumni, bitches...yarrrr.
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? Pfft, christmas songs haha XD, Panic!, or My Chemical Romance
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? My own imagination. I thought I'd never wake up...
35. What's in your pockets right now? Death sticks.
36. Last thing/person that made you laugh? Laughing at my misery w/ Josh.
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Baseball teams, the little mermaid, scooby doo, and then green everything until high school was over. [green was my class color]
41. Who is your loudest friend? Sam Franzen or Paulette
42. Who is your most silent friend? Hah, i go to cogswell...90% of the boys are silent to a degree.
43. Does someone have a crush on you? I go to an all boys school, it wouldn't surprise me...there isn't much selection, they've gotta settle.
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? I saw my first shooting star just a little while ago, and couldn't think of anything to wish for. How lame is that? Haha, I had everything I wanted.
45. What is your favorite book? Possibly Angels and Demons. Dan Brown's a crazy kook...
46. What is your favorite candy? Hmm...Caramel Apple pops, probably. /shrug, iono.
47. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Probably on WoW.
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LOL<3 I'd go out with her! She's my type, lol. LOL "Vienna Beef & a Poppy Seed Bun" - i probably wouldn't have even remembered that now. /sexy
Lemmie fill it out again, haha. LOL, i just tried to redo this quiz, but i honestly have nothing to add. Everything is pretty accurate, even now - haha.
Well i don't feel like feeling depressed talking about nikki and kuya right now - i WILL eventually type it out and get it out of my system...but it makes me almost cry haha, so i'll refrain from talking about it. :)
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(Monday, August 27, 2007-) +10:12 PM]*
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OMG REMINDER: VENT about the Nikki Story.
REMINDER
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It's not even the 29th and i already get mailed.
"I only give u shit cuz theres so much love there."
HOLY CRAP WTF is WRONG with guys? -_- why can't they just be nice?
That fucking logic makes no goddamn sense at all. If there was so much "love" there, then wtf - where does the need to be mean fit in?
Yeah it's not REALLY being mean, whatever. We're not in 5th grade anymore - i'm not into the whole i hate you when it's really the opposite crap.
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ON another random note - im configuring my Outlook Accounts - and OMFG >.> i have all this old email in my mailbox - from 2005/2006 and GUESS what the first chunk of emails are from? Team Cheez-itz. WHAT ARE THE ODDS??
I HAVE EMAIL PROOF lol of Frank apologizing for not being able to make it. WHAT THE FUCK? LOL NICE & CONSIDERATE? WHAAAAAAT in TARNATION.
...it's FROM JANUARY 2006. That's just nuts. He used to give "game updates" also apparently - lol, i totally forgot. Like an email saying his progress...YEAH weird.
Ohh my god there's screenshots of the game in my mailbox. That has GOT to be the most ghetto freaking game i've EVER worked on - ever. LOL lotsa fun and experience - but the art was oh so very ghetto. WE USED EMBOSSING - I KID YOU NOT.
OH MY GOD Mike Dunleavy -_- pictures, lol my friend had the biggest crush on him.
OH MY GOD Craig Blaine pictures. He really wasn't that "Beautiful" in photos. Actually to tell you the truth, he didn't really have that beautiful features at all. Like honestly, he wasn't anything special - nothing about him was out of the ordinary - but like everything together made him zomg beautiful - don't ask WHY because I have NO idea. >.> It wasn't just me - i promise...the whole goddamn school thought so too - well all the women in the school. He wasn't even my type, LOL - seriously by far...yet for some reason, when he'd say hi, it was jaw-dropping. Like, "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, hi." as he winked and walked away. Then you proceeded to melt into a puddle of goop. LOL I didn't even like him either - it was nuts.
OH MY GOD - David & Corby's party was on my birthday last year. >.O whaaattheeeenoway!?
...ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD...LOL i have an old picture of frank hahaha XD well it's not that old...but it's from 2005 >.> haha XD how the hell? Awww *_*.
OH speaking of frank - lol, kevin played bioshock @ my place today.
I honestly thought that it possibly wasn't the FPSs that made me sick - that it was the camera...but after today - no, the initial thought was right. LoL Yeah FPS's do make me sick. :(
Okay i gg. <3 cya
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OMG kevin just forbade me from going. LOL? He called and said, "We're going to lunch - be ready. You're not going out with them."
"What the heck do you think you're doing?"
QQ
"Yeah, guys are idiots - but that doesn't mean that you can be mean to them - or make absolutely stupid decisions."
Well shit kevin, what if they're mean back?
"Then you have to figure out if they're actually worth your time. DUDE you're like the most objective person I know - wtf!? You're being so weird."
I'm objective on the outside. You have NO idea. :)
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He already assumes I'm going to be hanging out with the "wrong crowd". Haha, i just went to church yesterday - i'm not going to be stupid. <3
We're hanging out today, I guess. >.> Liliana and Jinky wanted to hang out also. JESUS CRIMINY i wish i could clone myself and hang out with a bunch of people at the same time. My friends are so different though, it's hard to take time out for them...since they all can't hang out together.
ARGH. >.> ARGH. >.> Maybe i'll watch a baseball game w/ kev. <3 haha...that'd be fun. WE SHOULD GO!! O_O OMG LETS GET WARRIORS TICKETS.
-_- /sigh.
<3
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+11:06 AM]*
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Kuya has a new ride.
It was dark when i saw it IRL.
...yeah it only starts at 95k. :)
He's looking for a 5 series bmw right now as a "commuter car". The s550 is his baller car. NUCKING FUTS.
...lol yeah only 60k bare.
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He's a molecular biologist working in Aids research. That...and his brother is the lead Art Director for the NHRA (national hot rod association) he's getting a FR500 Saleen. Yes, I AM the black sheep, lol.
BLACK effing SHEEP, lol.
It's just fucking nuts. Their success is redonculous.
I ALMOST bought a G35 at 22 years old. ALMOST - but damon's car died and we needed to buy two cars. >.> I WOULD've been able to afford the $500/$600 a month...but not 1k a month >.< argh.
It's beautiful.
Jesus, Lord it's a 10.
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Shit i gg...<3 I'm getting picked up by hs friends. We're bonfiring and partying I guess - yeah ON A MONDAY, WTF? -_- I'm not driving so this might get interesting? /shrug
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(Sunday, August 26, 2007-) +9:32 PM]*
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-_- I don't understand.
I ABSOLUTELY HATE GUYS.
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Now Playing: Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight
Why am I so disgruntled today? LOL, it's for no absolute reason too. I swear I'm not starting my rag anytime soon.
Church was surprisingly great today. I even saw Andrew there. >.> lol, Yeah i went to church w/ my cousin and he said to "car" this random dude in the back. A quick glimpse of the car...made me award him an 8 or 9. At communion i got to get a better look at him to find out that it was one of my friends from catechism. >.> Yeah he's cute, but he sucks at starcraft. Haha...not that i would judge if they're datable from just starcraft - but he's honestly too carebear for me. He'd play a disc/holy undead priest. Meh - he's pretty cute, but he's zomg not my type. He's the type that would question killing someone in a bg or /frown at me for wanting to blow up orc children. Yeah, gross.
-_- tanking kara. im so bored.
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Weird dream in New York. >.>?
I feel like I'm playing the game of life...and i just took 5k steps back, haha.
My cousin is SO not like me - lol yet we're so alike also. He reminds me of how i used to hate life, lol. Doing a million things ALL the time.
AND PLEASE tell me how the fuck did i get sunburned on my nose? I was outside for like 20minutes. -_-
i gotta go, adios <3
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(Saturday, August 25, 2007-) +11:32 PM]*
xoxo~
So many things to blog about - so little time. I'll save it for my Monday Morning rant session.
lol <3 I'm having a really good weekend though. I really missed my cousin.
1. Getting "Girl-ed Up" (the nail salon: my inability to say no AND having the "cutest feet and hands in the WORLD" lol) 2. Niners&Bears Game. SWEET GOD WHY? LOL ahaha <3 3. ANDYYY - "So this is love...lalalala...so this is looooooooooooveeee, so THIIIIIIIIS is what makes liiiiiiife divineeee." ~ Cinderella "Michie you're like 100% like her...you're so much like her...I guess that's why I ask what you would do if I asked you - because I'd assume her to say the same thing." "Girls are so fucked up Michie...they hurt us nice guys and they don't even know they're doing anything wrong." 4. Banana Republic: Shopping w/ My cousin. 5. Giants winning streak, ohlord. FUCKING TOOK LONG ENOUGH!? -_- 6. Getting Waxed by the lesbian who violated me. That's the ONLY time ever i agreed when someone said, "Oh is that guy out there your boyfriend?" "YES, YES he IS." lol sorry kuya, but i'm not saying i'm available to ANYONE who's waxing my YAYA. 7. Mike's party. LOL? >.> "EJACT" 8. The age guessing game: "She's gotta be 16." "Nah i'd say she's 17.5" "Yeah, I'd go with about 17." "Dude asians look super young...she's 26 or something watch." "...any other guesses?" "I'm 23."
I hate looking so young sometimes. 9. Chipotle w/ teh boys. <3 :) 10. Superbad 11. "Marriage isn't about falling in love...it's about timing and security. You're most likely going to meet someone in life that's better for you. That's the point - you're "most likely" going to meet someone, and since that's not a 100% chance, would you want to risk it?"
See - i have a whole other view on that situation...>.> but it's something i can't blog about. :( 12. Jamba Juice - Hepatitis A - Blond Girls @ Coco~cabana 13. Koichi. -_- what am i going to do with him? /shrug It's been 8 YEARS - and how much do you wanna bet he's going to call on 8/29 and want to reminisce. >.> You are not my legendary weapon, I'm sorry. You're just another epic weapon with a sexy but absolutely useless enchant - like unholy. 14. Who's the better kisser? I WIN I WIN. lol the evidence is quite dated though :P 15. Setting people up with people.../stab 16. Nikki & Kuya: I FINALLY will be able to freaking elaborate this story (since changing blog addresses.../sigh...i feel for them because lol i sorta went through nikki's situation. hers was way more intense though.) 17. EA: Hm...decisions, decisions. Indecisiveness at its best. 18. Kuya's Friends: Live long and prosper, football, and cheerleading. 19. Kuya having relations with my old best friend. YUCK. 20. CHURCH TOMORROW MORNING @ THE CRACK OF FREAKING ASS. >.> OH MAN...I'm gonna melt as i enter the church walls it's been so effing long. I do occasionally pray the rosary though - you wouldn't believe. :P haha Church -> Raid -> Dinner w/ my cousin -> Buying Cars & Watching Superbad 21. why for the /fear @ frank. I doubt i'm going to go into detail with this one...but since i've moved blogs, i guess i can get away with saying more. For now, lets just say, it was the most painful stab in the heart feeling i've ever had - ever. Almost like a heart-attack sans the numbing of the left arm. What's weird is that - you'd think that if it hurts that much, you'd never want that feeling again. I can't seem to live without it. Weird, huh?
MONDAY. (as the monday night football theme plays...lol? well i couldn't think of a better ending credits song to play for my blog atm)
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Officially moved.
Yup. There are things that most people don't need to read. I'm sparing you. :)
I should change my password, huh? Maybe i'll encrypt a password, haha...that would be pretty annoying. :)
It already breaks my heart that I can't move to vancouver. >.> In so many ways. I'd SO rather be there...you just don't understand.
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Hm so i decided to play some demos today...
Heavenly Sword has GOT to be the most beautiful game i've ever freaking played - ever.
Yeah it's fun. I like the 3 fighting options...ranged/power/speed. It really gives the player replay-ability. O_O I'm kinda biased though...i make her play like my auron - she does a lot of roll roll roll AOE BAM, roll roll get the fuck away from me AOE BAM, roll roll BAM. I like the power option more than anything else, i think. >.> It kills them so hard - much slower...but the killing is "a beautiful finish" versus...just quick attacks. It's how i play everything. All or nothing - lol, bad!
Hm...then i played GT concept. Meh, it's alright...it's like gt4. big whoop. For some reason, i can't do as well if i don't use Manual Transmission. Yeah, it's weird...it's supposed to be easier w/ automatic transmission...but unless i can downshift on a turn, i usually run into the wall. It's weird iono.
Then I played armored core 4. >.> Backwards camera controls make me sick - literally. It wasn't even first person mode...guhhh >.> guhh... i dunno, maybe it's "american game" camera controls or something...but when i press down on the camera stick, I expect that shit to go up - not down. Maybe I'm weird? Since it was a demo, you couldn't change the fucking camera settings. I was doing okay - i got rank A scores, but overall...everytime i moved the camera, i'd always start moving it one way and then move it the other way. I'm just used to backwards settings. >.< So all that movement made me sick after a while and I had to stop. It was pretty fun overall though...if i could effing change the camera, I think i'd play it more. It has a lot of customize-ability with your mechs. :P
Then to save myself from barfing - i tried out Dynasty Warriors - Gundam. Haha that game is surprisingly fun. LOL, I PLAYED THE WHOLE demo. It was a good hour or so...but with that game you couldn't alter the camera settings either..BUT - the camera settings were happily backwards, lol for my convenience. Hahaha, oh the difference it makes. :) It's pretty cool...just a massive RTS AND Action Adventure sorta? Well you have missions to take down certain places...and there's a grid that you have to follow sorta - you have cavalry, and other "hero" classes that help you. Hmm... You're trying to infiltrate their base, and there are swarms of dudes. I dunno, you'd just have to play it - i don't really know how to describe it. It kinda looks like warcraft - but you have to kill them like ninja gaiden-y?
Hmm since i'm already sick - i might play gears, lol. I like that game...seriously. I just feel sick after a few minutes of it. I figure, since i'm already feeling gross - why not just play it. It's fun, haha.
Hmm...i need to start playing a new game. Any ideas? *_* I'm thinking...resident evil 4...but i think im too pansy to play it, LOL. UGH.
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HAHAHA, God has other plans for me. I wonder what they are? :)
I got my followup email, lol yeah and I was overreacting really really badly. Yeah, shut up Kev. :D "You don't even know how to have a bad interview. You COULDN'T have a bad interview even if you TRIED." LOL I can interview badly - honestly that wasn't the best interview by far. There were lots of things I COULD'VE said that'd auto-get me a job. /wink. I mean...I'm an idiot? Hahaha. XD
I hope I'm not manipulating what God's plans are for me. >.< lol...
Hm, I asked how long their devcycles are for a NEW game [they were recruiting for a new game]. They responded from preprod-GM ranges about 3 years per game. I then said that I like devcycle management. DevCycle management is one of the hardest managing positions that would require a longer period of time...abroad - 3+ years w/ ramp up time.
Do you know how long a working visa lasts? 3 years. Aww well, darn. Just a HAIR too short...not enough time for ramp up. It's near impossible because of the time extent of the visa. I've had to file a few working visas.
Hahaha :) That's why I said, "i hope im not manipulating what god's plans are for me." because HONESTLY if they would've said 2 years per game, i would've still said devcycle management, but...that would've been doable. :P
"Hey Christine, thanks so much for speaking with the Producers from our Fusion team. They enjoyed speaking with you and feel you showed a tremendous amount of enthusiasm and energy (yeah - even over a phone interview!)Based on their feedback, they feel you are a good fit for a Development Manager position. The challenge for us is moving forward. For DM roles, we normally hire within Canada as it's next to impossible to obtain a work permit for non-Canadian citizens under this job category.
I will circle back with Lisa Martin as I think it would be cool to find you a spot at any of the US EA locations. You have a well rounded skillset and bring a great deal of gaming knowledge too."
Haha, i'm such a dork - because when he said "DM roles" LOL...hahaha, that made me giggle inside just a little bit.
DAMNIT, haha I was waaaaaay looking forward to visiting Vancouver too! :P Sorta. OMG i wanna be a DM, hahaha >.> just to say that I'm a DM lol. No honestly, that DevManaging is way more fun than being an AssProd. LOL HONESTLY - despite how glamorous "Associate Producer" sounds, you're really the Producer/Creative Director/Dev Manager/QA Lead's bitch.
GUHHH But still...that would've been so hot to be an AssProd for EASports. LOL<3 My brothers would've shat themselves. Haha, they have like the whole collection of EASports games.
I couldn't honestly imagine living away from everything that makes me happy though...despite the rest of the crap that comes along with it. I had a previous blog entry that said i need to change, i need change in life, and if it isn't broke - don't fix it. Basically...I figured it out yesterday like fucking 2 minutes before my interview. Don't ask - weird things come to me at weird times.
I had written this indepth paper with bullet points, etc. that I knew they'd love. I ripped it up right before my interview and changed the gameplan. Lol, yeah i know impulsive...but deep down, i honestly felt like it was the right thing to do.
I can do that all... I need to change - so I'm NOT running away; staying to deal with everything I'm not used to facing aka "growing a pair". Change in life - i need to fucking grow up and accept stuff - even if it isn't quite what I want. It's what I need...and I just need to appreciate life how it's given to me. If it isn't broke - don't fix it...Everything about NorCal makes me happy. I love it here...other than the weather. >.> haha, i'd be more happy if it rained more. Why leave a great location if i'm already satisfied?
Meh, we'll see what God brings my way - but so far...he's been really forgiving and protective. I appreciate everything he's done for me. <3
Moving away would just be the most stubborn, scapegoat, childish thing to do - ever. It's like the epitome of everything that I don't want to be. The super dependent, emotional, needy, spoiled, i'll do whatever the fuck i feel like doing w/ no remorse type of person. /sigh
So all in all, i am quite the idiot - but for good reason. :)
/yell BAM!
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Bad interview -> initiating do not beat myself up over it.exe
It could've been worse, Kevin's right.
I'm still going to cry about it though, so :*P. Don't worry - i'm not sad or anything...i'm still happy. I'm just a little frustrated at myself. Okay - really frustrated at myself.
I'm gonna shower and proceed to curl up into a ball & die. LOL GOD ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE! >.< I'm overreacting - haha...I know. Kevin said it was good...but HONESTLY - that HAD to be the WORST interview I've EVER done in my life - EVER. Jesus Christ, i had NO opinions about ANYTHING...NONE! Since when is it EVER hard for me to have opinions?
"Out of all the LeapFrog titles, which one was your favorite?" "So speaking of wearing multiple hats at a company, would you have liked to focus more on one facet of production? If so, which one...and why?" "Do you feel that your LeapFrog titles were fun?"
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"I feel like the public would enjoy the leapfrog titles. They all followed protocol as well as had a dev cycle that was closely monitored. Every milestone was hit pretty much on the dot." "Well how do YOU feel...about the level of fun in those games?" "Uhh...well I guess, I'm a little biased. Since I've worked on them, I'm a bit emotionally attached. They were showcased on the Today's show once with people all happy to play it. It was the best feeling. It's like being a musician and hearing your song play on the radio for the first time."
I'M AN IDIOT. I couldn't even answer that question how they wanted me to. LOL I HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT THE LEVEL OF FUN IN A FUCKING 3 YEAR OLD'S GAME?! NO it's NOT fun? I'd rather shuck CORN!? I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE TRYING TO FISH FOR. YOUR BAIT SUCKS and I WANNA GO HOME. The LEVEL OF FUN? It's SUPER! SUPER STUPID! -_- OH I'LL GIVE YOU A LEVEL OF FUN.
"So speaking of wearing multiple hats at a company, would you have liked to focus more on one facet of production? If so, which one...and why?" "Considering the SCG opportunity presented itself while I was in my upper division in college, i definitely think that there couldn't have been a better situation. There was a lot of learning in a short amount of time." "Well what's your favorite aspect of production?" "Probably task management, just because the responsibility is greater. I love working under pressure and like making sure that everyone is getting equal amounts of tasks/hitting their milestones on time."
FUCKING SHIT. I SO FUCKING pulled that rabbit out of my asshole. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO idea what the hell is my favorite part of production. HONESTLY, i'll do whatever you fucking want me to do. OH GOD get your head out of the gutter. I honestly DON'T CARE what part of production i'm being assigned. WHO HONESTLY CARES what my fucking opinion is - or lack thereof if i'm going to do anything you're assigning me to do ANYWAY. GUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!
Kevin said, "well they just want to know more about you..." KEVIN! I don't even know more about me yet. HOW THE HECK am I gonna tell THEM about me when I don't even know what the fuck I want. T_T FOR GOD'S SAKE, I could be happy fucking testing mattresses all my life. YES, Christine - the pro mattress tester. GUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. I don't even know where that came from...but -_- w/e.
"What was your favorite LeapFrog title?" "Well working on all of them was a great experience. I would say that I like them pretty equally." "You wouldn't say that one of them is outstanding? Or that one might have better gameplay elements than the others?" "I'd have to say Finding Nemo. It allowed us the most leverage with creative decisions."
I DON'T KNOW? I don't have a favorite??! The teams had favorites, I DONT HAVE FAVORITES. I'm not supposed to have favorites - i'm supposed to work on whatever other people LIKE. DAMNIT. Those creative decisions aren't mine anyway - so what the hell do i care what we work on? It's all fucking resource & time management to me anyway. None of that effing changes when i work on other titles. I STARE AT LITTLE BARS ALL DAY - and when they turn RED, i reassign tasks so that resource is not overworked. It's a fucking RTS - it's the same no matter what. WHAT DOES IT MATTER what I LIKE - because what I LIKE doesn't matter...when it's the TEAM that actually executes it. It's what the TEAM fucking agrees on - NOT ME. I just help them get it done.
"They're just trying to see your reaction..."
KEVIN! We're on the FUCKING PHONE. How are they gonna see ANYTHING. I can't TELL them how happy I was to work with my team - and how it honestly didn't matter WHAT we worked on. As an associate producer you have almost NO creative decision in anything. You are officially the office paladin - GO make HASTE and VANQUISH evil MILESTONES. Be the support class that EVERYONE always needs. REACTION SMACKSHON! Couldn't this have waited until i met them IRL? I HATE fucking phone interviews. I always sound like a fucking computer. It's FUCKING disgusting.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
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Haha i just dropped $180 on a dress.
It's BCBG - i got it because i don't own a plain black dress that goes with everything.
Yeah it's a bit conservative...but i love it. It reminds me of Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, haha. :P
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I got an ipod player, finally...haha. It's not the coolest player in the world or anything...but it's still sufficient. Haha :D I just wanted a charger that could play my ipod music while i was around the house.
Hmm i can't find it online - well...i haven't really looked - but it's close enough to this one that you get the picture.
:D
So it's been andrea bocielli and mariah carey all around the house all day today, haha. OKAY maybe i like mariah because she has so much feeling into her songs. Like her heart totally goes into all her songs, haha - it's refreshing.
OH MY GOD - so i played piano yesterday - lol, it was one of those days...and i guess learned how to play utada hikaru's first love song. Yeah SHUT UP - i wasn't playing it to be a sap - the piano portion of that song is REALLY good. I was too lazy to learn the sheet music so i played by ear. I learn like a million times faster that way for some reason. I'm sure the fingerings aren't as accurate - but it's pretty goddamn close - and satisfies my ear.
My all time favorite piano song to play is kissing you from the romeo & juliet soundtrack. I actually learned the sheet music after playing it by ear for years. It's just one of those songs that you can have your heart pour out from your fingertips and into the piano - when it almost feels symbiotic...and you just instantly feel better after playing it. It's a weird feeling that i've only had with a few songs.
Yeah yeah, lol - it's funny because all the complex songs that I HAD to learn from private lessons [the classical...stuff] i sorta still remember how to play, but the feeling of attachment just doesn't come close. Maybe because they were so challenging to learn - it took the emotional attachment out of the actual song. I dunno, I'm just not as impressed at songs that don't affect me emotionally...as much as an easier song that could make you cry would.
I guess that's why i appreciate andrea bocielli so much. He's fucking blind but he has the voice of an angel. It's nuts. Okay maybe it's not so much nuts in as much... god had a really good day when he was making him. He was like, hmm...I'm going to make this child have a voice of an angel...but to balance out his uber voice - and to not make him have too much of an aggro-intensive life, i'm gonna make him blind.
If he was extremely good looking - i don't think he'd be where he is today. People wouldn't take him as seriously, and he'd be so over-confident in his voice...that he'd probably suck more. God did a good job. :D His logic makes me /giggle.
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On another note, I'm happy. :D
Yeah, it took a bit longer to sort through all the emotions and just go straight to the objective perspective, I'm really sorry. It's tough having hormones and emotions! I don't deliberately try to make things hard on anyone - or myself for that matter. Hm, I'm still a noob at life...and trying to understand everyone else in the worlds' logic.
There are things that i have to work on ...that i'm totally aware of. Like, my impatience, stubbornness, and over-sensitivity. Hah, I KNOW - it's weird. I'm only that way to some people - but to those some people, I'm sure it's effing annoying, and it's not a great trait to have around for the rest of my life.
1/3 of me wants to change, 1/3 wants a change in life, and 1/3 doesn't think change is necessary because why want a change when things are working out fine; the whole "if it isn't broke, don't fix it" mentality.
It's just a personal conflict that...no one else can really figure out for me. -_-
What's totally retarded about the abovementioned statement, is that none of those ideas are wrong choices. If I changed, it wouldn't be for the worse. If something changed in my life, you only live once really...so the experiences would be well worth the changes - despite the risks. Even bad experiences can only promote personal growth. Hmm and the last 1/3...not changing anything... really, overall my life is pretty satisfactory. There's nothing really wrong with anything...and it's stable. Why change things that are working out well? Things might not be perfect, but there are downfalls in any situation.
Yeah. Hm...fucking logic. You know, normal girls would just think about what makes them happy - like..."im sad because this girl is talking shit" or "my homework is hard" or...fuck i don't know, maybe insecurities. I wish I had that, haha. I'm not envious, lol...but that's such a great drama to have - versus situations that actually have life-changing consequences.
I dunno, sometimes I feel like a 40 year old trapped in a 23 year olds' body...except with the brain capacity of a 23 year old. As if i had ONCE known what to do - which would be the reason why i'm experiencing so much at my age, but since my brain capacity is only of a 23 year olds, that I can't figure out the next move. I'm sure it's something stupidly easy like...well DUH the knight moves in an L movement - just trap the king with your bishop and knight. I'm just not there yet -_-. I can't see moves ahead like 1337 players can.
I've been hanging out with a bunch of people lately - ironically...even High School friends. Hmm, and hanging out with them makes me feel SO goddamn old. They're not ignorant people by any means. They've all gone to pretty good schools and even graduated before I have. DUDE, I'm sure I look like the idiot to them for choosing a weird school with a weird major. Either way - i still feel so effing old. The topics of conversation just bore me. Not that - like...my conversations with my good friends are any less immature, but i really don't give a shit who's getting plastic surgery, who's cheating on who, and the high school gossip that apparently the world loves.
No - i didn't know that angelina jolie adopted new children from africa. -_- That's fascinating.
So why do I hang out with them? I honestly don't know. Maybe because I'm used to being out of the house or something? My mom did her best to force me out of the house when I was younger...and maybe it stuck. They're nice people.
I don't like people my age, hahaha. XD REALLY. I don't feel like i can relate, and thus it bores me. I'm not being elitest, i swear. It's not just about how smart they are or anything. Hmm i posted this thing on an earlier blog where i don't fucking care if the glass is half full or half empty...i just care that there's a glass there - so when i'm thirsty...i can drink from it. People my age just don't think that way...it's hard to explain. T_T
Like honestly who gives a damn about if britney spears shaved her fucking head. People shave their heads all the time. So she's stressed out and went a bit nuts, big fucking deal. Crazy people murder people when they're stressed out too - that's something to make a big deal out of. Not a fucking pop star out of her prime. The holocaust was caused by crazy people.
Or Paris Hilton going to jail. ARE YOU SERIOUS? There's a whole issue in iraq...that totally gets ignored when Larry King interviews Paris. DUDE there are much larger issues in the world versus her FUCKING irresponsibility. WOW, that's so fucking insightful - lets just EXPOSE to the world how SUPERFICIAL our country is by taking TWO fucking hours of our NATIONAL TIME to interview a pretty girl of her nationally renowned IGNORANCE. That's fucking ingenious. It makes me hate this country sometimes.
Like HONESTLY, our governor said, "GET TO THE CHAPPA!"...and "I'LL BE BACK". WHAT THE FUCK? -_-
That's when you take a step back, /sigh and think...whatever it could be worse. At least we're not communist - or better yet...North Korea. Then proceed cheering on the Governator - because it honestly could be worse.
Yeah - that's when i avoid the issues that piss me off...and switch to reading up on the mlb draft picks.
Haha Kevin's a fan of both A's/Giants. :D It makes me happy. We had a yankees discussion while he visited, lol...and apparently the Yankees are Taiwan's favorite team ever. Like, when baseball is broadcasted - it's just primarily supporting the Yankees. LOL Just yet another reason why NOT to support that team...JUST because it's the world's favorite team. When you think baseball [well...lately, I guess] you think of the yankees. It's horrible. It's like thinking of the Warriors + basketball. Yikes. We just talked about how hard it is to not like them. Haha,
"You only like them because Matsui is on their team." "WELLLLL YOU only like them because Chien Ming Wang's on it." "OHH NO...I GOT IT...YOU ONLY LIKE THEM because they have 'HOTTIES' on their team. Ohhhh AROD...OHHhhh" "DUDE, I like Roger Clemens too...he's an old fart! and what about Jason Giambi. YOU OUT OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD understand that one!" "OHHHhh Johnny Damon OHhhHhhhh" "He's not even a high .200s/.300 hitter anymore. Aaaaand KEVIN HONESTLY when's the last time he actually successfully stole a base /wink." "They paid too much for him, haha."
LOL<3 It honest to God, brightens up my day. :)
I was supposed to hang out with him today, but I'm stressing out too much for the 4pm interview. O_O I took a raincheck...and we're hanging out next week. :D /sigh... hanging out with Kevin is like hanging out with my cousins[the 2 brothers]. He's totally safe and we're SO omg not "that way". He reminds me to pray before meals, and points out when I'm being stupid. He's just a good friend.
We have to go to a warriors game. I haven't been since I was like 15, lollll. Kevin gets so happy when we talk about sports - and when lol...i /frown @ Jason Richardson moving to the Bobcats. >.O hahaha...I honestly haven't followed basketball all that much but i used to be into it a lot more when i was younger. ^_^ OH COME ON, how can you NOT know the obvious stuff that happens in sports. -_- It's ON TV...they're headliners on CNN. -_- GUH.
I want a Matsui shirt, lol. Actually, i'd want an ichiro shirt 10x more...but it'd be fun to have that too. :P
Haha I almost wanna get a Lincecum shirt - just to make my Dad laugh. I'd never wear his number - that's just wrong. :)
Speaking of wearing numbers and stuff, LOL...it's always weird when Frank wears his 64 shirt. I KNOW it's not my 64 number, but i still /laugh a little inside. Haha, that's just nurts. 164 really, because 64 was my initials - and 16/4=4. Which is the "#13" equivalent in Japan. Shut up, LOL...i KNOW i think too much.
Alright, i'm going to email David Chandler how to reach me and study a little more.
/wave /cheer.
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That was the hottest raid day - ever. Michie can dps harder than your MOMMMMMMMMMMMM, BITCHES. I have no idea what that was supposed to mean, haha...but i was tied 2nd for 3 out of the 4 bossfights. 5th on 1 bossfight.
I am the most undergeared caster - out of all of them. It makes me /giggle when she tops dps. -_- /sigh /sigh /sigh /sigh
I wish i had photoshop on this computer, hahaha...i wanna post ss's but i can't. Well i can, but it shows the whole screen...i can't crop it XD.
Convo w/ Josh about Enders @ Magtheridon
DK is my raid paladin! hahaha...
Well, no <3... XD guh.
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Feeling a lot better from last night. I'm still frustrated, but overall...i guess things could be a lot worse.
Hmm i get exceptionally frustrated with frank - and I don't like it. Err - I don't like getting frustrated because just feels wrong in all different kinds of ways. Like i have no right, no control, have certain emotions, etc. It's just bad in all different kinds of ways. He has it easy! Even if he DID deem me purple weapon status or more [which i doubt, but whatever], he has ALL the dkp to spare. Haha, honestly he's allowed to like people since he's single. He's not affecting a spouse by liking someone.
Me on the other hand, I can't get away with it. I effing CANT tell him - versus even if he DID tell me, it wouldn't be wrong. It's be unfortunate, but it wouldn't be like he's hurting anyone. It's alright to like people if you're not hurting anyone or [doing anything stupid when you're not supposed to be]in the process.
So yeah, part of my reasoning is because I know he wouldn't tell me the truth. He thinks he can't - but he's an effing retarded normal GUY that i give toooo much effing credit to. Maybe he's not telling me because in actuality I'm not his legendary weapon and he doesn't want to hurt my feelings - which is FINE. It'd suck but I'd get over it eventually.
-_- Hm well, you know how people can't really alter their emotions? I can. Well, I can't get rid of it 100% lol, not even like 80%...but i can dull it down low enough where it doesn't affect me as much.
Well - now that my tactic is revealed to the world...my reasoning for wanting to move should be totally clear.
Hmm...I'll use WoW as an example. If I get over-emotional playing WoW...like, if I start getting stupidly frustrated at loot/raids/people in WoW, I kinda take a step back and avoid playing WoW for a while...because I totally <3 it but sometimes the stress is overwhelming and I need a break. I wouldn't delete my account for anything because I'm waaaaaaaaay too attached - even though sometimes I think that might be the best solution. It's kinda hard to just drop it when it there's that much time investment involved, haha. Then my friends get grumpy at me for missing raids or just not being around and I kinda can't give them a reason, because lol how do you even explain that? "OH sorry, you guys stress me out too much so I can't be around you. Actually - this whole effing game stresses me out." Yeah I'm sure I'll get positive feedback.
OH... MY...-_- God I'm an idiot.
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They keep referring to Auron being closer to a Paladin than a Dark Knight. Haha, my sphere grid [skill tree] setup was SO melee intensive - god i have to open up my ff10 save game.
Shit, i didn't get dark attack. Wtf was i thinking? -_- it's on another skill tree all the way away. O_O
Damnit, lol my Tidus is such a weak pansy. I honestly don't feel like playing FFX right now, :P but i'll play FF9. <3 I had a thing for Garnet. She was badass lol. Haha...so biased, :P. When you got to keep her in your party and rename her as Dagger - i kept it as Garnet. I dunno what class she really is, haha summoner i guess?
I don't remember if i used her like that though. >.O lemmie check.
:( My pink playstation is slowly dying.
LOL I'm on FF9 Right now just looking at my old skill setups
LOL OF COURSE Zidane has the "protect girls" crystal on. hahaha GOd i forgot how to play. OH GOD IM DYING LOL.
Haha Red Wings...lol...Red XIII, i get it. I'm slow with the star wars references, lol sorry. Who's Red V then? Hmmmm....:P LOL Nanaki, Oh ho ho ho hooo...it's backwards horse latin, iiiiiiii get it. I'm an idiot. OH my god i want to look at his limit breaks and see how similar they are. This is pretty nuts.
OHHH ho ho ho... thaaaaaaats where the Falcon came from. XD DUH. NO WONDER! LOL? It was totally out of nowhere - like...there wasn't any other "Falcon" references to ships throughout the whole series other than this. Haha...i get it...bwahah.
I remembered the whole lunar cry and Adel's tomb that orbited the planet was a Star Wars reference, but i'd never played Knights of the Old Republic, so i couldn't see HOW similar it was. Wait, i think i haven't played it...? O_O
Nope, i played star wars bounty hunter. Where you get to be Jango Fett. SHH, it's a secret. /shrug *_* what??
EEK kevin's picking me up, i gotta shower and get ready. :P <3 cya later.
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SO i had this crazy nightmare/dream this morning/last night that i had to figure out.
I put the explanations from the Dream Dictionary on a second post. It's absolutely nuts. Like the ONE night where i don't take ambien...and actually dream something - it's like...relevant to real life. NUTS.
I didn't put it on my main blog because it was long and I'm just sparing you.
Nuts. Absolutely freaking NUTS.
I've only had a few dreams where wings would materialize and protect me. They were super scary nightmares also...but as soon as my wings came out, everything just felt like it was going to be okay. Like - i was bubbled or something. Nuts, i'm telling you.
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I know what to pray for. :)
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there was a ladybug in my screen door this morning...
and i proceeded to get an email from david chandler soon after. it's true. they are lucky creatures. <3
I wanna pray for something good to happen - but i honestly don't know what "good" i want to come out of the prayer...so i'm refraining from wasting one.
-_- hm yeah lately, i prayed for frank to get a job, t4, and that other thing that i can't really talk about. So far, 2.5/3 prayers have been answered, so i can't really complain. God's pretty good at what he does.
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I just had a 30min convo with my Dad. We don't have very many longer conversations "like that" so...this was kinda weird.
D: Of course I don't think you should go. But I also think that it's a great opportunity and I can see your reasoning behind needing the personal growth. M: ...it's selfish. D: It's okay to want to further your career and life. That's not selfish at all, it's being human. M: Ugh. D: Personal growth is your only reason for going, right? M: I'd say it was my main reason. Why? D: You shouldn't go just to avoid obstacles in life. M: What the hell do you think I'm trying to avoid? D: Maybe it's a feeling. M: Thanks, Dr. Phil. D: Well, you did go down to Anaheim with Frank for a few days. M: What the hell does that have to do with anything ever!? D: I'm just saying that running away isn't going to solve anything. M: Wow, thanks for being absolutely retarded. D: Marlins are winning, btw. M: Yeah, but the Giants already won the first 2 games - PLUS they just caught up 2 runs in the 5 seconds you were wasting your breath. D: I'm just saying that in a normal marriage, that would be considered kinda weird. M: YEAH HONESTLY DAD, when have I EVER been allowed in the "normal" category - for ANYTHING I've done - EVER? I'm not even trying to be funny. D: I didn't say there was anything wrong with that - I'm just stating an outsiders perspective. You don't always know what other people's intentions are. M: You're kidding me right? D: I'm just trying to protect you. M: SINCE when in hell have I ever needed fucking saving? D: I'm your DAD - that's what we DO. You don't need saving - I'm glad. I'm just giving you a reminder to not be so fucking oblivious all the time. He probably likes you. M: Thanks dad for hitting the GOD THIS IS AWKWARD SWITCH. I'm having like a "birds and the bees" discussion with my father for the first fucking time at 23 years old. WOW. D: Well you guys are into the same stuff. M: WHY do you DO THAT? D: Do what? M: I don't even know what the fuck your point is now. Two seconds ago you're talking about being protective and now you're like making a sales pitch for someone. D: Hahaha M: It isn't funny! D: Hahaha M: I thought you liked him. D: I do. He's a nice guy. Likes the white sox, though. M: ...ohhhh kay? so.... D: You don't just have responsibilities here - you have friends and family that care a lot about you. Don't think of it just as a "marriage" you have to watch over - because you know that isn't all of it. Stop being dense. Just fucking dropping everything like a sack of dirty laundry isn't going to solve anything. Someone's gotta clean that shit. M: ... D: I'd say figure out your options - talk to the recruiter and maybe visit Vancouver. Check it out. I just know what's going to happen already. M: What the heck do you think is going to happen? D: You should figure that out on your own. M: JUST TELL ME! D: NO. M: COME ON! D: You're going to go up there and see how pretty it is as a vacationing spot - be alone while visiting EA and miss everyone down here. It's going to eat you up and after the vacations over, you'll come back with the decision that it's not for you. M: You assume too much. D: This isn't assuming. It's fact. M: What makes you so sure i won't stay up there? D: Because everything that makes you happy in life as well as sad, frustrated, irritated, worried are ALL down here. You're not a boring person...and you're going to get bored without "life" up there. M: God Damnit, i hate you. D: After all, you wouldn't have your baseball buddy up there. They play hockey, Christine - it's their national sport. M: I could get into hockey. D: Yeah you could...but you're already into a sport. Why change it if you're happy. M: Maybe change is good. D: If you're Hellen fucking Keller and need lasik eye surgery. M: OMG Josh and I were just TALKING about hellen keller last night, hahaha. D: To be brutally honest, I don't think you NEED the change. You still have a lot to learn about life - even if you STAY in the Bay Area. I think you need to grow up. M: ...
...haha, he knows me way too well. :P i <3 my dad lots. STUPID RIGHTEOUS DEFENSE. STUPID LAME-O GAYNESS. LOL?
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(Sunday, August 19, 2007-) +1:56 PM]*
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I'm so frustrated.
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DAMN i HONESTLY wanted to go to church today - but there's an effing game on.
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Browsing the VerizonWireless ringbacktone page....
Im trying to change my ringback tone...because my current ringback tones are making me sick.
01. A Little Less Sixteen Candles/Fall Out Boy 02. I Write Sins Not Tragedies/Panic! at the Disco 03. Brighter Than Sunshine/Aqualung 04. Air On The G String/Bach 05. Moonlight Sonata/Ludwig van Beethoven
Anyway - so the top 10 tones are like Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry thing, stronger - kanye west, and more. It's all motivating shit. -_- Guh, i need to go to church.
DAMNIT? There's nothing there that looks worth purchasing. I found 1979, but that's MYYyYy song - and i guess im probably the only one who would appreciate it [as well as like...the only person who wouldn't be calling that number to hear it] so that would be a bad idea, maybe?
Anyway, I ended up getting the intro to "I can't get no satisfaction" by the stones. It kinda was a toss up between that and paint it black. OH man, and now the more I listen to paint it black lol I kinda want it.
OH man =_=
LOL California Girls, hahaha...that's just cute. LOL Wouldn't it be Nice, awwww that's so cute ahaha...NO i'm not putting the beach boys as my ringback tone.
OMFG lol Billie Holiday's "the Way you Look Tonight" lolol <3 haha NO. My mom would giggle w/ me.
Hmm maybe blondie? -_- i get annoyed at Debbie Harry's voice after a while though. Yeah i know, i have no room to talk.
Hmm Gorillaz? >.< I like feel good inc. a lot :P.
GOD!!!!!
I've been listening to my Nimrod CD like no other lately - just because i found it lol. >.O Maybe Uptight? GOD i love the intro, OH god i dunno -_- i like a lot of songs in this album. I like hitchin' a ride, worry rock, reject...oh man -_- i love redundant.
-_- this cd is so old and brings back memories. i miss being young and more naive.
O_O ROBIN THICKE, SWEET GOD WHY? Yeah - i don't like listening to him...because lost without you's like one of those songs where i TRY to absolutely keep a straight face but i end up having to grab a pillow and turn into ball of mush. He has like, "piercing" and "hit rating".
OMG is it christmas yet? lol it's like the best time of the year. -_-
Mariah Carey. OH GOD, unfortunately - i love Mariah Carey. -_- Yeah don't ask it's an old HS thing, you wouldn't believe. "Whenever You Call" - Brian McKnight + Mariah Carey. I'd never subject anyone to all of that though, lol. "One Sweet Day" - Boys II Men + Mariah Carey. It's about losing someone you love...nono i mean a death. Yeah, -_- it makes me cry. I've lost a few close people...so this song and Amazing Grace make me cry. "Thank God I Found You" - LOL well this one isn't a sad one. My piano recital...@ umm 15?
Yeah, I stopped private lessons because it got boring. Being forced to play since you were 3 has its downfalls. Haha i started playing when i couldn't even come close to reaching the pedals. I dunno, as i got older it got to the point where i HATED practicing...and just learned the recital pieces like the week before. It was horrible. Stupid adolescent hormone changes!
-_- I can still do it, but lately... i honestly only play when I need to vent and blogger is just not enough. The last song i forced myself to learn was Air in G, lol...maybe about a year ago, and then I started learning Return to Zanarkand - but i dunno. -_- I lost interest. I have to learn easier music comparatively to when i was younger - because i don't have the patience or motivation to practice everyday like before.
-_- After all this blogging i STILL haven't figured out a ringback tone.
California Dreamin' - Mamas and the Papas
I got distracted looking at the 2007 giants draft roster, lol. They're SOoOOo young, it's weird.
HOW did they catch up? -_- it's been like 20 minutes and they've caught up. LOL im missing sunday mass for this shit. My cousins up from socal and i'm SUPPOSED to be w/ them right now. Hmm, my Mom's going to say, "Christine why didn't you come to church?" lol..."sorry mom a giants game was on." She's gonna be so pissed hahaha! "UGH! You're JUST like your father! blah blah blah blah blah" Haha, and it makes me smile every time. I hug her and say, sorry mom! I'll go...eventually, i promise. :D
She just gets pissy - i don't believe she's really upset. :P
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On another note, i'm 5 hours into this new RPG - Riviera. LOL I was talking to Osaka about it yesterday. It's pretty good. He's playing it on PSP and i'm playing it on my gameboy Micro.
It's a turn based rpg/dating sim/WITH SCORES. LOL I think the Score part of it makes it interesting. Depending on how well you strategize - you're graded on it. It's not easy lol, i've only managed to get S class like twice. I can get A's, lol but S's are like - YOU have to mathematically figure the best flow? Hmm I don't know how to explain this one. O_O LIKE, if a double slash does about 500dmg-250 each but builds up like a bar of "overskill points" for your "special overskill" and your overskill does 1000dmg but costs 3 bars of overskill points. Hmm...and Rank S requires only 6 rounds and there's a boss with 12000 hitpoins that hits for 600~1000dmg at a time. It's like a puzzle game. -_- Hm i guess teh strategy is to produce the most amount of damage in the least amount of time.
I had to graph it out. >.> It's not as accurate if you just assume. Hmm...well duh. I mean, that there are weapons that you can equip that could increase your crit etc. So you have to factor in those possibilities as well as static "i know this is going to happen in this amount" damage/healing.
Yeah my setup is pretty safe. Melee/Sword User, Ranged/Archer, Melee-Caster Healer/Rapier+Staff. LOL YEAH? I like redmages. She uses a fucking rapier AND staff. It's because...when you're fighting trash and don't need the extra primary healing - she can still switch to melee and do a decent amount of damage. SO you're not STUCK with two dpsers or ONE if shit hits the fan and one dies. [NOT that that would EVER happen because Fia is freaking 1337.] YES, i use Fia, Ein, and Lita.
No, i didn't get a choice in naming them.
Fia's my favorite so far. Ein comes close, lol he's pretty cute. She kicks his ass by far though. >:D
Okay so get this, Ein's the main character of the whole game. He's an Angel sent by God to destroy the Demons that are infiltrating the world. Anyway, all the Angels apparently have to sacrifice something to obtain their "legendary weapon". They all have a legendary weapon called "divinity" or something like that. Anyway Ein gave up his wings for it. Haha, my girly catholic side gets all gushy. He just scored like 1,000,000 points. HE GAVE UP HIS WINGS! Yeah i know, osaka was like, "so? big deal?". Yeah i know - i have a soft spot for un-winged angels, MUAHAHAHA. :P
okay im gonna watch the rest of the game and play my rpg. <3
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(Saturday, August 18, 2007-) +1:13 AM]*
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I want to introduce you to Happy, the happy cat.
...lol he makes me cry.
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(Friday, August 17, 2007-) +11:38 PM]*
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LOL THIS below, is the epitome of a non 100% christine post. I'm not even saying when it's from, because if you couldn't find it - i'm not gonna say where i hid it. It's stupid anyway. I just thought the whole point was funny.
I said, "What do you want me to do? -_- I'm not a regular girl, damint! I'm not going to pick up on your super subtle hints. I'm not even ALLOWED to pick up on your hints - sooo it hurts THAT much more."
The whole top portion of it was like, "omg i don't get it." and the second part was the rationale. "omg i'm not supposed to get it so i don't."
If i felt like i do right now [not in the mood to fuck around]...when i posted that crap, i probably would've just said exactly what i felt, "There isn't anything there because I'm married." Regardless if it was the WHOLE truth or not, doesn't matter - because it's the only thing I can REALLY say.
He should understand. I shouldn't HAVE to elaborate because it should be really effing obvious. -_- GOD i wanna just delete that previous post. I was trying to be so fucking PC and nice that it makes me cringe when i read it.
OH yeah, and the part where "i don't understand/know/get it etc." - all that shit is 100% honest. Believe it or not, I actually respect you and REFUSE to assume what might be obvious. I'm not going to get my hopes up to be crushed - because honestly, either way...It's gonna suck for me probably MORE than anyone else on the face of the earth. I'd rather just stay ignorant and have "steak retain its programmed flavor". GOD that was nerdy.
Okay im too lazy to delete it. Just don't look - it's not worth your time.
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WARNING: DO NOT READ. It's pretty effing brutally honest and unless you understand my absolute inner personality - spare yourself the blue spiked shell.
I'm not in a sugar coating mood right now. It's an absolute inner christine post that you probably won't want to hear.
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Yeah i really don't know what im gonna do about vancouver.
It's one of those super indecisive moments where the number of pros outweigh the cons dramatically, but the cons are just heavy hitters. -_- Fucking steroid pumping bastards - ruining the game for all of us. YEAHhh I said it, shut up.
I don't want to go out of spite. I'm not a spiteful person. I never HATE people - really. I just say that out of frustration. I just EFFING HATE the situations.
If there's anything i've learned from my mother - is to never hate the people...just hate the situation; the action.
I think i exposed more of the inner christine to josh/frank/rich than i EVER HAVE EVER to...almost anyone. It wasn't much, it's just stuff i like to cover up with glee and fairy sprinkles.
Deep down, the inner christine's super indecisive and questions everything in life. Decently confident - but overly worried. I kinda want to experience everything...but i hold back ALL the time because i'm always worried about the people i could probably hurt/affect on the way. She's sorta the ungirly one that doesn't really give a shit about superficial stuff inasmuch the probability of things. She's comes out a lot in my blogs...but I usually mix in a little "normal people" happiness/emotion so it doesn't come out all bitter and cold. I'm not cold really - i promise...my warmth just comes out differently -_-. I guess it's really subtle sometimes...you just have to know where to look.
I dunno, i'm pretty effing sensitive...but not to most people? I guess? -_- and it's weird too. The amount of sensitivity that's exposed really depends on who i'm with, i guess. As far as with my girlfriends, i'm a chipper blond - haha seriously. It's kinda boring. It's like playing a warlock that needs attention to 50,000,000 buttons then quickly switching to a combat rogue or a feral druid. Oh i can flip a switch THAT fast - i'm trained. It's what those people are accustomed too, i guess. I don't wanna give anyone a hard time.
Hmm i'm really good at pissing "normal" people off. Well no, how do i explain this? I KNOW how to royally piss people off/annoy the shit out of them. It's really easy for me - lol, i actually like doing it for some retarded reason. Seeing people super annoyed/pissed off makes me laugh a little - and the more angry/frustrated they get - the more joy it brings. IT'S a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE habit so i don't do it very often...but it's something 99.9% of people don't know about me. I think I get it from my Dad.
Anyway, since i know how to do it really well - i try really hard to overcompensate for my possible satan-like behavior before it happens. It's like, Blessing of Light-ing then overhealing people by a little bit each time. It's not a wasted effort - I'm not trying to be someone i'm not, well sorta. I'm just trying to accommodate to people's needs. It's just adapting to environments - that's all. Haha the life of a producer, lol.
If anything though, being a complete asshole has its ups. It's taught me persistence, COMPLETE stubbornness, and a pretty strong will. LOL...It's like EVERYTHING YOU DON'T want in a relationship, hahahaha.
Hmm...i felt so naked today. Not literally, lol of course, but I just felt like the world knew what i was feeling without me even saying anything. It's the weirdest feeling ever. And the more i wanted to turtle and hide away - the more the questions started coming...it was almost a test from God saying, "Wtf are you doing, you cowardice prick? Man up and fucking answer the damn questions!"
Not that God would ever say that - lol it'd be funny...but, it's just what it felt like.
That's when the stubbornness comes in...and the, "DAMNIT im FINE...[place redundant explanation here]". I am fine.
Honestly, what the fuck was I supposed to say? Oh my ever so dearest friends, I'm full of FUCKING FRUSTRATION and ABSOLUTE BITTERNESS. I am the luckiest woman alive and I'm glad you find it HUMOROUS that SANTA wasn't kind to me and gave me living lumps of fucking coal. I have the most IMPECCABLE TIMING and it's resulted in WONDERFUL learning experiences in life. YES, glorious. BECAUSE that would just be so goddamn magically motivating - complaining about everything to people [who HONESTLY don't need to fucking hear it or need to be INVOLVED] would obviously make everything sweeter in life. All the problems in the world would disappear with MY fucking RANT to my friends about MYYYYYYYY wonderful disdain.
I'd rather eat shit and die. Not really - that's gross...and horrible. Hm I honestly don't know what i'd rather do - but i'm sure there are a lot of things.
Don't be worried...i was smiling while typing out that whole paragraph. It's the inner christine, sorry. Laughing/smiling is the best medicine in the world. I just get my kicks from weird things.
Alright, I'm done showing off enough insides. I honestly want to relocate my blog address haha because of this post, but i think i might just tough it out and give my worried soul the middle finger.
cya.
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My mom wanted me to get pictures of my first cousins, "off of those websites you kids chat on".
LOL
I don't even know if we have any pictures all together. I should take some pictures with my brothers sometime. It's kinda nuts that we only have little kid pictures together.
where teh F did i put those pictures.
LOL i found chicago pictures? EVERY Japanese girl has a burberry purse. That's just how it is.
OH SPEAKING of burberry, haha i have a new perfume, Burberry:Touch :D. I really really really really like the scent, but Damon's not a fan, lol as usual. It's kinda an "older" "more mature" scent. It doesn't smell "cute"...well i dunno, i think it's yummy. It smells like an older version of Still, i guess. I'm just getting tired of that smell. LoL when laundry scent>the perfume scent - it's time to change perfumes. LOL I DO love laundry scent though. It's just clean and perfect.
DAMN this is retarded? It's like $80 for the small bottle on the burberry website, and like $40 for the same thing on amazon. NUTS! INFLATION like OMFG.
it says there are all these scents in it - lol, and the scents it lists on the description are usually scents i don't like. It kinda smells like an orange cream-cicle, baby, and clean. Hm it kinda smells like Mom smell, LOL? Eww that's so not sexy, haha. It's not sexy but it's huggable, haha :P. AWWWW :P
I gotta go to my parents house [my old house] and find some pictures. /wave
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(Thursday, August 16, 2007-) +11:14 PM]*
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OMG NO PHOTOSHOP on the computer yet...OWWW!!
I'm so happy i could pee, lol.
Yeah i'm wearing oblivion...because i fucking can't stand how frozen shadowweave looks. I look like a fucking priest mage...it's good on the occasions where michie plays dressup and saccs her voidwalker. :P
LIKE YOU WOULD KNOW!? LOL Hahaha YUKI. You silly goose. Personally, i prefer a gentleman over a "badboy" any day. Go ahead and BE the asshole that you think the girls want, lol haha. It's just amusing, that's all.
It's the little things like holding doors open for people [not just a girl...but anyone], opening the cardoor for a guest [again...it could be for anyone], offer a jacket when someone's cold, pull a Shoji and help me through rocky beach terrain. HE OFFERED TO GIVE ME A PIGGY BACK through the ROCKS OMFG I WOULD'VE KILLED HIM...well no not literally, but i'm HUGE - okay i'm not HUGE, but OMG that would've been so mean! I would've never let him.
I wouldn't even let Burg, haha and Burg's a freaking linebacker. Not literally - but he could be. :P
I dunno that kinda stuff makes me all squishy inside, LOL i'd never admit it though IRL. My parents are old school, haha. I can't help it. I don't think i've ever opened the cardoor when riding with my dad - ever...nor the front door for that matter. He's always opened the cardoor. Yeah, my dad's a gentleman - despite his overwhelming sarcasm/smart ass comments. :D I'd never settle for any less, lol.
So JOSH to spare you your worries - NO just because Yuki plays a lot of WoW and is a programmer IRL, absolutely doesn't mean that he's date-able material, lol. He's just as elitist irl as he is in game. I'm not into un-gentlemanly like behavior, hahaha. I don't even really like guys who burp and fart and stuff. Yeah, hypocritical? Nah - because i do it every once in a while to prove a point - i don't make it like a HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY to PASS GAS in front of people.
I hate overly girly girls. I guess when i get sick of it or feel comfortable around certain people - i'll belch and giggle. OH YEAH, and it's not an OSAKA burp either. LOL OMFG. -_-
Haha i guess it is kinda hypocritical. Hmm...you'd be surprised but i actually do have some etiquette training, lol unfortunately. I had it in both japanese and american cultures. I still fold my napkin every time I'm done eating @ a restaurant. LOL Most people don't notice, but it's kinda dorky. Josh pointed it out once and made an anal-retentive joke...i went along with it, but it honestly has nothing to do with that. I just like my shit in order.
Oh yeah, and the potty mouth. I try not to say as much crap in front of people - lol, even paulette was kinda amazed @ siggraph. The cursing and "whatever" comes in after i'm comfortable around the friend. It takes a while. Hmm i think it took a few years with Josh - and i'm still not even full out assholey in front of Frank. Meh they've both seen quite a bit of it though. Yeah, Osaka's seen parts of it too. Now my HS friends, OH HO HO HO LOL...yeah. >.< thank god that's over.
Shoji will NEVER EVER see that side - EVER. I'd rather rot in all hell than ever expose that side to him. It'd like ruin everything good in our friendship. Not that our friendship is based on a false truth or anything - because it isn't. There's just a good amount of withheld information from both ends. I hear bits and pieces every once in a while lol...like his drunken escapades - and ALL THE STORIES make me O_O OMFG WTF? I don't think he'd want to know about how mean and disgruntled i can be...lol and my absolute cynical side. OH GOD AND the overly sarcastic smart ass side...YEAH I'd never let him know. He's just not that type of person. And if he ever became that type of person, i'd be so sad.
Speaking of Shoji -_- he's not playing as much anymore. Well...I guess I should be used to it by now. He's taken quite a few breaks since the start of his relationship. I've never ONCE flat out told him that it's not as fun when Gegsn isn't there. I don't want him to get the wrong idea - because he's honestly like a distant relative. Hmm well i don't want him to get any wrong ideas lol, like a) that he SHOULD be playing instead of being in his relationship. OH GOD, i'd feel like such a horrible person if he played more because he felt obligated to. Or b) if he thought that EW i can't even say it it grosses me out. Yeah b's just absolutely wrong. GUH EW.
EW. EW. BLEGH EW.
Hm i can play with Osaka and other FPD people...but it honestly isn't the same. LOL, i know - it sounds stupid. It's just that you get used to someone's playstyle...when you've pretty much just played with primarily one other person for about 60 levels. And maybe it's a bit RP, and nerdy - but I <3 classes that can hold their own. We 2 manned durn the hungerer like at 65. I have to find the SS's. He was prot/holy and i was demo/dest. 2 MANNED! It's like...the group right after us had 4 people and STILL had trouble...we had to help heal/dps so they'd finish. LOL, we didn't have zomg1337 gear either.
LOL OH YEAH and the little durns in nagrand...northwest, by the ogres. LOL Yeah, if i got a bit grumpy at Gegsn for some reason, i'd pull an elite mini-durn and as SOON as he righteous defensed, I sat down, watched him tank w/ no dps, /yawned+/golfclapped. Then as soon as he'd get pretty low in hp...i'd fear the mini-durn and kill it. They were so easy to kill for locks...because they were fearable. I could just chain fear + dots up the ass...haha. For a prot paladin on the other hand, haha...that was just entertaining and mean. I'd never let him die though :P.
LOL now why did i bring up shoji...? OH because he texted about drops during my rant about gentlemanly behavior. LOL. DISTRACT-O! Yeah he's so gentlemanly it's NUTS. Him AND his brother. LOL EVEN IN WoW! -_- I notice the weirdest shit...and it's never obvious stuff - it's always random shit.I usually just rant to myself in my head when i notice it - because the FEW TIMES i do say something, lol people always react to it like, "WTF how do you even notice?!" or "Who cares? Stop being weird."
1. Like when i didn't have my epic mount yet, Gegsn used to ride on his regular horse so he wouldn't leave me behind. NO ONE EVER noticed that, LOL. I mean they noticed after he said something - but usually they'd just complain that we were taking too long. 2. When I finally got my epic mount, he'd ride behind me to make sure that if i aggroed something - or got dazed, that he could dismount and save me - UNLESS Azer was there. LoL Because for some reason, I guess Sho assumed that Azer would save me since he was riding behind. YOU ARE A FUNNY, FUNNY BOY lol. 3. When it was just Gegs & Michie questing, he'd ride in front of me and aggro whatever was in our path. I used to make fun of him - but i honestly appreciated it. :P He did it purposely - but acted like it was an accident. He'd always take my aggro/possible aggro. 4. Gegsn always had opposite colors as Michie. I don't think we really planned that - but that's just how it was. It's kinda funny because in the times that I've been down to Torrance, Shoji and I usually end up wearing opposite colors too. It's totally NOT planned either. I have to post examples, haha. It's kinda not fair though - because we both are kinda plain with colors...w/ our black/white/neutral toned clothes - so i'll be wearing a white hoodie, and he'll be wearing a black one. Or I'll be wearing a black cardigan and he'll wear a white jacket. It's just funny. We won't ever match.
YEAH lol no that's just with frank, lol. Hahaha i remember one day i wore my maroon lucky outfit for some stupid WoW instance. Anyway, i went to josh's house...and he showed up wearing the same thing. -_- 5. Shoji likes it when people aren't super nice to him. I think it's refreshing to him - lol. Maybe that's why we get along so well. 6. Azer and Conin are like the same paladin. I don't know how to explain it. Maybe it's just because i've known conin forever - and haven't raided THAAAAAAAAT much with azer... but they have like the same playstyle. I think they even look alike. It's just a weird tidbit. 7. OH! Conin has an "around town" t2 set also. LOL :P 8. Gegsn's "around town" gear usually involves himself being half naked and/or in bondage gear. lol 9. Gegsn doesn't always go by stats. He goes by what matches best. LOL Haha, i do too though, it's awful. I know what's better, but honestly when it's only 5~10dmg more...i could give a shit less. Actually, even if it were like 500+dmg less, i'd still go with the cooler looking outfit. I can still rock the house with Oblivion, bitches - as can Gegsn with whatever funkay outfit he decides to wear. 10. Fufee has clothes on most his characters that match some set michie has. :D So when we "hang out" we can look alike too. It's like the sadie hawkins dance, lol in game. 11. Nitsue almost has full dreadmist as well as full lightforge. Not that that matters - but it's really cute when he plays dressup. :P Almost as cute as Gegsn's Banana Gear, LOL it's so DORKY. 12. Most of the aggro has come from warrior/hunter players. LOL /shrug casters need too much +int to do anything stupid. I don't think i'd ever get aggro from a mage - lol an NO yuki isn't aggro, i don't think? LoL Never get aggro from Mages/Warlocks/Paladins. They're too smart to fuck up. :P Hahaha /wink so biased. 13. Yuki's pretty much only nice to people that have out dpsed him. He's not really that big of a fan of paladins either, haha. Well duh. 14. If you talk to yuki about anything aside from WoW [or what he's comfortable with] he shuts down, literally. Like in an, "ok i gotta raid bye /click!" way. 15. There are spots aka "perches" underneath the bridges in Shatt - haha michie hides there when she doesn't quite wanna be found. 16. Gemminie's respect comes from the amount of nerdiness you can output. The more you RP, the higher the respect. 17. In dino vent, if the 2 or 3 girls are on - NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING until ONE of the girls [excluding me] says something to take aggro - then the wolves are released. 18. Those "girls" always say something sexual that begs for male response proceeded by something that fishes for a compliment. LOL i couldn't replicate it even if i wanted to - i'd have to show a screenshot. 19. Some enchants are like status symbols. Many people get soulfrost/sunfire JUST to show that they CAN get it. Even the most 1337 players don't effing really need the fucking 10+dmg more for the 500g extra cost. 20. With warlocks, if ONE warlock does really good dps as a spec - most of the other warlocks who are similarly geared ALL spec practically the same - AND SUCK...then go back to their older specs, find a spec in between, or just suck for a really long time until they learn. I guess that can apply to all the other classes too. It's just really obvious with warlocks because of our gear. You can tell who stole a spec from who - because it TOTALLY matched that other lock's GEAR but doesn't match theirs. NOT THAT I WOULD KNOW, MUAHAHHAHAA.
there are a million more things that i notice in WoW. :P I can't think of them off the top of my head, but i'll msg osaka about them sometimes and he either makes fun or wonders how in the heck i even notice.
OKAY im actually tired...its 1am...and i think i can fall asleep tonight w/o the help of ambien - haha i'm gonna try. <3
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Gez Fry