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(Sunday, September 30, 2007-)
+10:40 AM]*

xoxo~

Now Playing:
Kate Havnevik - Grace
Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On

I've been listening to "weird" music lately, haha. Well It's not weird in a bad way - but people my age probably wouldn't be listening to it. It's not quite "romantic" music, lol...but it's slow - calm music like Enya, Tony Bennett, John Legend, Corinne Bailey Rae, Coldplay, the Grey's Anatomy Soundtrack, the Final Fantasy Piano Album etc. You get the point...slow calm music - haha in my million mile an hour life.

DAMN - I try to take life slowly...lol REALLY I PROMISE i REALLY REALLY DO, but I'm just not a slow person.

You know, professional food tasters say to let food sit on your tongue for a while...and really REALLY sample the flavor. Many people enjoy great tasting food like that - lol but not me. I'll shovel it into my mouth. Not really...but relative to my lifestyle, I guess that would be the analogy. That's just how i enjoy my food and/or life; Fast...and ready for the next situation.

/shrug? Maybe it's naive or maybe it's just a characteristic of youth. I had to look at that sentence a few times to ponder the existence of redundancy, lol. It's not redundant - lol, you could be absolutely naive - or NOT naive ...just with the knowledge your age is capable of. I guess that could be considered overall naive in LIFE, but not in the situation. Ugh, this argument is a retarded waste of brainpower, lol.

ANYWAY - im gonna make Shoji some cookies, haha. I'm making peanut butter sandwich cookies with chocolate filling. Imagine oreo cookies - except peanut butter on the outsides, and a darker chocolate inner filling. :D I'd totally make them in a mace shape, lol for nostalgia - but that'd honestly just make me sad.

OKAY NOW WHY, you might ask, am I taking the time to make sandwich cookies for Shoji? LOL Because thoughtful people like him need to be rewarded for their good deeds! There aren't enough people like him in this world and I'm simply appreciating the thoughtfulness.

HE saved an BoE epic polearm for Miichiie when she hits 52...like a year ago as if he KNEW I was going to level her up. WHO DOES THAT? He could've effing SOLD that for $$. Don't freaking save it -_-.

Then, when he stopped playing... I WAS THE ABSOLUTE LAST PERSON - YES, LAST PERSON to find out. So obviously, you KNOW I was pretty hurt - lol that he wouldn't tell me. He still hasn't really told me that he's really NOT playing WoW anymore. He just says, "My account is expired for now to pay off a speeding ticket - but we'll see. :)" DAMN YOU? Just get it over with and say, "Sorry Michie, I don't want to play anymore - this game sucks the life out of me...and I wanna go out and do things while I still can." DAMN!

OF COURSE i want him to come back and play with me, lol! I played with him and his brother for like 3 years! We're pretty close! I had a 1900 score w/ him and Riki, lol. [I can't believe I thought that was "alright" back then. Comparatively to Jeffro and Walle's 2200 score - it was crap, lol? I didn't know it was pretty goddamn good. Ignorance is bliss.]

Anyway, i'd never tell him to come back. It's not in his best interest to - so I'm not going to guilt him into returning. I feel like my older brother went off to college like on the east coast somewhere - haha. Like, I'm happy for him - and excited to see what he's going to start doing with his life, but I do miss him. Aww :(.

Haha, Osaka worries about the fact that Gegs isn't there anymore. :P LOL He's like GOGO MICHIE lvl to 52 make him come back! Haha, I /nod...but when i do eventually get to 52, i'm telling Sho to do what his heart tells him to. Hmm, if he's not ready to come back - that he shouldn't. It's just a game anyway, right? :D We're still friends regardless of his paladin is active or not. :P

I can't believe I said that. -_-

"What's it like playing with Jeffro, Michie? He's like "the most eligible bachelor" on our server."
"Meh it's efficient, but it's efficient playing with any Paladin."
"It can't just be efficiency...he's in the top 2% bracket of our server. What could Gegsn possibly do that Jeffro can't?"
"/shrug"

I didn't answer Daf's question because i don't know daf well enough to I guess. Any of my close pansy friends could probably answer it for me though.

We dress up in silly clothes or do random stuff just for fun. OH yeah, AND he gives me this confidence that I can't really get from anywhere else...like a 'Don't run away - what's the worst that could happen...we die? I'm right here to rez you with your soulstone ready.' COULD I HONESTLY get a 1900 rating with ANY other team?

I ALWAYS topped bgs/dps/everything warlocks do when he was around. He was the type that gave 110% in everything and his aura kinda made me try that hard too. I felt like captain planet w/ him around - LOL haha. OH YEAH! RIKI and SHO were pretty much the only 2 people on the face of the earth that I HAD SUPER FUN DUELING against. LOL - I NEVER held back and RIKI would wtfpwn my face and i'd wtfpwn sho's and sho'd wtfpwn riki, haha :P it was pretty balanced. /sigh YEAH DUELS! MICHIE USED TO DUEL, hahahaha...XD I cheated though - using healthstones + my felhunter.

Actually - out of all the paladin specs, I think shockadin paladins are the hardest for me to fight. They can judge me, holy shock, HoJ, resist my fears, bubble, and w/ shadow resistance aura, that's just so unfair it's not even funny.

I fought against a BE shockadin fairly recently - lol and he had SOOOOO much shadow resist that i couldn't fucking fear him to save mine or anyone else's for that matters' lives. I think he had around 750+spell dmg...that's just nuts. NUTS???!

Iono...a paladin with really high spell damage would scare me I guess. Haha I wanna try that as Miichiie - lol, /sigh. Oh she'll have a spelldmg/crit set by golly - even if she has to wear a full cloth mage set, hahaha. I don't wanna play a paladin how it's supposed to be played. I wanna have 1k +HOLY spell dmg - just to say that my warlock + paladin are polar opposites and they both still hurt. /giggle

Hmmm i like playing a warrior >.> but I think i just like it because it's less of a challenge sometimes. Haha my job is to PRODUCE threat - lol. Shield Wall, Sunderx5, Devastate, Revenge - rinse, repeat. Gah i miss tanking /shrug? Maybe I'll tank kara this week /shrug? -_- I stopped tanking instances as Shingle for a few months now - I get scared when gegs isn't there to heal me haha.

OKAY im going to shinja pigonhae market, cya :P

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, September 29, 2007-)
+9:11 AM]*

xoxo~

Do some random guys really join guilds because of the guilds' abundance of "cute girls"?

That kinda makes me feel special, lol. XD

Well, when I left dino, they disbanded the next day. It wasn't all because of my leaving that they disbanded - it was just the last straw. Apparently, if they lost the "assertive cute girl raider" then the moral of the rest of the team kinda went down - according to Blackivy.

See at the time, I didn't really believe him - lol because there were other girls "raptors". I didn't think missing one was a big deal - at all. Especially one that DIDN'T want the attention - one that ONLY talked when I was either calling someone out for sucking and/or something needed to be said like a cc loss. For God's sake, I was a guy raider for the first half of my dinosaur experience. That's so not attractive and goes back to the, "OMFG are you GAY?" thing.

Then Seatoo said something that made me feel weird, lol. He said they tend to like the girls that don't need the attention - that are good at their class already and think the dps/tanking/healing should speak for itself. [OH YOU HAVE NO IDEA - I USED TO SCREENSHOT my DPS/tanking/healing, lol.]

"It's obvious that you're already going to be the center of attention. It's just how you handle it that shows off your attractiveness level. If you're just one of the guys...it's simply easier to get along with. So JR WINS, we have the hottest girls on the server."

O_O uhh...

Well, I guess I get it. :D It's a confidence booster for sure. I really appreciate comments like that over [oh wait i have screenshots brb]:

oh man...there are more, but i'm too lazy to look.

But i found a cute screenshot, lol during the process of looking:

I remember that day, haha. We were doing Ring of Blood for the #3259849342499213th time. I wanted to try to tank one - as Michie, lol. DUDE with Demon Armor and Devotion Aura + her Stam Gear and Soul Link w/ Blessing of Light, she could tank it. As soon as I started searing paining it to get aggro, Gegsn bubbled me - that whore. LOL :P SO SOSOSOSOSO mean. Then - righteous defended the 2ndary aggro target and started tanking. GUH!! Super stole my bossfight! :P It was SOOOO cocky - haha over-confident in a good way. Then again, I was being pretty effing cocky by trying to tank elites as a cloth wearer, lol IDIOT.

It's like that one time when Shingle was tanking Kara trash before Attumen the Huntsman, [or trying to tank it for that matter] and Frank was being a cocky prick [lol] and kept stealing aggro from Shingle, haha. LOL, i laughed so much. The effort and pain coming out of Osaka was priceless. He was literally doing everything he could - lol and you could HEAR it. /sigh

Other cute pictures:

I remember the 3 of them dying within the first part of that bossfight. Gegsn and I duoed the rest of that bossfight SLOWLY - ahaha...but we did it. That's what I miss! The OVER-CONFIDENCE, lol...the "I don't give a fuck if the odds are against me - I'm good at my class...and so is SHE. I have good mana regen - we can take down this boss." - mentality.

You can tell it was a pretty long fight - because my swstats dps shows my dps like twice as much as shunfu's. Shunfu usually was just a hair lower than my dps - so if he was half my dps...he died pretty early.

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This is probably my favorite picture in the whole 3 years of playing WoW.

Curse of Weakness/Soul-Link + Judgement of Wisdom + Mana Drain...hitting me for mana, while my i Drain almost equivalent mana from him while resisting lots of his dmg. We're SWAPPING MANA! >.< That's so FREAKING CUTE, haha.

Okay im gonna get off of /loh now...:P cya

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, September 28, 2007-)
+10:04 AM]*

xoxo~

Earlier this morning - I woke up with a million things on my mind...and now I honestly either CANT type about them, or it's not a big enough deal for me to type about them.

I always thought this was going to be hard. It was hard for quite a while...lol I even wanted to move. But you know, it's been pretty pleasant overall. I don't think I could've asked for anything else. I got to have my cake and eat it too. :)

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, September 27, 2007-)
+10:05 PM]*

xoxo~

/sigh it's so horrible...and i'm really really sorry but i think i <3 you. You're the black to my orange...the white to my black...the Benji Molina to my Matt Cain, lol.

GREY'S ANATOMY SEASON PREMIERE! >.<

I didn't see the ending to last season!!!! >.> SO when i watched today's episode - I thought to myself, WTF IS GOING ON?! WHERE THE FUCK DID BURKE GO? George is married to CALI? Why does Izzy all of a sudden LOVE GEORGE WTF? AND SINCE WHEN did Meredith have a surgeon SISTER!? WHY the HELL did McDreamy and Meridith BREAK UP AGAIN?! >.> WHY CAN"T THEY JUST BE TOGETHER!? GODDAMNIT.

It breaks my heart! LOL

I just want Derick and Meridith to be together lol.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, September 26, 2007-)
+8:17 PM]*

xoxo~

Rollercoaster, yeah ooooh, ooh ooh.

It's Bonds' last game tonight... :*[

I hate the effing Padres - DAMN IT.

Hmmm So i guess I'm blogging because the thought of flying makes me wanna lie down.

I'm so excited to go to socal. I MISS THEM [THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS] MUCH already. XD So why for the flying decision? Because I can't drive my car because I still didn't get the windshield fixed yet - and we could take Frank's car, but I'm not sure if the gas $$ + effort to drive down there is worth it.

So yeah thus - flying. Hahaha, Frank's going to see me pray the rosary.

You know what's really weird? I've flown quite a bit in my life...I used to go to Japan like every other summer, have family in LA that I flew down to see, as well as the midwest. I didn't even dislike flying all that much when I was younger - I think I even liked it because it was exciting and "new". It seems as though the older I get - lol the more I dislike it. It just gives me butterflies and makes me question science & technology. Yeah I KNOW the basics in how planes work - trust me, I've done the whole, "maybe if you learn how they work you won't be as scared" thing.

I dunno what's more scary - the fact that I have absolutely NO control over my wellbeing or the fact that I'm tens of thousands of feet above the earth in a gigantic metal boat. I REALLY REALLY dislike heights. I'll ride rides as long and have a good time riding them as long as they're fast and I'm not suspended in midair.

For some reason though - the larger the plane and the longer the flight, the more comfortable I usually get. Like, flying to Japan really isn't that bad compared to flying to Los Angeles in a goddamn portapotty sized fucking plane.

Yeah I'm a bit frightened.

/rolls eyes

LOL Which reminds me of this one trip to Washington D.C. I had w/ a bunch of other students, haha. My Dad was really good friends with Randy Tsuda (my friend's dad). They were old baseball buddies, AWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Anyway, so I grew up with their son Chad (sorta). Like, he'd come over quite often and we'd play video games or sports or something. ANYWAY, as we grew older...we grew older [hahaha].

Anyway everyone used to pick on us because they knew our parent's close relationship and they'd kinda pair us together cuz it was funny. DUDE Chad and I were NEVER like that - really. We'd look out for each other like neighborhood buddies do, lol. But he SERIOUSLY looked out for me - haha. I was the 1 girl in the shit ton of boys we used to hang out with when we were younger - lol, and I HAVE NO idea why - but up until his dad died [QQ...] he felt the responsibility to look after me if others weren't present. LoL

I don't think he ever liked me like that, haha. I guess now that I look at the situations... it wouldn't surprise me if he did at one point either though, /shrug.

WELL whatever, anyway...the ONLY reason why my parents let me go to D.C. for a 8th grade grad trip was because Mr. Tsuda & Mr. Namba (Alani's Dad) convinced my DAD to let me go. LOL Chad was such a douchewipe - he'd even say, "Yeah, you don't need to worry Mr. Hara, I'll make sure she's okay." GUHROSSEEEEEEE. You might've well talked baseball to him and fucking won his heart over.

Anyway, Chad was absolutely not just saying that to score any points. He literally was a good guy and he meant it, haha. Anyway we met up with this school from Boston...and THE WHOLE TIME THERE, I was flirting with this dude named Gen Iwashita. He was half white half japanese [lol] and we talked about video games. He had a cute bostonian accent and i'd make fun of it because it was so apparent when he'd speak japanese.

ANYWAYYYYy, lol so yeah he was A TICK on my nuts the WHOLE time there. And then he'd scold me for thinking Gen was cute at all. "What do you even see in him? Your Dad wouldn't like him." DUDE - i'm 14? I'm allowed to think people are cute, Jesus Christ. I remember vividly thinking to myself, "What the hell do you goddamn care?" and "Who are you to tell me who I should and shouldn't be interested in?"

LOL Even when buying shit...I bought a camera that was apparently WAYYYYY too expensive. "Why do you even need a camera? Can't you just buy a disposable one? It does the same job plus it won't piss of your Dad when you get home." What the hell do you care how much in trouble I get when I get home? Or how displeased my father's going to be? >.< What an oddball?

Yeah, yeah, I know. Why wasn't I ever in a relationship with him? He sounds like a great guy, right? Because Alani, my best friend at the time - was so in love with him It's not even funny. His nickname was "Eeyore" because people always mistook his serious look for being grumpy. She was SO in love with him that I honestly didn't wanna have anything to do with ruining her chances + happiness with him. /shrug?

It wasn't a big deal that I couldn't have him. I dunno I dealt with it and moved on, w/e. It was more of a big deal if I did anything to prevent Alani from having him. I know, I wasn't morally obliged to do anything - but I dunno...I cared about the both of them so much that - as long as he was happy with her, and she was happy too...that was worth the sacrifice. GOD i'm gonna barf, I'm sorry.

ANYWAY BACK TO AIRPLANES, hahahaLOL

Chad and I didn't really talk much - we were good friends but we kinda sporadically talked. We'd have conversations every once in a while - but they usually revolved around games, sports, or music.

Anyway on the flight, Alani was supposed to sit next to me but apparently "HIS DAD picked up the tickets and it's 'ASSIGNED' seating so 'JUST SIT THERE - the flight's not THAT long'...". He ended up gossiping w/ me about random stuff. He even talked to me about "guys", haha...and LOL CURTIS CHAN, hahaha this trumpet player in band that was apparently zomg into me [but i'd never know that]. I think I was so shocked that he was talking to me about random guys...that it distracted me from the fear of flying.

You could CLEARLY tell before takeoff that I was pretty nervous, haha but he linked arms with me and told me to take a nap, lol. So i linked arms while praying the rosary, put my head on his shoulder but couldn't take a nap - so then he proceeded to started talking. It was the weirdest nicest thing ever.

Yeah, he didn't like Koichi very much. Actually, now that I think about it - I don't think he really liked ANY guy I was REALLY good friends with and/or possibly interested in. Wow did it really take almost 10 years to figure this out, lol?

Well that was the end of my super convoluted story - sorry, haha. The thought of trying not to be afraid while flying just reminded me of that situation. :P /shrug I'll be brave! Just you see, haha.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Monday, September 24, 2007-)
+2:49 PM]*

xoxo~

According to Josh, I'm having fun being a housewife. Hah, lol he's probably right.

Survey time! From Eddy Hop! LoL

1. Are you smiling?
Not currently? I do smile quite a bit though. I smile so much that by the end of the day my face hurts sometimes.

2. Did you ever date the last person you kissed?
I guess? This is a pretty retarded question.

3. What is irritating you now?
Spam snail mail. I hate random fucking mail from people asking me to open up a home mortgage or something.

4. When did you last eat pizza?
Probably last week sometime?

5. Do you drink beer?
I socially drink beer - I don't find it all that much tasty though.

6. What do you want?
LoL, I think i pretty much have everything I need so far. Yeah I know, I didn't answer the question - but I can't, so i'll just leave it at that.

7. Are you tired?
Nope, unfortunately.

8. Last spoken words you heard?
Charis: mmm haha it's scary, but not in that way...you'll understand :)Zins
maybe you've seen it. i'm a pretty big team player kind of gamer so anytime you have a kickass group or partner, i think it's pretty damn awesome
Michie: HOLY CRAP that guy is nuts...yeah
Charis: lol yeah fucking rules though
Michie: gegsn and i leveled together for a few years so we learned each others playstyles
Charis: yeah i think that's hawt
Michie: so we could take on like 5 people and super wtf pwn people w/o resting we have screenshots lol
Charis: yeah that makes me horny
Michie: hahaha lol

9. Have you ever kissed anyone named Robert?
LOL, have I? I don't think we got that far, lol. I did go on a date with a Robert - he went to this accelerated math school thing w/ me. LOL HOW LAME?

10. Is your sister a slut?
No?

11. Pepsi or Coke?
Biased. :P Cola. I feel like i've answered this question so many times that I don't even fucking care to elaborate why.

12. Do you ever throw up?
When something makes me sick.

13. What is your favorite hobby?
Games?

14. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Sometimes? I'm not THAT much of a fan of piercings...and I only like tattoos that have sentimental value, lol.

15. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
Wow...ummm Mickey D's? I don't really know how to answer this one. They both are bad for you - but yummy when i'm in the mood for them.

16. Are you tall?
Not since the 4th grade, haha. :P I like my height though.

17. Is your computer a laptop?
Yis.

18. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Damon and my Rabbit.

19. How many myspace views do you have?
8.somethingk

20. Want to be a princess?
Oh the comments in my head, lol.

21. Do you believe dreams come true?
Not my dreams, lol they're fucking twisted and impossible.

22. Last song you heard?
Goodies - Ciara

23. Do you like Batman?
I actually like Robin more...haha :P There's something about noobness that's really attractive, I dunno why.

24. Who is in the room with you?
Gargie, haha.

25. What are you wearing on your feet?
Sheepskin Boots

26. What are your favorite pair of shoes?
Probably my adidas shells [superstarIIs] with my fat laces that match my outfits.

27. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
10 seconds ago to osaka, lol. :P I <3 my osakars.

28. What was the last thing you ate?
I just made some Chili-Mac.

29. What were you doing before this?
being a "housewife".

30. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
Crisis Core for PSP - does that count? ZACK is HOT, JESUS LORD.

31. What instant messaging service do you use?
meebo/trillian pro.

32. Who's house did you go to last?
Damon's parents' house.

33. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Jeans, haha.

34. What is the last movie you watched?
I don't even remember..OH! I just saw sorta - Juon2 (the grudge 2) the Japanese version.

36. Do you think this survey is lame?
/shrug i'm not really paying too much attention to it. The convo with Daf is lol pretty interesting.

37. Ever been to Quizilla.com?
yep

38. Where is your mom?
if it's not a friday or sunday - she's probably at work or home.

39. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Cogswell, lol. GROSS.

40. Coach Purse or Red Sox game tickets?
WHOA - WHOA WHOA...LOL this is seriously a hard question to answer. It would really depend on who and where the Red Sox were playing, hahaha.

41. Where was your default MySpace picture taken?
in my dining room - when i HAD hair. QQ

42. Who's in it?
Your mom.

43. Why did you pick your background?
It's discovering Uldum in the moonlight. You'd have to be a dork to think it's cute.

44. Are you happy with where you are?
I'm satisfied.

45. Is cheating ever okay?
Is killing someone ever okay? It's not always okay but it happens.

46. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
I always do, it's horrible.

47. Do you know some one named Bill?
I know a few people named Bill. LOL I used to do my trig/precalc hw in 10th grade with this guy named Bill, lol he was probably one of the cutest nerds - ever. Haha totally NOT my type - but cute nonetheless. OH NO - i mean CUTE like he TOTALLY looked like a bookworm NERD w/ the thick glasses, button up shirt, tetris on his graphing calculator, nasal-y voice.

49. Do you want someone you can't have?
Sometimes? Then I slap myself back into reality. /shrug he's cute, I can't help it.

50. Who makes you smile the most?
Wow...probably Osaka, Sho, & Frank. LoL Osaka makes me laugh the most - like uncontrollable laughter. Sho - he makes me smile in the conniving way. Almost as if I feel comfortable around him enough to let some of the devious side out. Frank makes me smile for no reason - IT'S ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE!

Okay i gg.

<3 carpe diem <3
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+9:35 AM]*

xoxo~

Goooooooooooooooood morning!

I got up early, haha.

Osaka said that after he graduates, he wouldn't mind finding a job up here and moving. XD If he moves up, Andy would probably move up also - and if Andy moves up, Justin could possibly move up [after graduation] also. /shrug

OF COURSE it makes me happy my friends could possibly be moving up. There are complications along the way - YEAH.../shrug but Osaka makes me feel like a girl and it's fun.

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Random screenshots that make me smile:

Almost there:

XD...yay <3 Only took a week.

/poke /poke <3 /giggle

One day...i'll have you. XD I can wait. <3

Aww they're kissing <3 lol :P

All that effort to get the mount - and i couldn't even bring michie to kara. LoL...they asked me to bring Azer. >.< haha, it's fine - lol, i don't mind playing a paladin - i'd just rather play Miichiie if i had to play a paladin :P. Yah i know, she'll get there eventually, /wink.

I think I'm going to change her professions to mining/blacksmithing. Miichiie really doesn't need to pick flowers. There are so many people that can.

It was cute though - I crit yith for 1979 :P

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On another note:

I was wsg-ing with Daf. LoL we bg really well together...so they convinced me to arena with them. LOL starting arena w/ a new team at a 1750 score after not arenaing regularly for a while was quite hard. :P Bah we lost like 6 games in a row - THEN, lol won 4 games in a row after that. Honestly - i know felhunters are annoying...but lol we only started winning after changing pets to my felguard. I can't protect my healers w/ a fucking felhunter. My felhunter spell locks - which is nice, but honestly - if we're fighting against another warlock, they just banish it and it's pretty fucking useless. I pretty much hate having it out when we're fighting rogues - but it's out there for the paranoia buff for daf. It does like no dps and no cc. I'd much rather intercept rogues/warriors, kick paladins, cleave clothies. Flaaroon's just more versatile - just because i'm specced for him.

Anyway - Mama, Daf, and I are 3v3ing every week now. LOL i'd much rather 5v5 though <3. I guess It's cool because i'm going to start collecting points soon. I'm already collecting bg points. /sigh

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On another sorta note...

Hmm Andy. /shrug Iono what's going on there.

XD
He's been acting different lately. Hmm like, he'll totally ignore me - and then ask a random question on gtalk or WoW. /shrug? -_- Then he gets all grumpy at me if i call Andy-Anday my "Dahng Shin". DahngShin is korean for 'darling' or 'honey' or something. Andy-Anday is ABSOLUTELY NOT my dahng shin lol haha...but i just say that because he gets so grossed out by it because apparently i'm "OLD". haha :P

Anyway - Andy got pretty angry at me and totally ignored me. Ninja signed off of vent and left the party - etc.

Weird.

It always confuses me. LOL, even now...i still, "WTF, ARE YOU GAY? WTF?", the inside Michie says.

I'M RABBIT. WTF.

LOL...and one last random ss.

ANDY you NUB!

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, September 22, 2007-)
+10:43 AM]*

xoxo~

And yessir, it's RAINING. <3

It's days like this where i feel so happy bundling up in a knit sweater & w/ a mug of hot cocoa or cider in front of my computer while i play WoW lol, or watch a movie.

[well currently it's a hot cup o joe & i'm blogging - but either way...it's a hot cup of something & something fairly bright in front of me.]

It's just perfect. I wish I lived in Seattle or Portland sometimes. I hear the rain is beautiful in Vancouver also. :P

/shrug?

I had this dream last night...The thoughts were so scattered this time - usually it's continuous...but this was pretty random.

There was an "Enchanted Castle" [it was really a haunted castle] that we went on a field trip to. It was kinda like science camp in the 5th grade...how it lasted only a week...and you were in the boonies.

OKAY i got TOTALLY SIDETRACKED. LOL i was looking for pictures to photoshop to show you what it looked like - and now i want to learn latin.

Well autumn+angels->lilith->incubus->the hail mary->Áve María, grátia pléna, Dóminus técum. Benedícta tu in muliéribus, et benedíctus frúctus véntris túi, Iésus.

I GET THE ACCENT NOW - I GET IT. LOL it's a long sound. Ah-ve, Mar-eeh-a, grah-tia pleh-na, doh-min-oos, teh-coom. benedih-cta too een moo-lieh-ri-boos, et benedih-ctoos, frooh-c-toos vehn-tris tooh-ee, ee-eh-soos.

OMIGARDS i get it. Is it gross that i know what it all means? /sigh it's so beautiful to me - i dunno. I wanna go to Italy oh so very badly lol, and go to mass there. You have NO idea. XD I'd drop everything if i had a chance to go. /sigh

Yeah, it'd be really cute to hear mass in Italian, that language is romantic in itself, HAHA no pun intended. Hmm but Latin - that's one step past romantic [once again no pun intended...lol] - it's history. /sigh...

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, September 21, 2007-)
+2:41 PM]*

xoxo~

I took a pregnancy test today - lol. Don't worry, I'm not pregnant.

I've been feeling sick every morning for the past week. Yeah thank God - it's just my ulcer acting up again, LOL? I don't ever think i've ever hoped so much that it was my ulcer. >.>

I guess it'd be cool to be a mom - SOMEDAY. I AM SO NOT READY as of right now. I'm too unconsciously selfish to take care of a needy child well. I still like romance and butterflies in your tummy and blushing, lol.

Sometimes I think it's the right next step in my life...iono. Maybe it's that biological clock ticking, /shrug.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Tuesday, September 18, 2007-)
+10:19 AM]*

xoxo~

Now Playing: I'm Like a Lawyer With All the Ways I'm Trying to Get you Off - Fall Out Boy

UH OHhh...just when you THINK Vancouver is out of the question - haha, I get another follow up EA phonecall from Vancouver.

David Chandler - that man is amazing. He's such a nice guy, lol. He followed up with me - for a good half an hour talking about the options and what's going on at Redwood Shores.

"Christine, you got stuck in the middle of their 'transition' period. They're moving around a lot of production staff at the moment. It's really unfortunate and I'm sorry. I didn't intend for them to overlook you, which is why I personally scheduled the appointment w/ Lisa."

HE didn't even have to say sorry, >.<. That was really nice of him. I personally think Lisa's the biggest flake of all time - and that It's not David Chandler's responsibility to fucking followup with me. She could honestly just say NO or YES. NO, she just has to be absolutely effing oblivious.

I'm not in that much of a rush. I had a good hour long conversation with Albert Chen last week and he's like - YOU HAVE to be PICKY. KNOW what you WANT. And honestly I thought I DID know what I wanted. Now - I'm really not sure.

I WANNA GO TO CHURCH - THATS what i WANT to do. I NEED TO FREAKING REPENT.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I HATE THIS. I HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE THIS.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Monday, September 17, 2007-)
+9:37 AM]*

xoxo~

New sigs!

muahahhaa

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, September 14, 2007-)
+10:11 AM]*

xoxo~

Holy crap?

Yeah I know - I need to stop pushing people away.

HOLY CRAP?! >.> JUSTIN -_-...

So I've been keeping busy working w/ Kevin on some SJSU stuff - as well as side Job searching. I'm SEARCHING, I SWEAR, lol. I'm just not stressing out about it too much because things will fall into place in time.

In my free time outside of that - I WoW or play Bioshock in the minuscule increments so i don't barf. :D

I'm actually having a good end o' summer. LOL maybe I'm finally getting a sorta break because of the whole non-summer-break thing? Haha. <3

***

So the WoW thing - Yeah I think I finally understand why Jing left. She said it's because she didn't feel useful. Hm, I always took it as - she doesn't feel like the center of attention or something. I dunno if that's wrong or not - but I think it's deeper than that now. The feeling like, well - if you can't play with people, what's the purpose of playing at all? Shoji once told me that if I didn't play anymore, then he wouldn't really have a reason to play. I didn't really believe him - raided and didn't play with him as much. Anyway, he stopped playing :( and It SOOO sucks that he's not Michie's paladin anymore. -_- /sigh.

Going on adventures was the whole FUN in WoW. :P

The thing is - paladins don't really know how to just "hang out". It's really funny - actually. Shoji was the exception, haha. I think he learned how to "hang out" from just being around me long enough.

Seriously! Paladins [irl] have to have REASONS to "hang out" or goals or something. LoL, it's funny. Like, "What are we working on today, Michie?" LOL - so i pretty much cater to that, like...I say, "come do dailies with me!".

So...when I say things like, "I'm not having fun playing Michie anymore." Justin gets a bit grumpy and says, "I've helped her so much...that's just mean." DUDE...ugh. My intentions get so misconstrued. -_- I'm an effing warlock, dude do you know how easy those dailies are? Other than that effing flying one, all the others take me 2 seconds. >.> I ask you to come "help" me because I want to hang out. It has absolutely NOTHING to do with needed actual "help". GUH - how do you not KNOW that already? GUH.

/sigh -_-

So anyway, I signed on for kara, then gave up my spot to David [aldamir]'s brother Nagakura. Then, proceeded to hearth back to Shatt to log. I was kinda grumpy considering WELL DAMNIT, I FINALLY actually WANT to go - and have to give up my spot to two people - one who absolutely doesn't need to be there and the other who's zomfg wtf undergeared for it. /sigh

Anyway, right when I was about to log...I randomly get a Jeffro /poke and he took me on an adventure, haha. I think it's what I needed - honestly. He's really nice. :D

Then, I had to make it over...this huge ravine? Jeffro had a noggenfogger. :P I did it without.

BAM!

lol<3

In unknown territory!

<333, haha I think we weren't supposed to see this stuff...:) Uldum!

Haha SERVER FIRST, bitches. Haha i discovered uldam! <3 lol. Jeffro didn't even make it over to "discover" it. :P

Pretty moonlight :D

After that...jeffro proceeded to take me to the top of IF XD

& the Secret Wetlands Farm:

I had fun <3

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, September 13, 2007-)
+12:07 PM]*

xoxo~

Now Playing: My Chemical Romance - You know what they do to guys like us in prison

I wanna make Yuki go away.
Why? Oh no don't do that!
Well he's like a big reason why you don't go on NZ anymore.
Nowayyyy
Yeah, you go on KJ because there's no one there to bug you.
O_O
SEE.
...

LOL i hadn't even really figured that one out yet. I'm having fun playing my little hordie. I wish she was gnome height though. It's so awkward, lol.

LOL, "OMG FRANK KILL IT." I could spam holyfire/mindblast/smite, but it takes so much mana that i'd rather conserve just incase some stupid alliance starts ganking us.

From ONE extreme to the next. It's weird seeing him dps - i mean, weird in a good way, I guess? It's weird NOT dpsing - lol? Before I knew he was making a mage, I made one in likeness [well sorta] of luzzil - her name is Lucille. LoL<3 I was gonna level her non-frost also...just because i'm stubborn and leveled michie as destruction - and despite everyone's warnings...conflag in your 50s is stupidly fun. Meh, but since he chose a Mage, i left her alone. We have a bunch of mages already. Haha, I started Lapoope & Eribus. Lapoope's a paladin & Eribus is a warlock. I can't play Lapoope seriously, because I feel like I'm being a traitor to Miichiie. I really like her, lol. Sometimes, I wish she was my main on KJ. :) She's way fun to play...and savagery on her bonebiter is just fucking stupid dps.

I guess I'm taking a sorta break from dpsing because...HOLY crap - even my paladin dpses. It's so boring! Playing Michie demonology was kinda fun :D because I was the aggro manager for a while...and had ultimate saving cc w/ intercept. <3 It just got boring that my potential for dps wasn't uber high because of the spec/gear. I'd always be a support lock for raids - saving peoples' asses...without having the ability to heal them. I might've well rolled paladin and righteous defended - at least i'd be able to freaking tank the trash, bubble - and NOT die.

THEN i thought - hey what about managing my own aggro. Bloodywave & Mazar NEVER get over like 70% threat. They're pretty consistently at 65% threat but at the top of the dps chain. HOW???? So yeah - i worked on that for quite a while...and it's a bit harder considering I'm NOT affliction and things aren't as "automatic" for me. I literally have to spam shadowbolts + soulshatter + [MY PET CANT DIE AND MUST CLEAVE UP A STORM + MIGHT + KINGS + WISDOM + FORT] everychance to even compare to the dps affliction locks produce w/o the threat of the shadowbolts. It's gross. :(

I like challenges, /shrug.

We took on higher level people last night - lol and it made me /giggle. It makes me happy to take on challenges. :D I hate doing shit EVERYONE else can do - because we're special...<3 and we CAN do harder things. Why not try something new - something exciting.

I really like my troll - she's unique. <3 :D

My gnome used to be unique - NO ONE wanted to be a gnome warlock. They were SO WEAK - nerfed up the ass, and no one wanted to play GNOME because they were targeted by every hordie in the world.

Now look - the whole WoW is composed of some gnome warlock in their guild. It's sad. :( Makes me want to roll a druid. I'm not a fan of mages really either. If i ever rolled mage - it'd have to be fire/arcane. I am NOT a frost mage, lol hahaha. It'd have magic missiles - and everytime i'd cast it, i'd have a macro that'd /yell, "WATCHOUT! MAGIC MISSILES!!"

On another random note, GO FUCK YOURSELVES im NOT SPECCING SHADOW - I ALREADY have ONE shadow character. I DON'T EFFING WANT TWO! OH i can't WAIT until Andy gets Sanc aura <3 lolol :P Miichiie + Genis [osaka's priest] play together...he's holy specced. It's SO CUTE, haha. He dpses harder than your mom going through menopause.

Okay i'm going on WoW before Kevin comes - lol he's gonna be mad at me.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, September 12, 2007-)
+6:26 PM]*

xoxo~

Hmm - i have absolutely NO idea what it means to just relax. lol...and it's fine.

---------------WHO WAS THE LAST--------------
Slept in your bed: Me, i just woke up from a nap 2 seconds ago.
Saw you cry: Josh, lol. Well technically he just "heard" it. I had a BAD weekend...lol. I don't cry in public.
Made you cry: 2 people. 1 didn't even know it and/or didn't have the intention of doing so.
You shared a drink with: Hmm...i usually don't share drinks.
You went to the movies: I don't even remember the last time I went to the movies. OH - Rush Hour 2.
You went to the mall with: Kevin <3. We went shopping @ banana.
Yelled at you: Yuki. I stopped raiding...and joined JR, lol. "Smelly Rogers?!? It's okay Michie, I still love you."

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
Liked someone who hadn't like you: Of course. :) I'm not sure how much this counts though? Wesley Crusher & Anakin Skywalker aren't quite real.
Said "I Love You" and meant it: I wouldn't say it unless i meant it. HOOOLY...I JUST got butterflies for NO reason at all. >.< lol.
Gotten in a fight with your pet: With my PET? Probably not?
Been to California: No, never - please educate me.
Been to Hawaii: Yup :) I had family there.
Been to Mexico: Nope, and honestly have no intention of visiting - unless we're trekking to a mayan/aztecan temple, etc.
Been to China: Nope, but i'd like to visit the great wall sometime in life.
Been to Canada: NO QQ! :( I wanna visit Vancouver. Daf, Conin, Fin & Waffle, etc etc Shookers + more are up there!
Danced naked: Probably?
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: lol a few times, actually.
Do you have a crush on someone: Do you have a crush on someone?
What book are you reading now: Harry Potter, ugh.
Worst feeling in the world: Haha, I'll spare you.
Future son's name: I used to really know this answer - and now I'm honestly not so sure. I'm kinda liking Jack right now. It's simple and to the point.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: My bunny rabbit...yup. Osaka calls me Susie Derkins, lol.
What's under your bed: Cloud Strife [from FF7]'s Buster Sword - i kid you not. It's full sized too.
Favorite sport to watch: WUT R SPORTZ?
Siblings: I'm an only child, but i have 2 cousins that i grew up with - so I guess sorta 2.
Location: San Jose
College plans: I'm done - sorta, lol.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Hah, if it was only that simple.

------------------------EXTRA STUFF----------------------
Do you drink: Occasionally, but I had a funky 21st year.
What are you most scared of: Falling. I'll let you figure that one out.
Where do you want to get married: Haha I can't really answer this one since I've already passed this checkpoint in life. Honestly, if I could do it all over again...I'd love to get married In a small old catholic chapel in tuscany w/ just the immediate family.
Who do you really hate: Hm I don't hate people - I hate situations.
Been in Love: Yeah, it sucks.
Do you drive: Who doesn't at this age? *cough* TIM *cough* lol.
Do you have a job: NO? And is it wrong that i'm dreading going back to work? >.> GUH I like having a vacation lol <3
Do you like being around people: Not really. Well, it's complicated. I like being around certain people. I like being around silly people...and spontaneous people. I like adventurous people and almost impulsive make decisions on a whim kinda people. I get bored by people who need to plan everything a mile in advance. It's one thing to analyze a situation [even overanalyze] and another thing to need to lose spontaneity.

----------------------------STUFF---------------------
Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yeah, guys are absolute insensitive assholes sometimes. It's one thing to be brutally honest - and another to be degrading. My ex was pretty good at that.
Do you have a "type" of person you always go for: Apparently, human male paladin. I'm really not sure about the spec - lol. I'd say Holy, haha...but that's just because I'm biased. I'm partial to Prot/Ret paladins. There's just something about avenger's shield that's so cute, haha.
Are you lonely right now: NO. I'm having an hour of Michie TIME.
Song thats sticks in your head a lot: Cruisin' - Smokey Robinson
Do you want to get married: Haha, not really - I could honestly be single forever and be okay with it. I think that's one of the reasons why I tied the knot. LoL, I thought you know, I'd never really be ready to get married - even at 40 so what the hell.
Do you want kids: Eventually? I guess. I'd rather stay young while I can? :D

----------------FAVORITE---------------------
Room in house: The game room?
Music: I'm too open minded in this category. I like anything good - even "catchy" music. Even if some of the music sounds "unintelligent", it's not multi-platinum for it's content and/or jargon. It sells because it's fun and/or causes the world to remember its' lyrics.
Band(s): Pumpkins, Foo Fighters, Panic!, Fall Out Boy, Yellowcard, Beck, Green Day, Radiohead, Muse, Aqualung, Queen, Augustana, Pink Floyd, Eagles, Dashboard & Switchfoot [YEAH shut up, i'm a girl], Linkin Park, No Doubt, Journey, Jimmy Eat World, Weezer, Jake Coco, Finger Eleven, David Choi [just because he sings old songs...<3] GOD there's a million more.
Color: See, there's a difference between the color i'd actually buy on stuff, and color i just like. I can't tell you what color I actually like...but the colors i buy are Black, White, and the myriad of combinations associated.
Perfume or cologne?: GOODUNS, haha. Nah i'm really into burberry touch [for women] and i'm not really THAT into guy cologne in general. LOL? OH! Don't get me wrong, i like guys that smell good - but honestly deep down, I <3 clean laundry scent + head and shoulders [the original scent] + guy deoderant smell. /shrug LOL I told Jason that once and he laughed at me, called me a weirdo, and despite the ridicule... changed his habits for a while. Guys are dorks.
Month: May & December. I quite fancy the winter months.
Stone: LoL, i think i'm biased. I like emeralds & pink diamonds.

--------------IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU---------------
Cried: Yes, unfortunately.
Bought something: Other than the regular everyday food purchases...nope.
Gotten sick: Sorta, LOL HAHAHAHA GROSS. Okay shut up.
Sang: I always sing :P just not in public. Haha Fufee hears it all the time in gchat<3.
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Hah, nope - because that would induce consequences.
Met someone new: Yes :D quite a few people, actually. LoL I'm THAT person that strikes up conversations with random blokes waiting in line @ the post office or grocery store. When do I NOT meet someone new?
Missed someone: Yeah :) he's so close, yet so far away.
Hugged someone: In game? All the time.
Kissed someone: I guess?

----------- I N F O R M A T I O N ------------
Name: Michie
Status: lvl 70 warlock 3/41/17, lvl 46 paladin 3/0/34, lvl 23 priest 0/11/3
Sex: Female
Birthday: May
Sign: Taurus
Hair color: CHOCOLA-TAY
Eye color: CHOCOLA-TAY
Height: 5'1

----------- F A S H I O N | S T U F F --------------
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: AE, Alloy.com, & Banana Republic.
What is your most comfortable outfit? Jeans & a Hoodie
What do you usually wear?: /shrug?

-------------- S P E C I F I C S -------------------
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Aussi <3
What are you listening to right now: Gnarls Barkley - Crazy
Who is the last person that called you? Justin
How many buddies are online right now?: I dunno, i don't really wanna check.

------------- F A V O R I T E S -----------------
Foods: Hmm...depends on what i'm hungry for that day?
girls name: ...
Boys names: ...
Subjects in school: I'm not sure if I had a favorite. >.> I liked everything pretty equally.
Animals: I'm a feline fan.

---------------- H A V E | Y O U | E V E R -------------
Given anyone a bath? Every weekend is gargie's bath time.
Smoked?: Yes. It's a bad habit i have when i'm either overwhelmed or pissed the fuck off.
Bungee jumped?: Nope don't even plan on it - EVER.
Made yourself throw up?: Sort of? Well NO - it comes with being lactose intolerant sometimes. Like, I'll eat food i'm allergic to - because i <3 it...but it'll make me barf.
Ever been in love?: God didn't i fucking answer this question already?
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: I have a paladin father that has a really good definition of what's RIGHT and WRONG. If i did something wrong - NOTHING I could do would get me out of trouble.
Cried when someone died? Yeah. I take it kinda hard when family/family friends have passed on.
Fallen for your best friend?: A few times.
Done something you regret?: Yup, I officially have 1 thing I regret.

------------- fave ---------------------
Smell: clean laundry scent.
Desktop picture: currently - it's a human male paladin in t1 gear. awww, nostalgia at its' best, shut up.
DVD in player: Heroes season 1

--------------- A R E | Y O U ---------------------
Understanding: more than you'll ever know.
Open-minded: unfortunately
Arrogant: sometimes :)
Insecure: when it comes to my fucking azfro? YES. Everything else, i'm pretty stable on.
Random: Yes
Hungry: Not really - i eat like a bird.
Smart: /shrug? Who's Q?
Organized: With work+school - not w/ clothes + household crap.
Healthy: As healthy as an average 23 year old can be?
Shy: Only with him, yeah it's weird?
Difficult: Only to people who don't like challenges, haha.
Bored easily: Actually I get bored with life overall - but not easily. I'd say it's the opposite - that i'm easily amused.
Angry: Hm...i can be frustrated.
Sad: Rarely.
Happy: Hm...i can be satisfied.
Hyper: somteimes?
Trusting: Hah, if i ever let people get that close to me? :D

--------- W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A --------
Kill?: Nuke Island, haha not really.
Slap?: Lots of ignorant people.
Kiss?: ...uh
Have sex with?: Yikes,
Have children with?: ASKING TMI.
Spoil?: FOOD SPOILS.

------------------ R A N D O M ---------------------
In the morning I: get up for a cup o' joe.
All you need is: love, compassion, mutual respect, trust, loyalty, confidence = lol...a paladin
Love is: a teasing bitch and/or God w/ a great sense of humor.
I dream about: WoW & random Sci Fi shit.
Playing with: a holy spec priest is fun. i can dps harder than your MOM & KEEP you alive, biaaaaaatch.
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: Their eyes. /gush >.< lol

--------- W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ---------------
Coke or Pepsi: J'aime coke.
Flowers or candy: depends what the occasion is...just do the smart thing and get both - that way there isn't a margin of error.
Tall or short: taller than me. :)

--------------- W H O ---------------
Makes you laugh the most: Tim, lol. "EVERYTIME i have to FUCKING edit some NOOB shit i feel like i have a FUCKING CROSS on my back, UGHHHHHHHH!" Hands down, he CANNOT be serious to save his life. :) Osaka & Fufee make me laugh quite a bit too...just for their random stuffs...<3 Lotsa people make me laugh :P
Makes you smile: I smile all the time...even about nothing.

-------------- D O | Y O U | E V E R -----------------
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Hah, NO. If held my breath, i'd be a carcass by the next morning.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes, i think it'd make it easier? I think i'm pretty good at being a girl though now :P.
Wish you were younger: I wish i was 14 all over again. I love not having responsibilities.
Cried because someone said something to you?: Not usually, but there are the select times where people have been absolutely unknowingly hurtful.

----------------- N U M B E R --------------
Of times I have had my heart broken: twice. the 2nd one is an ongoing process, lol.
Of CD's I own: i don't even konw...a lot.
Of scars: 2, hah. :P

okay im finally done, thank god.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Sunday, September 09, 2007-)
+11:12 AM]*

xoxo~

Ahahaha! <3

That's so cute. :)

NG!! OMG

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

OMG <3 /sigh

OKAY - so in the first episode, how his friend talks about "girls are attracted to the jerks...and feel the need to chase after them yada yada"

It only LOOKS that way that's not the whole truth.

Girls have fun flirting with guys like that because it's just a step in "newage courting". It's challenging and segways for more interaction [in general]...and when you like someone enough, just being around them is great. We're not attracted to "bad boys" or "jerks/assholes"...we're flattered by the attention and the "game" [NOT the players game] that girls and guys play together: better known as...the courting. That's just how it's done nowadays.

It's different when you're looking for a relationship. When we're looking for a relationship, it's the nice guy that wins hands down. It's just kinda nice if you can find a guy that can sorta put up that facade of the fun flirty jerky guy on the outside during the courting phase, but deep down - be the nice guy that every girl needs.

Chivalry is so absolutely NOT dead. Girls still love gentlemanly behavior...it's just a turn off if it's at the beginning of the courtship.

[LOL the ONLY reason why I get this as well as i do right now - is because I have an overwhelming amount of estrogen+progesterone, and my emotional+rational thinking make love and figure weird stuff out.]

So basically - girls like boys & vice versa. When boys talk to girls...girls talk back to them. They both like interaction.

The whole reason WHY the "jerk/asshole" THING is how we COURT nowadays, is because society has made it "ALRIGHT" for guys to not be assertive and take initiative. Many guys are NOT askers. Basically, society has pansified [yes, pansified] guys. IT has NOTHING to do with what ethnic background [to normal girls at least] the guy is - versus if they're willing to put themselves OUT there for the girl; if the girl is WORTH it to them.

NOW with that said, guys have figured out a NEW way of approaching girls - where it doesn't necessarily put them on the line, yet provides the same results: girl/guy interaction. It's the whole asshole/jerk thing that PEOPLE see from the outsiders perspective. "You're annoying...no you're annoying...well i'm only annoying cause im hungry...well then hurry your ass up and come get me." yada yada.

That sounds like a whole jerk/assholy/bitch conversation - but deep down, the guy just got the girl to get [place mealtime here] with him, without putting himself on the line by saying, "Hey [place name here], would you like to get [place food here] with me?" OH WE KNOW...OH WE KNOWWwww. Then the closer you get to the girl, the easier it is to actually ask her to get food - because somehow you feel that you can trust her to keep you safe when you're putting yourself on the line.

YEAH. Thus, girls end up looking for guys that'll play this "courting game" with them. It's NOT our faults that we go for jerks sometimes - some guys are assholes deep down inside. We're not specifically looking for those...there's just a fine line between the "courting game" and real assholes that sometimes makes it hard for a girl to discern.

I just explained the whole process to Damon and he didn't understand, lol...so i had to put it in WoW terminology.

"Damon, imagine if you had a shit ton of gold...and basically everything you wanted in the game already - epic weapons, epic gear, an epic mount, and even a girl that you liked that played with you. She doesn't want the guy that buys her an epic mount...or FIVE for that matter.

She wants the guy that secretly ninjas onto her account a lot, does the netherdrake quests for her [without her knowing], and have her log in one day - in midair on THE green netherdrake that YOU know she secretly adores. That's love.

The abovementioned statement would probably never happen - because of the whole pansified guy thing that I explained earlier. But the few guys like this that do exist, you know are taken. >.< That's where the phrase 'All the good guys are taken.' comes from.

The realistic situation would be that the guy who's really interested in the girl [well, if he knew she wanted the dragon] would make her do the quests with him - with an excuse. For me, since i'm dps - it would probably be like, "You kill them faster...and you want the rep too, so we should do those quests." In essence, making the girl work for the epic mount - but with you, so you kill two birds with one stone: hanging out time with the girl AND seeing her happy that she has the mount in the end."

It's true. These are the guys we honestly fall for. :)

Okay i'm getting sappy and weird...and teary - lol...so i'm gonna go. <3 Maybe i'll work on the netherdrake quests? Haha. <3

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, September 08, 2007-)
+10:23 PM]*

xoxo~

I can't turn off the pms >.>...it makes me girly and emotional, lol. Well not that emotional...but i'm physically tired and having a hard time separating rational/emotional processing. >.>

Just beware...haha <3 I'm just being a girl.

***

I'M MEAN? HOW AM I MEAN? O_O that's so retarded it's not even funny.

-_- If anything, I SHOULD be. You're not the easiest person to be friends with.

Yeah - i know, i'm not the easiest person to be friends with either. Yada yada...but you're the one who doesn't answer, etc. It's frustrating.

I dunno where the whole needing to "withhold information" bs comes from. Like you don't care about me enough to tell me anything...but you care enough to get grumpy at me for random retarded reasons...or you'll tell me that you care. I can't tell if you're lying or if you're just being a woman and withholding info. >.>

Have i told you - i DONT like hanging out with women? Most of them annoy the shit out of me.

>.>

Yeah - it's hard cause i won't look deeper into any of it...i just like...start looking, then stop myself because i'm not supposed to be? UGH. Why can't you just freaking tell me -_- i don't get it.

Don't even give me the "you're married" bs. What's honestly so bad that you can't tell me because of that? -_- GOD you're not a bad guy...so what the hell -_- you're not doing anything wrong by stating your opinion sometimes.

What the hell are you withholding? >.< AND WHY? I don't even know if i want to know WHAT it is over WHY...>.<

WHY? OMG...And the whole..."that's just how I am" crap doesn't fly. That's not a reason - that's a cheap escape. That's just mean. :(

Okay im done venting. I really wanna go to bed. Curl up and sleep. I need my own bed. I hate sharing one...it makes me feel like i can't ever effing fall asleep.

<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, September 05, 2007-)
+4:58 PM]*

xoxo~

I enabled sli thinking - oh duh, maybe that might help. WRONG! It does help the framerate - as in...it gives me a wider range. NOW it goes from less than 1fps to greater than 100fps. It's wonderful.

I don't get it.

So here's my trip from Shat to Tanaris.

Aldor Rise

Portaling

Wetlands Boat

Wetlands Boat 10 seconds later

Theramore Isles

Getting into Tanaris

Getting into Tanaris like 5 seconds later...

Yeah it's nuts.

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On another stupid note, i wanna get my hair fixed. LoL yah my hair got straight permed a while ago - to "undo" my stupid natural curls...but what's annoying is that my straight permed hair is still wavy - but not like...equally wavy throughout my head - so i have to straight iron the rest of it to match. It's actually a lot more effort than i expected.

STUPID WAVY HAIR.

THIS IS WHAT IT DOES

I wish that was clearer. It's wavy in places, curly in places, and super straight in other places. GODDAMNIT just freaking choose one! >.<

GWARRRRRRRRR im not used to having straight hair - so it's a pain.

Okay - im done ranting.

<3 carpe diem <3
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