The warriors rocked it tonight, btw. :) Man, if Allen Iverson was a computer nerd, I'd be all *_*, you have no idea. I know, he's not part of my team - but every ball he gets is a brick. Nuts!? Yeah, he's pretty awesome.
**
I'm so feeling like shit today. I know - I need to learn how to fucking take care of myself better. Working long hours and stressing out a lot doesn't work out too well w/ my immune system.
I'll get better...lol. I have this same problem when I play my paladin, lol. I forget to save myself sometimes.
**
So the summary of my Holiday Vacation - nice...and short. -_-
Well it wasn't so bad. :) I got to spend time with my kuyas and random friends.It was fun.
BTW - I'm going to Italy. I don't know when...or where to <3. LOL I just know that it's going to happen one day. :) Until then - i'll wait patiently. <3
Andy woke me up at 1am yesterday and I couldn't go back to sleep because I kept thinking about Italy, lol.
So speaking of romantic scenarios, lol...we saw this Viagra commercial last night during the patriots game where this dude filled a pool w/ floating tealights to "set the mood".
Okay - that absolutely wasn't romantic to me by any means. LOL IT made me literally stop to think about people accidentally getting burned and all the melted wax in the pool you're gonna have to clean up later.
What's romantic is taking a walk/an adventure around a tuscan villa in spring showers. When it's warm outside...and just humid enough to see the glow off your skin and the dew on the surrounding grapeleaves. When my hair's wavy because of the humidity and your eyes twinkle because you're w/ someone you care about. THATS romantic.
Romantic is sitting on the beach doing absolutely nothing watching the sunset and listening to the crashing waves.
Romance is quiet and loving. It's innocent and careful. It's elaborate with minor description. It's complicated and orderly...iono.
Trust me - i might look like a prickly cactus, but you have NO idea. Why else would i ever have gotten w/ such a jackass exboyfriend? LoL, it's because he was absoutely romantic x1,000,000. There's something about romanticism that's so old fashioned and wonderful. Just because someone's romantic doesn't mean that they're clingy and overly touchy feely. I hate getting overly huggled - but at the appropriate times - it's wonderful.
LoL, one day I'll have my romantic tuscan getaway. Haha, lol. It might not happen in this lifetime, but by golly - I'll see it eventually.
Blame Alani for showing me Under the Tuscan Sun...lol. It paralyzes me! I get all starry eyed and lovedrunk. It's absolutely horrible.
K well im gonna go stop feeling like a damn girl, muahaha. Adios!<3
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, December 29, 2007-) +3:23 PM]*
xoxo~
HOLY HELL... >.>
I give up with this bullshit driver issue - for now at least.
**
So - I WAS leveling, then It annoyed me that I didn't have SOUND on this EFFING computer and everytime i wanted to listen to ANYTHING - I had to listen to it on my little mac laptop. SOOO I researched more and tried to fix the drivers. ANYWAY, yeah to make a long story short - vista64 doesn't like my hardware.
ANYWAY - i wanted to listen to music while playing WoW, like ALWAYS -_- GOD i've been so fucking deprived for the past few weeks. I went on youtube on my mactop and started listening to Covers of Utada Hikaru songs...and started hurting horribly because MY GOOD GRACIOUS GOD, are some people absolutely tone deaf.
WHY on GODS GREEN EARTH would you post that shit? o_O AND THEN...WONDER why people gave you bad ratings?? o_O It's HORRIBLE! LoL
So anyway, I started playing one - and Damon yells from the other room, "WTF did a CAT JUST DIE?" lol...and starts hysterically laughing. It's mean - yeah I know...we're laughing at someone's expense - but they were retarded enough to put that shit up online.
Anyway, I asked Damon if I EVER EVER EVER sounded that hideous. The thing is - what's nice about Damon is that he'd tell me the honest truth, even if it was painful...so i really appreciate his responses. Yeah he started laughing and said I couldn't sound horrible even if I tried, which was reassuring, I GUESS.
I don't sing. Don't ask me to, because I wont...unless I'm alone, in the car, orrr working on something w/ the music on. I used to sing in public, lol >.> quite a bit actually...but my senior year of high school ended that.
My best friend in HS and I got in this huge fight - and I was going to sing some filipino song for a rally that year. He said, "Yeah just don't forget about all the people you fucking left behind when you get all successful in WHATEVER you do." and we stopped being friends. Anyway, without his support [yeah don't ask] I didn't end up singing at that rally - nor did I ever sing in public ever again.
I'm just saving my vocal chords for my babies lullaby songs [whenever i have kids], haha. LOL! Speaking of lullabies, i used to sing the Wallflowers songs to my cat when I first got him...lol he'd meow at night and never fall asleep...so i'd sing the wallflowers - the only difference [?] and he'd start purring and fall asleep. LOL :P It was the only way to get him to go to sleep.
It's funny - because my exbest-friend and I totally made up, and we still talk occasionally. I still won't really sing in front of him anymore though - it's nuts. I don't really sing in front of anyone anymore. Damon gets to hear it because he's not musically inclined and on my off days - he's not going to dislike me any less. Basically, I don't really care if he hears it because he honestly doesn't even notice - he's usually in his own little world anyway.
MEH. YOU ALL don't need to know anyway. :D I don't care to share it and you all don't need to know...nor have any idea what you're missing good/bad...so it all works out in the end. <3 For all you know, I could be absolutely tone deaf and sound like a dying cat. Lets just keep that thought fresh in your brains so I can continue shadowmelding like a good cat. /meowww
OH! So what ended up happening w/ the whole watching these horribly tone deaf people on youtube...was, I'd end up singing along to TRY to fix it. LOL Like, as if they could hear me and I was helping them get the correct pitch or something. Damon said, "Stop trying to school them and just post your own". LOL, shut up.
I have a sore throat, lol but regardless of having a sore throat or not - being able to sing halfway decently requires good hearing...not just a good sounding voice. You could have the sexiest voice ever, but if you're absolutely tone deaf - lol...it's not going to save you.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, December 28, 2007-) +10:14 PM]*
xoxo~
No, in their time of need, they take Biedrins out. THANK YOU, NOW YOU CAN KISS ALL YOUR FUCKING OFFENSIVE REBOUNDS - THE LITTLE YOU HAD, OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW.
OH god - and Squirrels my dear, WTF was with your rushing game today? -_- Are you REALLY gonna let Iverson & fucking Carmelo Anthony out-speed you like that? Jesus LORD.
OH, Squirrels = Monta Ellis. I nickname them all...some animal names, don't ask. Azubuike's my little horsey. Mbenga's "RONGTONG" and Pietrus is "Gor-IL-A. Jackson's just Jax....hmm...who else, Barnes aka "Mr. Swagger", don't ask. Last nickname but not least, Mr. Baron Davis aka "Butterfly in the Sky" or "Kunta" if i'm fucking pissed.
**
So, I WAS just gonna watch the game at home - but as soon as I turned it on and reacted to the first missed offensive rebound [I said, "DON'T START MISSING THOSE REBOUNDS! UGHHHHHHHH!"], Damon said, "Yelling at the TV isn't going to make a difference."
DUDE... -_- FAIL.
We're TRYING to stay married - but when you say unsupportive and absolutely WOMANLY shit like that, you make it easy for me to get the fuck OVER it. -_-
When I'm watching a fucking game, you either WATCH the game too - and do your best to fucking enjoy that shit, OR GTFO!. I don't give a HOT DAMN if you don't like my team - GO AHEAD and HATE all you want...as LONG as you have another team that you're supporting I could give a fuck less.
There isn't much that I ask for from a guy, REALLY.
"Yelling at the TV isn't going to make a difference."
...UGH.
Yeah the next time you have a karate tournament, I'll throw the, "You know honey, you really shouldn't do that - I mean...violence doesn't solve anything."
DAMN. I'm fucking supportive of ALL that shit.
You know what's absolutely lame? I quit almost ALL my extra curriculars when I met Damon: sports, music, clubs. YES, I GAVE IT UP - for HIM. I'm not blaming him - I'm just stating a fact...and NOW...looking back at life from an older person's perspective - I actually REGRET giving everything up and NOT dating someone who shared more things in common with me.
It's FUCKING annoying as balls. I DONT want to fucking watch DRAGONBALL...i wanna fucking watch BASEBALL or FUCKING FOOTBALL or fucking BASKETBALL. You're getting your GODDAMN BALLS confused! FUCKING SHIT. WHEN IS IT EVER THAT GODDAMN HARD to find a FUCKING GUY that wants to WATCH that SHIT with you, JESUS FREAKING CHRIST. -_- I hate this bullshit.
GOD.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, December 27, 2007-) +10:50 AM]*
xoxo~
Now Playing: Feel Good, Inc. - Gorillaz
"Is the glass half full or half empty? It's based on your perspective, quite simply. We're the same but were not, know what Im saying, listen. I'm not better than you, I just think different."
That was a direct quote from Chris.
...I know, I'm not gonna bash him - that's mean.
I prayed to be a more patient and better person, lol. God's not gonna fix me on his own.
**
Last night was the epitome of WHY i need to be more patient - other than the whole almost running people over thing.
I almost broke my TV and ALMOST spent $200 on a random CHANNEL. YES, A STUPID sports channel.
The warriors ...one sec I just got a phonecall.
LOL Frank just called me asking if i knew a chiropractor. o_O THAT's like the WEIRDEST question ever on a thursday morning. LoL?
Okay - back to the warriors...
SO the nba.com had posted that the GS games were gonna be on FSN, this week. I got all excited and bookmarked them. ANYWAY - MOTHER EFFING FSN HAD TO EFFING PLAY HOCKEY INSTEAD OF EFFING BASKETBALL. WHO THE FUCK CARES!?!!! x_X!!!!!!?!?! So they MOVED the GS games to FSN+, which is FINE, but I didn't have FSN+ under my upgraded digital cable. So anyway, I looked online to "Order" that channel, 460 or something - and HOLY HELL to have it installed was like $168. WHAT THE FIZZUCK.
So anyway - I'm pissed the fuck off and my FUCKING remote wouldn't let me go back to the regular channels. Like, I was stuck looking at the "One moment please - You are unauthorized to view this channel." Page. So I chucked my remote at the sofa and it made my TV do this wonderful colorful thing. I soonafter apologized to my TV and gave it a hug.
Kuya Rangell then found out that FSN+ had a digital cable line also @ channel 410. It shares it w/ the "jewelry network", wtf. So basically, the games wouldn't be listed as Golden State vs. Whatever, it'd just say "FSN+/Jewelry". LAME!
I didn't buy the extra channel - but MAN, WAS I THIS CLOSE or what.
I'm just SUPER goddamn impatient and it's BAD. -_-
If things don't work out well I'm SOOOOO quick to just drop that shit and kick it in the face a few times.
When it's work related, I'm definitely more patient...because I have to be. I just wish I could be like that more - ALL the time. **
k<3 i guess im picking frank soon.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Tuesday, December 25, 2007-) +3:29 PM]*
xoxo~
Now Playing: Alvin & the Chipmunks Christmas Album
Yes, I dunno WTF I was on during pre-christmas, lol...maybe it was just all the stress around work etc.
Anyway, I should be back to normal now [or as normal as I usually am...which is kinda far from normal, but you get the picture].
I'm over the whole Mod thing. If he was my age, I'd let him get away with more, I guess...but being 17 years old and THAT hmmm headstrong [? not sure if that's the word], kinda makes it easy to push away.
We are very alike in a sense where he knows exactly what he wants. Well...I'm not quite sure how to explain it. I was like that once - and I kinda still am on occasion. It's like, you're so young - yet you've already made/set in stone all your decisions. Hmm, it's not cocky - it's just very dangerously overconfident.
I still do it sometimes, where I think I can do too much and don't expect any less [from myself]...and most times, i pull it off. On the off days where I absolutely can't pull it off, the risk is sooo high...and i phail SO HARD. It's just not a good form of work ethic to have. Too much is at risk all the time and you're gambling not only your prospective gain/failure, but your staff as well.
It's just complicated. >.> I don't mind overconfident guys, really. I just don't like guys that underestimate me [not that he intentionally does], lol...but I don't think he takes into consdieration how much I actually invest myself into things. Just because I don't vocalize every little miniature epiphany I have about Shaiya to him, doesn't mean that there's nothing in the works/progression of the game. That just comes with being really young and it's quite a large turn off.
He says "zomguadds ur a great gm!" and "<3 Michie" all the time, and stuff like that. LoL, but as long as you've known me - when the HELL have I ever believed stuff like that? Not that I don't appreciate the compliments, because I honestly do. It's just that in being a GM, and with being given GM powers & such, HOLY CRAP the aggro is immense. It's not that I don't hear all the nice things people say - because I do. I just don't sponge most of the comments because there's a 99.999999% chance that they're just saying that to get on my good side because they THINK they'll get items from me.
Yeah sure, every once in a while I'll give people items and random buffs. I do my darndest to NOT favor the GSes - but with the whole aspect of NOT having a test server and the GSes being forced to test on the same server, it's SUCH a pain in the ASSHOLE. I can't stop them from fucking bug testing - I can't. -_- It fucking pisses me off like NO other.
Because I wholeheartedly appreciate all the help - I HONESTLY do. There's nothing I'd want more than to have a whole fucking QA team - dedicated to finding all A~D bugs. That's SO not going to happen - and my GSes aren't paid - and are absolutely not recruited for THAT purpose.
If it's bug testing - that's what open beta is for...people to find random bugged shit in game and type up a petitions/ticket.
I know - THEY CHOOSE to help. >.> Which is what makes it hard, because I absolutely love the help. It makes my life [along with bug validation] a million times easier. Now with that thought though, It makes the rest of the people in fucking Shaiya - give me ABSOLUTE shit because it comes off as favoritism.
YEAH I KNOW - I'm NOT really favoring my GSes over other people...and It's an "arguable case". I KNOW - but unfortunately, it does come off as favoritism because I REWARD them when they find bugs, exclusively. It's almost like they're paid on commission.
It's not like I reward EVERY single person that submits a bug on the forums/petitions.
I don't, and THAT's why it isn't fair.
w/e.
WOW okay - so through that totally convoluted explanation...lemmie try to derive my point, haha.
I like noobs. I think they're cute in a holy crap I've gotta /righteous defend for you...you'll die type of way. Hmmm, but in this case, Mod feels like two people to me. Haha, I know - it's totally odd and I'm probably over or underanalyzing a lot of this.
Sometimes he feels like helpful cute nubtard...and sometimes he feels like he's not really a nubtard but he plays that role for some alterior motive - but I don't know why or what it could be.
Like...I don't think he's 17 sometimes. Sometimes he types/acts like a total 17 year old nub. Then again sometimes - when he's describing bugs or gameplay, it's a total flip into non-noobness land.
It weirds me the fuck out. Like, honestly - what 17 year old kid fucking knew the differences between A~D bugs...as well as their priority in EA terms? o_O Well I say EA because that's so similar to what we go by - because Eron/Huck was originally a prod for EA. Anyway, this kid understood the process...and was helping others. WTFREAKINGFUCK? o_O Yeah other GSes were asking me how he KNEW that stuff - if I had prepped him because he knew things that they didn't. Don't get me wrong, I was a HUUUUUUUUGE closet nerd at 17 also - and I knew the weirdest computer hack shit ever [oh GOD you have NO freaking IDEA], but FOR GODS sake - i didn't know EA standard bug procedure/validation at that age. Jesus Christ, i just barely learned it like last year...and I'm a game design MAJOR. >.>
Okay, okay...maybe I'm just a total idiot - and a noob gamer or something. What's funny is that - in this case, I REALLY don't think that's the case. o_O I studied dev cycles and bugdatabase types in fucking high school, but I STILL didn't know protocol. I even knew how to fucking code that shit. -_- WHAT THE HELL?
It's only weird because he knows THAT stuff - but he didn't know what a collision error was. o_O HOW do you NOT know what kind of bug that's called. o_O He just described the bug - and I had to tell him what the bug was - that it was a break in collision.
That's what i mean where it feels like two different people. How the hell do you know protocol but not know like the easiest effing C...maybe B bug? >.> They go like hand in hand. >.>
What the hell? Wow.
...I dunno, call me crazy - but holy god It just WEIRDS me the fuck out when kids know this kinda shit.
I did a video game summer camp thing like a summer or two ago...and those kids were definitely gamers...Many of which WANTED to be game programmers. THEY WOULDN'T have the FOGGIEST of what protocol was - I would bet you a fucking dollar. They all played WoW - and they were great video gamers, but there's a difference with knowing how to play games well - and knowing how to design/bug them.
It's just a level of experience that you don't learn - you gain. >.>
STOP YODA-ING ME, DAMN YOU.
I'm happy that you're a brilliant fucking 17 year old - but you freak me the fuck out!?! HOW the fuck is your girlfriend out of state when you're in high school? o_O You said she lived nearby. -_- God the inconsistencies are immense, and I really don't wanna delve deeper into why.
I guess, I like it when I can't figure people out...but this, THIS is an extreme situation where I don't know what to believe...and It's goddamn frustrating. You can't be 17, because you know more about bug regressions than Anaen does [who's HAD QA experience] and who's 26 years old. >.> WTFFFFFF. I don't care if you're young - but you sure as hell aren't just an innocent fucking high school student that works on the school computers on the side.
Yeah...because I DID THAT - sorta...and I wasn't THAT experienced in the gaming industry, jesus christ.
Well I'm going to go ponder a bit more...lol and watch the lakers die. <3
cya.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+1:14 PM]*
xoxo~
OH HO HO HO HO It's a wonderful Christmas.
This is the FIRST Christmas where we didn't have to mourn for a family member's death. LoL - I know, way to bring down the mood - hahaha...but I honestly am really happy.
So I went to midnight mass w/ my brothers* last night. It was funny cuz they were watching the chargers/broncos game last night [just because it was on]...and i arrived. LOL one of my brothers said, "HOLY SHIT teeteeny smells good and looks like a girl - what the hell?" LOL. Thanks.
**
WOW - it's now almost 10pm and i took a really long break before posting this.
Apparently, i'm taking Family pictures aka "Glamour Shots" with my brothers before they leave.
My older brother just announced that he has a girlfriend...and introduced her to all of us this christmas.
I dunno it's a weird feeling. >.>
I'm not worried about them or jealous or anything - It's just weird. I'm not used to him having a girlfriend, lol ;P he's the overprotective nerdy one. <3
I'll get used to it, I promise. LoL in the meantime, when I cringe and /barf - it's out of love, i promise. LOL!
Fufeface is coming up Thursday and my other brother is buying a 5series bmw tomorrow. Apparently I'm driving it because he can't drive stick -_-. I haven't driven stick in a while, so this is going to be quite interesting.
**
Shit - the amount of text messages today. It was absolutely nuts.
I got so overwhelmed that I left my phone at home. It guilts me because I just don't have enough time to spend w/ each and every different group of friends. >.> I cut out time for my uuuuuberly special friends and family. <3
**
Now Playing - Hey There Delilah
**
You know, one day - I'll feel comfortable enough to totally let go and expose myself wholeheartedly to someone. Until then, I'm comfortable with the amounts that I've exposed already...the bits and pieces here and there.
LoL Mod probably knows more about me than many of my IRL friends. I figured that hey, I only live once and if I feel sorta uncomfortable exposing my innerds to people I know - then I may as well tell someone who doesn't know me at all. It means less if they judge me versus people I actually care about.
I gotta get on WoW. I miss them! <3 Adios!
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Monday, December 24, 2007-) +5:31 PM]*
xoxo~
HOLY CRAP im in the twilight zone.
ALL my SHIT is reset. O_O Someone's gone into like EVERY ONE of my fucking accounts...and done something off.
It's not a funny joke and i'm going to fucking mutilate you once i fucking find you, you little bitch! >:{
lol...nothing's lost or broken, just accessed. It's FUCKING WEIRD.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Sunday, December 23, 2007-) +11:22 PM]*
xoxo~
Now Playing: Alicia Keys - No One
Save me alicia...save me QQ.
**
Worst day EVER.
Well probably not the worst day ever, but pretty fucked up.
I was about to leave at about 7pm...close up shop by myself when a goddamn woman ran up to aeriagames in tears slamming the window.... begging to get let in.
Anyway, I saw a guy running after her, so I quickly opened up the door and slammed it right when she came in.
Anyway, we have a glass window office. The guy was banging the doors/windows to let me let him in. He kept looking and pointing at the woman and yelling shit like, "YEAH YOU!" If that didn't make it worse, I fucking called the cops on the fucking Aeriagames phone which is THIS close to the door that he's pounding on. YEAH I KNOW, I should've just used my phone and ran the fuck away from there - but I wasn't thinking straight. So then, he looks straight at me and points and yells, "HEY HEY!! YEAH YOU - YOU'RE NEXT" and smiles.
AS IF that wasn't great enough - we have automated fucking lights in the building. If there's not a lot of motion in the office, the lights will all turn off and we have to wave our arms in front of the sensor to turn the lights back on.
ANYWAY - so the lights turn off...and now it's DARK and there's a woman in my cubicle fucking crying her ass off - wailing...and a guy outside fucking 2 feet away from me vocalizing he WANTS us. WHAT THE FUCK? HOW did I aggro this shit?
-_-
**
[OMGOMGOMG WHAAAAAT? *_* I love the accoustic version of this song. someone made a custom gh2 track? That's nuts? lol.]
**
So after I get off the phone w/ the dispatcher lady...I call up Vu [the CEO] and tell him OMFG IM ALONE HERE w/ this lady and guy banging on the glass doors! Anyway, he tells me Ryoga [my co-worker] is on his way and to wait there. Anyway... Shortly after Ryoga shows up the bakc way while the cops arrive aroun dthe same time.
As the cops arrive, that dude FUCKING BOLTED the fuck away like NO other.
Anyway, they said that guy had been reported around the area for the past week. THANKS, that makes me feel THIS much more rest assured, CONSIDERING I'VE BEEN CLOSING SHOP FOR THE PAST TWO WEEKS. UGH!
THE COPS THEN proceed to call in 5 more police cars to spotlight/drive around the whole complex. They ask me if I need an escort home - and I stupidly and stubbornly say NO.
So as soon as I get into my car, I call up Josh to tell him what the fuck was going on. They escorted me out of the parkinglot - and as I proceeded to drive...it wasn't more than 10 minutes later that a fucking white van with NO windows was following me. STUPIDLY, i drove into a parkinglot of a nearby random building - JUST TO SEE if he'd follow me in there. ANYWAY yeah he DID, so i fucking bolted the fuck out of there, got the fuck off the phone w/ Josh and re-called the cops. 5 of the cops showed up in a matter of a few minutes. 3 broke off and started chasing the van while it tried to high-tail it out of there. The other two escorted me from scott...basically all the way to Stevens Creek.
Bad decisions ALL AROUND ALL DAY. I just need a hug and a fucking shot of something hard. -_- Jesus.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+7:07 PM]*
xoxo~
Soo, I'm still at work.
I'm addicted to it. It's like crack...-_- and it's killing me.
I like fixing it when there's something wrong. It makes me feel better, lol I don't know why. I fucking hate validating bugs though, almost more than anything else in life. <3
**
ANYWAY, so my little dilemma this morning: I got in pretty big trouble because of playing "favorites" w/ a few GSes. WELL, Brian [The GS Manager] was pretty pissed off because I had given Anaen a mount when he got to 40 and given Mod a bunch of items. ALSO He gave me shit for MAKING my GSes GameTest becaues Game Sages are typically NOT ALLOWED to game test and do bug reports on the Live Server. [WELL, they CAN - we just can't TELL them what to do, nor can we help them FIND anything or help them in the process of bug finding w/ items and such].
The thing is - I wasn't playing favorites, lol I totally swear - because all my GSes are wonderful [YES, because my standards are THAT HIGH *cough cough* lol...]. No really, they're all wonderful, I promise.
SO i'm getting yelled at in the morning like no other - lol. And Eron comes in.
The thing is - Eron aka "Huck", my producer, had CLEARED all that shit. Anaen was the FIRST GS to get to 40 WHILE helping everyone. Because of that, Huck told me to give him a mount as a reward/thanks for helping so diligently.
Along with the bug thing - I FUCKING NEVER ever ever MADE ANYONE help me do bugs. They asked what they could help with - and i SUGGESTED things that needed more observation. YOU CAN CHECK MY LOGS. :)
ANYWAY, Eron came in w/ the wtfpwn Brian stick and said, "WHY the hell are you yelling at my Shaiya Lead?"
And Brian said, "It's because she's playing favorites w/ her Game Sages. THey're not supposed to be testing the Live Server NOR are they supposed to be getting items from her outside of events! NO GM ASSIST HELP!"
LOL then Eron said, "It's MY FUCKING game, and we don't HAVE a TEST SERVER, BRIAN. THIS IS our test server...SO SHE CAN GRAB ALL THE FUCKING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD to HELP her if SHE WANTS, DAMNIT!"
"Michie, are you okay?"
lol<3 So NO, I'm not okay. You guys suck w/ your communication and I hate being in the middle. I can do what I want, but I'm basically refraining from over-helping the sages, even though - my dears, you have no idea how much I would LOVE to assist you more. I really DO appreciate all the help, promise x1,000,000.<3
***
It kinda bums me out that Mod's only 17 though, LOL. He'd be a shoe-in for a legendary weapon if he was into sports + was my age. Hmm he seems kinda like a mama's boy though <3 which I absolutely HATE. It's kinda kryptonite to me. Like guys that need the *_* /love me /come save me thing...kinda drive me nuts in a good way. I tend to avoid them though, because they're fucking distracting as all fucking hell.
GOD needy guys are so annoying.
I know, I'm confusing - but I don't like NORMAL spoiled needy guys.
I like guys that AREN'T needy NORMALLY - just ONLY are that way to two women - their mom and their woman. It's just a trust/opening up thing that MAKES me SQUIRM. -_-
It's like...the guy that isn't afraid to give the puppy dog face. It's HORRIBLE, i can't say no to it - it's fucking kryptonite. >.> IT PAINS ME. lol
It's like *_* UH...but...you...can't...do that....not...good. Hi.
GAY.
>.>
***
Fufeface is coming to visit me on wednesday. I miss him so much. <3
I don't think I've ever missed Frank this much ever either - lol, and it's all Mod's fault. He'll say something - and I hear them say it in my head when I read the /tell, and hear Frank's voice - it's BIZARRE.
Hmm they just type sorta similarly, I guess? /distracted
It's just gonna be weird when Frank gets back. I'm going to look at him and know the answers already...and be all starry eyed like 90% of the time. My brains gonna be thinking of a million things I shouldn't be thinking...and It's gonna be so effing distracting. -_- I won't be able to look at him, lol.
WHAT ARE THE ODDS.
K...<3 I'm gonna go. Fufes a callin'.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, December 22, 2007-) +9:43 PM]*
xoxo~
HOLY FUCKING SHIT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME...WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN CARE?
I HATE THIS.
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I AM SO TIRED. I've never worked these types of shifts in my life - ever. I literally start at like 8:30 and work until 10 every day plus weekends. I'm dying and soo don't feel cute at all -_-. Not that it matters to need to look cute or anything, but god it so brightens up my day if I feel cute that morning, it's not even funny. Don't ask, because I honestly don't know why.
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And another thing - WHY AM I ALWAYS "THE FRIEND" or "THE SISTER"? That's so FUCKING LAME. If someone else says that - I swear to God.
I'm just gonna fucking get pregnant and fucking end all chances of ever looking cute again.
And MoD or whatever the hell in god his name is, can't be Frank - because he simply is too squishy to be him. Or maybe I just haven't seen that side of Frank and don't fucking know how squishy Frank can be. Either way - I don't fucking care because this guy is fucking me up so bad...and it's in a how crack fucks people up kinda way.
It makes me cry.
You know what else makes me sad? The fact that "the girl innocent face" doesn't work on people I'm actually close to. It has to fucking work on some random guy that I don't even fucking really know. THAT'S WHY when all you people THINK i have girl powers, you guys are so fucking all types of wrong it's not even funny.
-_-
He told me mages are like paladins...except they just attack differently. One casts, and one melees. Etc.
I swear I thought I was going to fucking quit the game, right there.
He also told me that i should stop playing WoW + why not sell my account? Yeah, I dunno - I've been thinking about it for a while already, and hearing other people that understand what I'm feeling, it just makes me want to sell Michie more.
So thank you Mod, for officially making me cry and be absolutely sad. Yes, i'm allowing some random 17 year old fucking east coast kid make me cry. I AM THAT fucking soft, it's FUCKING HORRID.
Why am I even sad? LOL I know, it's fucking ridiculous.
I'm sad because It's like EVERYTHING I've ever wanted to hear ever EVER EVER - just not the person I've wanted to hear it from. LoL, and I almost feel like I can say anything that I honestly feel w/o restriction back to him. AND it ALMOST feels REAL.
Iono, it breaks my heart...because it's NOT real. -_-
It's not real -_-.
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Maybe I did deserve a lump of coal this Christmas. -___- This is my FAT lump of coal.
Okay, God...I'm sorry for being such a horrid prick. You are the BEST GM ever in the REAL WORLD EVER...and I'm sorry for asking so much. Please just fix this because I don't wanna get hurt anymore -_-.
Do I not deserve the truth or something? QQ
What did I do wrong? -_-
I'm not mean! >.< I don't understand -_-.
I'll even fix it myself - just tell me how, or give me the courage/patience to. >.< Im so lost and confused. -_-
...okay im done complaining. Sorry - I'm being a bloody fucking Alliance of Light character, that does nothing but complains. >.> I can't help it.
I'd honestly work towards a solution, but i don't know what to goddamn do. I tried to talk to Frank, but he doesn't want to talk to me. -_-
FINE, it's his vacation, whatever. I want him to have a good time while he has time off, but JESUS CRIMINY, am I NOT allowed to have a fucking good christmas fucking holiday season too? DAMN.
-_- Im INVISIBLE TO EVERYONE. I'm fucking INVISIBLE to everyone who I care about...and when I DO show myself and AM visible, I have the good and bad aggro from the WORLD. There's never an inbetween where I'm just loved for me. >.< It sucks and IM PISSED and FUCKING fed up with it. You just don't understand. >.<
Okay im done.
I've gotta go to bed because I've got fucking work tomorrow - so that 5k players can be happy in the holiday season on Shaiya.
-_-
Murder me, please.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, December 21, 2007-) +11:37 PM]*
xoxo~
I'm having mixed feelings of [GS]MoD now. >.>
I don't think I wanna work with him. I like him a lot... and he's a good gs. He's kinda too good to be true. >.> It freaks me THE FUCK out.
If it weren't for him being 17, I think he'd be in the legendary weapon category. I kid you not. O_O Iono there's just something about him that makes me stop and feel human. It's FUCKING NUTS.
I've only had that feeling from one other person before - and Jesus, it's the IDENTICAL freaking feeling. It weirds me the fuck out, I kid you not. Everytime I fucking talk to him it makes me feel weird. It's almost as if he already knows me. It fucking freaks me the fuck out.
He doesn't act like a 17 year old either though - which weirds me out. GO ahead and try to act all innocent. I PROMISE you, it doesn't matter...because IF YOU EVER were in a relationship with me, i'd corrupt the SHIT out of you and it'd be fun - you have NO idea.
So when Frank said, "Why do you wanna corrupt me?" OH dear God, you really honestly DON'T want to know - and probably shouldn't anyway.
THIS IS EXACTLY why I didn't wanna GM - why I wanted to stay hidden playing WoW alone. I'm too friendly w/ people and they SO fucking take advantage of me. Not that this dude is planning on it - but I've only known him for fucking 3 days. >.> I already feel not in control of the situation and it makes me so pissed off at myself.
STOP making me feel human, It's killing me. >.> I'm not good at it. You make me feel like I'm worth it and special - and not in the whole "OMG UR A GIRL GM!" thing, but in the..."don't underestimate how cute/smart you are...and how much power combined that gives you" kinda way. It makes me feel weird -_-...he gets jealous and :(s when I wanna buff random Paladin players. WHO DOES THAT? WTF. WTF?? O_O WTF. HOW? WHY? WHAT?
What do you even CARE? You have a girlfriend and you don't even know me. Jesus i'm even in a relationship - it's not like he doesn't know. LOL AAAAND I have my own special paladin who could totally pwn his face. <3 Wouldn't that be more of a thing to be jealous over...instead of random players I wanna buff?
He pouts at me. I HATE that. I HATEEEE THAT OMFG I HATE IT. I HATE IT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN LIFE. >.> I hate it because I can't fucking say NO. It's like FUCKING KRYPTONITE. -_- It's LIKE, OMG I WANNA FUCKING FIX IT. I wanna make your :( face *_* and/or :D<3. IT'S FUCKING HORRIBLE.
HOW DID THIS EFFING HAPPEN? HOW -_-?! I don't even know you but I feel like I've known you forever. -_- It's so lame and makes me miss my frankasaurus rex even more. Yeah weird, I know - but he's so good at shutting people out...that I miss his coldness. [How ironic.]
There's one thing that differentiates my legendary weapon from this one. My legendary weapon's a paladin<3, this one's a mage.
QQ I'll be on tomorrow...and if [GS]MoD's on, it'll make me smile. But then, i'll just QQ after It's all over, because I'll know that It's not really who I wish it was.
Josh says, "Suuuuspiciousss" lol and wants me to look more into it. >.> I could get fired if I look it up....I can't look up IP info, well I CAN...but If it's for personal use - I can get fired.
I trust Frank, I wholeheartedly believe that it isn't him and that God just has a great SUPER FUCKING FREAKISHLY COINCIDENTAL sense of humor. Aaaaand even if it were him - lol seriously, what have I honestly lost? NOTHING. If anything, I'm glad that he at least found SOME way to open up to someone. >.> OH man. -_- OH MAN. -_-.
I'm just a bit confused, and feel weird that I would've been spilling my fucking guts about frank - to him, lol which KINDA SORTA REALLY sucks - but I figure he's bound to find out eventually...and he's not the type to hate my guts for being honest - soooooo omg im rambling and yeah -_-. OKAY.
OKAY this is SO not cool.
OH OKAY so...Josh's answer was: "You know, you should just really call up Frank and tell him what's going on. This is a pretty big deal."
LIKE I HAVEN'T TRIED???! >.> He's fucking AWOL like usual...QQ I hate your guts sometimes!! You said you'd be there when I really need you - and this is super serial! QQ
-_- JESUS. What a predicament.
Half of me wants Frank to just COME in and fix it ALL...then the other half wants me to fix it myself - and is stubborn and doesn't want the help, oh god damnit. >.>
I'm gonna go to bed and roll up and DIE. QQ.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+12:01 AM]*
xoxo~
Congrats team shaiya on the launch...and holy CoW what a day of drunkenness that was, sheesh.
I honestly haven't been that drunk in a while.
So I have a prospective GS, lets just call him "Random Dude", lol that freaks me the fuck out. I don't think it helped that i was drunk half of today.
He just says things that i'm thinking, out loud...A LOT. Some things are just SO FUCKING WEIRD that it makes me wonder things...lol. Then I quickly ctrl+alt+delete out of that "wandering imagination" program that my internal OS likes to turn on occasionally...just to spare myself the freaking out.
I honestly could just look up the IP and figure out the location of the signal in TWO seconds...
But I refuse to. I don't wanna know.
FOR ONCE, lol in my life EVER - haha, I'm NOT curious. What's funny - is that this is pretty much all I've ever wanted ever. It's like God's rewarding me for being such a good girl this year and I don't wanna take advantage of it. I'm satisfied.
Okay of course I'm curious... but either way, nothing can really bring me down right now, even if it is or isn't what it could be. lol >.> i've learned enuff -_-, that i'm happy just knowing, i guess.
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i feel like i'm in <3 with someone who doesn't exist, lol.
GOD now I"M NEVER GOING TO SLEEP, GEE, THANKS. -_- lolol <3
im all gushy and smiling -_- gross this is freaking gross.
GAH sleepysleep save me. <3
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, December 20, 2007-) +4:42 PM]*
xoxo~
Please disregard my last post. I was on a few hours of sleep and none of that shit made any sense at all - looking back.
I just needed to get it out - and didn't know quite what to say.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, December 19, 2007-) +8:23 PM]*
xoxo~
Yeah OKAY not funny, can I roll up into a ball and DIE NOW? JESUS CHRIST STOP MAKING ME HUMAN!! It's WEIRD and I'M NOT FUCKING GOOD AT IT. IT MAKES ME scurrvy, i HATE it.
JUST LET ME BE MY FUCKING OBJECTIVE GM PRODUCER SELF GOD DAMNIT and ANNEX ALL THIS FUCKING COMPASSION ACID REFLUX SHIT.
HOLY HELL!
OH HOLY FUCKING HELL.
I can't even talk about it because IT makes me all SICK AND WANT TO FUCKING METROID INTO A BALL...and ROLL UNDER SOMETHING.
I had dejavux1,000,000 today. Yeah I don't know WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT HELL GOD DAMN OMG WTFFFFF THAT was, and i'm NOT looking into what that was because YEAH I'm NOT - IM NOT. Please God, just do that wonderful fucking MIND WIPE thing you do every once in a while - and MAKE ME Naiive, PLEASE.
Make me, "Awww well that was a cute conversation! I sure did learn a lot about the opposite sex."
Okay...it's not working. OH GOD -_-. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wish I could metroid.
Give me one second...I have to force the thoughts away. >.>
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Hi! :D So, I had SUCH a great time at work today. While doing a million and a half tasks + babysitting a boatload of wonderful GSes, I had an eye opening conversation with a RANDOM player. It was SO random, that I could've yelled BINGO and it wouldn't have been more appropriate.
FOR SOME FUCKING RETARDED reason, I'm not as nervous when things are happening - versus afterwards. Afterwards, I wanna drown and hibernate in a FUCKING CAVE for the winter months ALONE and with my fucking ACORNS to keep me goddamn company.
Anyway, this random player just happened to answer ALL my questions...SPECIFICALLY without me having to vocalize all of them.
I'm not gonna bring up the instances, because It really makes me wanna like...move to Canada, change my name/change my number/etc.
There's just NO FUCKING WAY IN HELL. -_- And I'll keep telling myself what I WANT to hear, but it's not RATIONALLY POSSIBLE.
It was nice. It really was, I wholeheartedly promise. -_- MOTHER OF GOD. I just wasn't ready to hear all of it, I guess...in a span of a couple hours - ONLINE, with some RANDOM dude, and while fucking having all the millions of other responsibilities stacked on my shoulders as well.
WE were basically talking about IT. -_- OH GOD not THAT IT...my IT. -_-
I don't know why I can't specify details. It seems as though everytime I try, I feel like i get rolled up into a fucking ball and get thrown into a path towards an indicted bat swinging player shooting up roids like candyyyyyyyyy.
WHAT? I dunno I'm tired, i've been up since fucking 4am. I wanna take a shower and go to bed.
HOLY COW -_-
WOULD I BE PISSED? HOLY FUCKING CRIMINY YES, DUHHHHHHHH? I WAS pissed. I FUCKING ALMOST DIVORCED because i was so GODDAMN PISSED. I don't fucking tolerate that kinda bullshit fucking lameass lack of compassion. [WHAT?!!!]
I'm such an idiot >.<. I should have just BANNED those goddamn people that were annoying - from the GM tool...instead of LOGGING into Shaiya, banning people in game, and being FRIENDLY and SOCIAL.
Serves me right.
URGH >.> I SHOULD'VE JUST HID like a GOOD GM. NONO i had to BUFF people OOoOoOooOo, because they FUCKING CANT survive w/o a fucking rip off of a blessing of goddamn kings. OH JESUS CHRIST.
Errrrbuddy come here for free buffs! <3333333 HEARTS STARS DIAMONDS, CLOVERS AND BLUE MOONS.
I JUST HAAAAD to be friendly. GOD DAMNIT where the HELL is my friendly switch and WHY the HOLY HELL won't it turn the fuck off? I just want it to turn off.
GOD WHY do I HAVE to be THAT effing GIRL that fucking starts up a conversation w/ you at the post office, or helps you with your mail if you've got too much to carry. WHY!!?!!! WHY! WHY!!!! -_-
>.< IT ONLY GETS ME INTO TROUBLE.
OH GOD -_- me and my OVERLY GIGANTIC FUCKING MOUTH. FAIL. FAIL! -_- GOD, you couldn't just hold THAT thought in 'till we got HOME and you could just fucking BLOG that shit where it COULD be hidden. NO no no , you had to fucking talk to some random bloke about it. GOD -_- GODDDDD.
I'm so angry at myself - LOL in a, I'm laughing at my own goddamn misery type of way.
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Yeah i know, you don't understand.
Yeah, I kinda DON'T want you to know even though you already know >.> [WHAT?!], and holy hell. WHAT? -_-
GOD i'm just overwhelmed. I had a really long day - starting w/ my grandpas surgery... and lots of work.
It doesn't help that my IT is far away and can't fucking fix it. >.< I want you to fix it please, just fix it for me QQ.
It's like, everything that totally didn't make any sense at all for the past fucking 3 years just NOW made sense. DO YOU EVEN KNOW how overwhelming that is?
-_-
I HATE YOUR GUTS!!
WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST FUCKING TELL ME! QQ
OKAY, I already know this answer. I learned it today.
GOD -_-. GODDDDD. GOD -_-.
I would've DROPPED everything for you without ANY hesitation.
Okay maybe not my sports teams, but you get the picture.
Sweet GOD WHY!??!!!!? -_-
OH BOY this sucks. -_- THIS ABSOLUTELY SUCKS and I'M SO GLAD you're away or we might have some seriously NASTY problems. Like the butterfly - tingle factor is at an alltime high and that's so unreasonably unfair. -_-
I'm slapping myself back into reality - or trying to at least. HEY you're a happily married woman that's responsible and compassionate! HEY! RESPONSIBLE. RESPONSIBLE!!
>.>
BAD THOUGHTS...
RESPONSIBLE!!!!
....baadd..thoughts....
RESPONSIBLE! DAMNIT YOU!!
QQ!
OHhhhhhh GADUGADUGADUGADUGADUGADUGADUGADUGAD. -_-
DAMN IT.
RESPONSIBLE! RESPONSIBLE, DAMNIT.
HOLY COW.
It feels like someone's trying to goddamn physically trying to mummify my heart or something. IT'S the weirdest goddamn feeling ever. STOP YOUR FUCKING EGYPTIAN MAGIC TRICKS. IT"S HORRIBLE!
...im gonna take some sleepysleep and go to bed. DO NOT stop me, or I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO FUCKING KILL YOU.
the exceptions are Family, and my special paladin aka the ONE that can FIX it. OH YEAH AND YOU BETTER FUCKING KNOW who you ARE you poopfacemcgee after 3 FREAKING YEARS.
<3 carpe diem <3
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What's your favourite posish? Not such great exp there, but I'll do it for you! What's your favourite buff? I'm not going to give it but I'll bug Eihcim till she does!
LOL XD hahahaha
He keeps proposing to me.
Iain Shiell: ... I've forgotten how to do the heart emote Michie Hara: i just have it set to 2 Michie Hara: and spam it a bunch, lol Iain Shiell: You're a dork <3 Michie Hara: two more blessing of goddesses up Iain Shiell: Are you SURE you won't marry me? REALLY sure? Iain Shiell: http://forums.aeriagames.com/viewtopic.php?p=422543#422543 >.> Michie Hara: LOL! i responded :) Iain Shiell: I saw. Weehee. Michie Hara: I just made another character on the light side Michie Hara: called Wonderboy Michie Hara: I'm gonna reserve Nastyman's name Michie Hara: for my dark account, LOL Iain Shiell: I think I love you Michie Hara: XD <3 Iain Shiell: <3_<3!
LOL? For a goddess blessing o_O it's nuts.
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Michie Hara: someone lost their hat! :( Iain Shiell: Aww, poor diddums Michie Hara: Gah i feel bad when i can't help them -_- Michie Hara: and when they get mad at me lol Michie Hara: even though i shouldn't even care Michie Hara: haha Iain Shiell: If they get mad at you refer them to me I'll be your white knight or some such And can't help everyone, they screw up, nae your fault. Michie Hara: lol Michie Hara: Nah it's okay Michie Hara: ty though Michie Hara: i like to practice tanking every once in a while Michie Hara: <3 Iain Shiell: Haha, okay, and that's a cute way of looking at it
O_O WHAT? HOW? WHERE? NO. I can tank my own shit, thanks. LoL...<3
<3 carpe diem <3
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1) DRINKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR Probably Paulette? o_O I think I've drank the most w/ her throughout the year.
2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend) That would be Alani, hands down. LoL Since 3 or so months old, :P. We still occasionally talk - and have eachother's backs. It also goes to Liliana & Jerome...whom I've known since the 6th grade. They're my <3 and soul.
3) NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEWEST FRIEND? Hmm, NEW meaning - within the past few days? I make friends on a daily basis, so this is a really vague question. I just made 30ish new aquaintances yesterday [my GSes for Shaiya]. I made a new friend that works at Google & Curse Gaming too...I really don't know -_-.
Actually - I'd have to say, the team at Aeriagames. They're the coolest people - ever. LOL I really like them.
4) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR There are quite a few...but you wouldn't give a damn because most of them involve WoW. For example: and [when sho came back] phat lewts Ony + the Ony Bug, lol
Not to mention the numerous SSC runs/Mag/Gruul/ZA/Kara - SB/Artifice/FPD/Dino/JR <3 I might act like i hate it...but I really appreciate the opportunity to try out end game WoW - even though I had to cheat most of the time and call up Frank when they'd refer to a pre-bc Raid strat, LOL.
Now Playing: One Republic - Apologize
5) LOW POINT OF THE YEAR? Hmm...There were a few things. Getting attacked by my uncle w/ a lawnmower, lol. Yeah you laugh - but that was NOT fun. I had to set up my FOURTH restraining order - and this one was hard because it was family.
I had a hard time when I cut my hair off too. I get impulsive when I'm stressed out - usually cuz i just wanna get whatever's stressing me out over with...even if it's unrelated. It's weird, lol.
6) BEST HOLIDAY? Usually the Christmas season, just because I'm too Catholic to NOT appreciate it, lol. Maybe my mom did SOMETHING right, haha. :P
7) YOUR SONG FOR 2007? There are too many that I appreciate. I'll post the top 20? 1. Gym Class Heroes - Cupid's Chokehold 2. Gwen Stefani - the Sweet Escape 3. Chris Brown - With You 4. Robin Thicke - Lost Without You 5. Justin Timberlake - My Love [Hmm I can't think of other songs right now - my playlists' in the car.] 6. Fall out Boy - Infinity on High - This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race - The Carpal Tunnel of Love" (Digital single) · - Thnks fr th Mmrs - I'm Like a Lawyer with the Way I'm Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You)" 7. Tenacious D - Pick of Destiny 8. Foo Fighters - the Pretender 9. Finger Eleven - Paralyzer 10. Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5 11. She's Like the Wind - Lumidee 12. Stronger - Kanye West 13. I Don't Wanna be in Love - Good Charlotte 14. No One - Alicia Keys 15. Misery Business - Paramore 16. Hey Delilah - Plain White Tees 17. Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park 18. Bubbly - Colbie Caillat 19. Put Your Records On - Corinne Bailey Rae 20. Apologize - One Reublic
8) Best Reality TV Show FOR 2007? Beauty & the Geek. I would totally wtf pwn.
9)Best Fight of 2007? U.S. vs George W. Bush - hahaha <3
10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH? NoMoo/FPD<3 it was the best present evar.
11) BEST RELATIONSHIP? LOL It's weird - but probably my Dad and I.
12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN A PIRATE! :P YAR!
13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR? It's gotta be applebee's, lol...[sad but true] because we've freaking gone there like every weekend for the whole year.
14) KISS OF THE YEAR? Dude. o_O Umm...probably the 2girls 1cup one. THAT was a kiss thats forever seared in my brain.
15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR? I haven't really made good decisions this year, unfortunately. Probably to start working again, /shrug.
16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR? I want a kitten? LOL I'm not quite sure, really.
17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK? YOU honestly, don't want to know. I'm a bad, bad...bad drunk. The stupid ideas run rampant.
18) MUSIC VIDEO OF THE YEAR? Finger Eleven - Paralyzer. That video makes me all, wtf...i wanna join???
19) MOST LOYAL FRIEND? Hah, all of them. I don't have disengenuous friends and/or associate with those types of people.
20) BIGGEST DOUCHE AWARD? Probably my Dad, Grampa, or Frank. They all mean well though, lol...and I <3 them. They can be the biggest douches sometimes though.
21) NEW YEAR RESOLUTION? ...err...to get over HATING doing the dishes. DAMN you.
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k i gg to work. I had to pick up my grandparents this morning for a dr's appt - and my grandpa made me take his 95k benz. Yeah, i feel like such a baller. I feel like fucking cinderella when I drive it, it's odd.
Adios, baller style. LOL<3
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Tuesday, December 18, 2007-) +8:43 PM]*
xoxo~
Dangit one sec kev - lol <3
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LOL @
" hii.. basically i never ever likeed anyone from myspace and i clicked your profile from browse and i thought you were festive and found myself actually interested in you. lol i talked to my friend ash and she said to go for you and we should take a compatibility test first... anyways i believe in this kinda stuff so i made one for you its in my profile just look its big and green in my profile. if we match.. and you are interested in me contact me back. i promised ash i will not respond back to you until i get the official test results so if you send any msgs to me i wont get them until you finish. you seem perfect i never had this feeling before.. **im crossing my fingers**
~toodles "
HAHAHAHAHA >.<
Okay first - I'd say, "/barf are you GAY?" lol but I CAN'T BECAUSE a GIRL sent it to me. secondly lol she was halfway cute, HAHAHA. XD lol...
HOT.
I hate fucking PMs like this - so i ALMOST want to be mean and respond w/ something misleading back. I'm just gonna ignore it but, sheesh.
Not only are you a GIRL - but you're not even a girl that I would find remotely attractive. GOD I hate bad english - it's HORRIBLE. Yeah I know, I use incorrect grammar/punctuation in my blogs all the time...but HONESTLY, my English isn't like 5th grade level; I promise you.
OKAY IM OFF, shit.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+8:21 PM]*
xoxo~
Kevvy's picking me up! <3 We're going to dinner.
I miss him THIIIIIIIIIIS much. ^_^
He hasn't left for socal yet. >.> Thank GOD. He keeps me so grounded and christian, lol.
I'd cry.
Eek he's here. Cya<3
<3 carpe diem <3
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+1:56 PM]*
xoxo~
Now Playing: Paralyzer - Finger Eleven & I Love You - Tila Tequila
So last night, we were playing the "Car" game. LOL
Tila Tequila was one of the girls that I brought up...and Ray[Yith] said, "What...is that a drink or something?"
I almost pissed laughing so hard. He's so innocent. It's great fun.
Anyway - All the boys gave Tila about a 7 which was pretty accurate - i would say. So i looked her up and found her Myspace. I started listening to the music on her myspace page and was going into convulsions from the immense laughter. It was absolutely BRILLIANT - lemmie just tell you. I was listening to "Fuck Ya Man" and Jesus Lord, I felt as though all the angels descended from heaven and enlightened me with their grace. lol, NOT.
OKAY It's horrible because she's ghetto rapping [i guess?]...but she has a girl voice...so it sounds like someone from the OC trying to act gangsta. I ain't trying to fuck ya man Errbody know he my numba 1 fan I done been there done that bitch and? You wanna get mad bitch, I don't give a damn
Flossin' round the city errbody know my name Yea I got yo man whipped, bitch with no game Sucka ass fool, I don't wanna wear ya chain I got my own diamonds spelled out in my name
I don't know why you think I wanna rape ya boo but then again if I was you, I would hate me too I'm a badass bitch and ya'll can't get nuthin' Ya'll need to tell ya boy sumthin'.....biaaatch!
HOOOOLY COW - i feel like i lose braincells every time i READ that.
I just had to "enlighten" you w/ some FRESH NEW MUSIC.
LOLZ
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Vash and I got presents for Christmas. We got two gaming computer stations per GM - I LOVE it. <3
So now...i'm not running a dual monitor setup...I'm running a single monitor per dual system setup.
cmd->dxdiag runs never seemed so fun - ever until now.
THEY'RE SYNC-ed. O_O HOW HOT is that??!!!! 4 Computers.../sigh.
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I have so much to talk about - really, there have been a million things on my mind lately...really happy cool stuff and some meh not so happy cool stuff. I just can't talk about 50% of it - and 20% I'd rather just not splooge to the world because it's family stuff and unnecessary banter.
...I've been so busy lately. Osaka's been pushing me to go out more. I wish I hadn't been sick lately - I think it would've been more fun.
I talked to Frank about it a bit because I honestly don't think I'm being that antisocial...lol. He called me hypocritical. <3
The difference is that - I've already done the whole go out all the time & party + socialize thing. I did it for most of my life. :P
Sometimes breaks are nice.
The thing is - I made him go out...because I was concerned he wasn't going to have a fun College experience just staying on WoW the whole time. He was fucking exalted with everything & had spare t2 pieces.
I didn't even know what he played as - until raiding his house and catching him raiding o_O. Well, even when I did find out, i kept the whole "ZOMG I <3 PAWLIDINNZZ!!!" pretty secret, i guess. I'd rather him be happy o_<... so i just pushed him to go out & experience college life outside of WoW. <3
I'm in a different situation - it's not all that hypocritical, I promise.
I'm trying to progress in life - and I don't wanna PARTY anymore, DAMN. -_- DAMN!? I wanna grow up, JESUS. I wanna grow up and be around people who wanna grow up too - not people who just wanna "kick it and get drunk" all the time. DUDE!!!? I like to kick it every once in a while - trust me I HONESTLY do. I love hanging out with my friends. Hmm there's a japanese word: Mezurahshii. I don't know how to really describe that in english. It's like: New, Cool, Fresh, Out of the Ordinary, Fun, and other stuff put together. It's so NOT-Mezurashii to me anymore. O_O Maybe I'm just bored of it? >.< /shrug.
I know - I'm so easily bored. It's a downfall that I've TRIED to work on, but now I've just accepted. LOL It makes life really interesting...because I'm always looking for fun stuff to keep me entertained.
<3
Maybe that's why I like guys that I can't quite figure out, bwahaha. I don't get bored w/ people EVER. Even with normal people, you can never really learn EVERYTHING about them...and with people who I don't automatically just understand - it's just that much more challenging and interesting. Maybe they're the crack to my addiction. They're the unsolvable mystery to a Sherlock Holmes. /shrug YEAH YOU LAUGH at my weirdness...but it's fun, I can't help it.
Oh yeah, and I promise, my persistence...lol I won't give up - I don't give up on people. It's another downfall that I've never learned to overcome.
Even when people treat me like shit - or take advantage of me...yeah i'll be pissed, but I really never say no. It's weird and unfortunate, lol.
If my girlfriends had boyfriends that were asses to them, I'd be the first to tell them to GTFO! Find a new guy - he's SO not worth it.
I'm not a hypocrite - I'm just overly compassionate sometimes...and I think I SEE things in people that other people might not. I "like" or "fall in love" with the little random things that you HAVE to dig for - not just easy "this guy treats me like a princess" crap.
I know that's really vague, but I don't really know how to elaborate it...so I'm going to leave it as that.
GOD i haven't gotten this many OMUGODILOVEYOUGM_EIHCIM<3PMs EVER. It makes me appreciate my real friends much more, haha.
I know - if I were ANY other NORMAL girl, I guess it'd be way cool.
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YOU KNOW WHAT? I like being weird! It's fun! LOL
I'm having a Star Wars discussion w/ Josh [not platt, Roguefeebo - the producer of Project Torque].
Anyway we were talking about guild shirts - and I showed him my two shirts.
[16:08] gm_eihcim: it's National Organization of Miniscules against Oversized Oppressors [16:08] gm_eihcim: NO MOO :P [16:08] gm_eihcim: we kill taurens [16:08] roguefeebo: noooooooo [16:08] gm_eihcim: lol<3 [16:08] roguefeebo: you try! [16:08] gm_eihcim: JOSH! [16:08] gm_eihcim: do or do not [16:08] gm_eihcim: there is no try :P [16:08] roguefeebo: ouch [16:08] roguefeebo: it hurts... [16:09] roguefeebo: you're only a closet nerd and you almost beat out my nerdiness.. [16:09] roguefeebo: i feel ashamed [16:10] roguefeebo: time to go perform seppuku [16:12] gm_eihcim: lol [16:12] gm_eihcim: i don't know what's nerdier [16:12] gm_eihcim: the fact that I quoted yoda [16:12] gm_eihcim: or the fact that you knew where it was from [16:14] roguefeebo: episode 5
LOL It's fun!<3
Honestly, how would a normal girl respond? I don't even know, ahhaa. Jing's never even seen star wars - ANY of them.
LOL!!
[16:30] gm_eihcim: he could've at least fought to the death [16:30] gm_eihcim: NO, he was fucking electrocuted out of a window [16:30] roguefeebo: lol [16:30] roguefeebo: yeah, it was so anti-climactic [16:31] gm_eihcim: yeah, blue balls. [16:31] gm_eihcim: paTHEtic [16:32] roguefeebo: ... [16:32] roguefeebo: how do you know what the heck that feels like!? [16:33] gm_eihcim: o_O [16:33] gm_eihcim: mace windu died [16:33] gm_eihcim: that's how [16:33] gm_eihcim: that was the epitome of what blue balls feels like [16:35] roguefeebo: lol [16:35] roguefeebo: i see
DUH? Isn't it obvious? :P
Josh is a proggy/producer, haha. He plays a Tauren Shaman & a BE Paladin. NO, DON'T get any ideas. :P We have fun hybrid class conversations. o_O IM NOT A PALADIN i get lost sometimes. /wink...
"Divine Illumination, what's that?" j/k :P
Hahaha...I can't help it. -_- It's a reflex.
DAMN, I can't believe she's 61. That scares me. I swear - I kinda thought I was gonna get her to 40...but I never imagined she'd have her own epic mount - EVER. o_O I really like healing - but it stresses me out too much. I can't handle the fact that I can't save everyone sometimes. So she's going through this mid life identity crisis thing and respecced ret. I HATE retadins. They make me cry bloody murder.
They're SO USELESS!!
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LOL I WISH i could just blog everything out - haha...It'd be such a fun story, but I CAN'T. GAHhhhhhhhhh!! -_-
WOW this is ONE longass blog...it's been up for hours - and i've just been periodically adding to it while GMing, etc.
<3
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LOL more Josh convo:
[17:49] roguefeebo: i let you start casting the fear, then mid-fear i place a grounding so it's absorbed [17:49] gm_eihcim: the green one [17:49] gm_eihcim: haha, you know [17:49] roguefeebo: earthbind is the green slow one. tremor is the green one that gets you out of fear [17:49] gm_eihcim: that's honestly never happened to me :P [17:49] roguefeebo: haha [17:49] gm_eihcim: i haven't fought a shaman fast enough to do that [17:49] gm_eihcim: haha, but i totally believe you [17:49] roguefeebo: pfft, they're nubs, :p [17:51] roguefeebo: you start to cast fear->i earth shock, you start to cast fear -> i grounding, you start to cast fear ->earth shock is up again, you start to cat fear ->i war stomp, you start to cast fear again ->i earth shock again [17:51] roguefeebo: so if you rely on fear, you die, :p [17:51] gm_eihcim: Ohhhh no. [17:51] gm_eihcim: I rely on my teammate to hammer of justice you [17:51] gm_eihcim: while my pet handles your totems [17:51] gm_eihcim: and i kill off your partner [17:51] roguefeebo: hahaha [17:51] gm_eihcim: while you're stunned [17:51] gm_eihcim: :P then finish you off [17:52] gm_eihcim: hahaha [17:52] roguefeebo: grounding also absorbs hammer [17:52] roguefeebo: :D [17:52] gm_eihcim: not if grounding totem doesn't exist [17:52] roguefeebo: truth
^_^ <3
[18:13] roguefeebo: lifetap is cheating [18:13] gm_eihcim: not really, because it's not like you can really sacrifice doing that during a boss fight [18:14] gm_eihcim: because your healers have to focus heals on you versus staying on more important people like...the mt or ot [18:14] roguefeebo: bandages! [18:14] gm_eihcim: yeah - we do that [18:14] gm_eihcim: but in a boss fight where you could potentially get one shotted [18:14] gm_eihcim: the healers'll heal whatever bar's down [18:14] roguefeebo: you get like 5k mana per bandage, don't you? [18:14] gm_eihcim: yeah that's about right [18:14] roguefeebo: your healers need awareness [18:15] gm_eihcim: it's not hard to lifetap and bandage [18:15] gm_eihcim: but i don't do it often [18:15] gm_eihcim: because when a boss can do an AoE and hit everyone for 5k [18:15] gm_eihcim: i don't want the paladins to have to holy light me [18:15] gm_eihcim: instead of just a flash of light [18:15] roguefeebo: yeah [18:15] gm_eihcim: so i only really lifetap when i have a healthstone ready [18:16] gm_eihcim: or a pot to immediately use after so they don't even look at me [18:16] gm_eihcim: i played a paladin - so i get it...when it sucks to have to heal a warlock >.< cuz they might die and they're lotsa dps [18:17] gm_eihcim: but you have to take care of the MT at the same time [18:17] gm_eihcim: i FEEL for my paladins QQ<3 [18:18] roguefeebo: i'm a healer, ;) i don't heal my locks if they're not getting targetted [18:18] roguefeebo: plus i downrank and can spam heals for a while [18:19] roguefeebo: there's not a whole lot of bosses that do aoe [18:21] gm_eihcim: i just don't like to make it hard on them [18:21] gm_eihcim: i guess so i'll just get extra mana pots [18:21] gm_eihcim: or sacrifice my felhunter for the added 400mp1 [18:21] roguefeebo: i <3 my alchemist stone [18:21] gm_eihcim: ?? [18:22] roguefeebo: http://www.wowhead.com/?item=13503 [18:22] gm_eihcim: /gasp [18:22] roguefeebo: :D [18:23] gm_eihcim: XD that's cool [18:23] roguefeebo: it's relatively easy to make too [18:23] roguefeebo: you'd just have to give up + dmg
^^
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Okay, I knooooooooowww I don't hang out w/ Frank very often, lol and I'm okay w/ it...It's just everytime he leaves norcal, I:
>.> err... o_o *_* QQ ...err... >.<
..and have to avoid the whole thing. It's like half of captain planet's missing, I know... it's totally wrong -_- and I shouldn't feel that way. I can't turn it off or make it stop so...go eat a dick, lol. IT'S WEIRD AND IT MAKES ME SCURVY! I get all worried and shit, it's absolutely disgusting. >.>
Okay that's enough venting for my own good.
Adios.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Saturday, December 15, 2007-) +4:08 PM]*
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Holy (30 points)
5/5 Divine Intellect 5/5 Spiritual Focus 3/3 Healing Light 1/1 Aura Mastery 2/2 Unyielding Faith 5/5 Illumination 3/3 Pure of Heart 1/1 Divine Favor 3/3 Sanctified Light 2/5 Holy Power
1/5 Suppression 5/5 Improved Corruption 2/2 Improved Life Tap 2/2 Soul Siphon 2/2 Improved Curse of Agony 5/5 Fel Concentration 1/1 Amplify Curse 2/2 Nightfall 3/3 Empowered Corruption 1/1 Siphon Life 1/1 Curse of Exhaustion 5/5 Shadow Mastery
Demonology (31 points)
2/2 Improved Healthstone 5/5 Demonic Embrace 3/3 Fel Intellect 1/1 Fel Domination 3/3 Fel Stamina 3/3 Demonic Aegis 2/2 Master Summoner 5/5 Unholy Power 1/1 Demonic Sacrifice 5/5 Master Demonologist 1/1 Soul Link
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We will see...we will see. :)
<3 carpe diem <3
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+11:04 AM]*
xoxo~
Came home around 10:30 last night from Alex's party [Alex=Pauleezy's BF].
I'm partially hungover and partially sick.
Despite it all, I really wanted to go for two reasons...#1, because since I turned 22ish I've ALWAYS turned people down when it came to parties. I was somewhat afraid of my actions under the influence - and didn't feel it would be appropriate as a married person [or person in a serious relationship], I guess.
I used to be a REALLY REALLY REALLY lovey drunk. REALLY LOVEY. I give kisses and hugs to people I don't even like [like that]. LOL AND it's weird because to people who I COULD possibly have interests in - I'm usually standoffish. I think it's my conscience acting up on me - damn! j/k :P
The 2nd reason, was because...I needed a break from gaming people [again.../sigh]. High School was SO much easier. There were so many different people - that when I got tired of hearing about JUST video games, I could hang out w/ my jock friends. When I got tired of stupid comments, I'd go to the smart academic kids. After feeling geeked out - then i'd move to the skater "bad kids" lol...or the band geeks...or my childhood friends.
Not that I miss HS - because that DEFINITELY isn't the case. LoL, I just simply miss the conglomerate of different types of people in one location, I guess.
So yeah - I'm gonna hang w/ Pauleezy on Fridays, I guess. It's good to get out - as Osaka's said. I really don't WANT to go out - but I really should. I'm hermiting, and it freaking grosses me out. It freaking takes Osaka [the total absolute hermit x1,000,000] to alert me of my introverted tendencies. DAMN YOU. "How can you have a list of 200+ people on your phone and NOT go out all the time?" I honestly don't have the energy to do that anymore! DAMN?
OH yeah, SO my outside-of-cogswell-"normal"-friends are all coming home for the winter vacation. ^^ LOLOLOL!! Even Jo's coming home from fucking VIRGINIA. WHO THE FUCK MOVES to VIRGINIA to go to Penn State? WTF. GAY...denouncing your Calfornian background. :P
Jeromey, Andrew, Lili and Alani are coming home too. I miss them so much.
I'm baking a Bouche de Noel w/ Jo, Mary, Sunshine, and Jinky. LOL YEAH WHAT?? I know. We figured Madame Sauvage would miss us by now - and we'd surprise her with our 1337 Francais avec une petite present? o_O LOL hahaha.
YEAH I KNOW, WHAT? I think I should throw a party -_-. YEAH what? WELL...it's because they're not always home...so I kinda should have a get together w/ them all :)
Why do i have to have teh smallest fucking house ever?!!! <333 Haha
GOD I wish Damon was more social sometimes. It annoys me because I feel like I can't go out and have a good time because I have to be keeping him entertained all the time. Yeah I know, he's like "Go out do w/e you want - I'm fine by myself." BUT I don't work like that. He has to wanna hang out or wanna NOT BE SO FUCKING QUIET, sometimes. JESUS CHRIST.
Yeah we work out in the end because he balances out my stupidly uncontrollable social butterfly personality...and keeps me grounded. Unfortunately - part of me HATES staying home and playing WoW. I HATE IT. World of Warcraft effectively stunts my potential growth/progression IRL.
I only like it when I'm playing with friends. The repetitive gameplay makes me want to shoot puppies and sell their skins on ebay.
So why do I raid? O_O I DON'T KNOW.
I shouldn't. I SHOULD JUST STOP PLAYING...or at least stop playing my lock. It's not fun for me anymore. I miss too many people [who stopped playing or who don't play much] and should focus on progression IRL.
Conin even came back. He vowed never to bring back his paladin, LOL...and i QQed at him once - and he freaking renewed. Then i totally felt bad because he wants me to take him to ZA with us.
GOD CONIN! ROLL A FREAKING RANGED DPS!!! Or fucking cloth spelldmg/crit/hit shockadin and i'll take you in a heartbeat. LOL <3
Conin was so cute, LOL! In our raids, he'd switch out of 70 gear to T2 and "DPS" w/ a two hander. Haha, I would TOTALLY switch out to the t2 helm+oblivion pieces if i could >.< but that fucking warlock helm will NEVER drop for me, I freaking swear. It's been judgement every single fucking time. Not that the Judgement helm is bad at all - lol<3 but FOR GODS SAKE drop some warlock loot, please.
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DAMNIT - I just found out that Eron's in SF for the EA party. WTF -_- THAT's the party in SF that you wanted me to go to? O_O DAMNIT!? DAMN YOU. Well...i'm working...here...I can't. LOL Yeah, I'm telling that to MY BOSS.
It's like I can't get out of it even when I TRY TO, lol. The misery level - it's amazing.
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I'm gonna get back to visio - because flow charts make my life wonderful. <3 I LOVE YOU VISIO, OH HOW I LOVE YOU.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Friday, December 14, 2007-) +10:28 AM]*
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LOL LOOK what I found!!
Okay so - they're cute...but they say such profane things, it makes me giggle.
Okay I'm not really that deceiving in a bad/evil way...but you get what i mean.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Thursday, December 13, 2007-) +6:46 PM]*
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OH I WISH you could've been there. I JUST WISH you could've seen the funny.
So...i sorta lost my voice. I had an allergic reaction [i think] to seafood from the other night.
Anyway, so today despite the crappy under the weather feeling, I HAD to go to work because of yum yum yum PRESS DAY! YAAY.
So anyway - a bunch of companies were there...and I got interviewed by a bunch of companies too [about Shaiya]...then had to demo the game to everyone a bunch of times.
As soon as i stepped into work, Eron [my producer] called me asian barbie. LOL That's so cool, LOL - not that asian barbie's my type at all, lolol...but I've never been in that category before [or at least I don't think i have], so it's kinda refreshing and nice. :D I think asian barbie's cute, god damnit.
[I got my hurr did last night...my mommy gave me hurr for christmas, lol.]
SOOOOO I GOT to wear my Shaiya shirt today! :P omgomgomgomg it came innnn.
So yeah, it was basically one GIGANTIC party throughout the entire day. :)
ANYWAY - the AGGRO was immense. It always surprises me when i get aggro, lol in a "HOLY GOD WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU" type of way. LOL! I hate it! It always makes me feel stupid, and I laugh at them.
So anyway, i needed to hear something honest [anything really...just genuinely honest] from someone absolutely not interested in me at all - bwahaha, and so who do i text? Who else, but Frank LOL. I said something along the lines of, "hungry come pick me up" or something like that, that would induce a quick, "NO! WTF!" and sure enough...he said "uh no thanks".
LOL I was talking to AndyAnday on the phone at the time, and when i got the txt back - while driving...i started laughing hysterically and Andy didn't get it. He's like, "OH that's mean! If you were down HERE i'd take you somewhere." Which then proceeded to make me laugh more - because that's EXACTLY why i needed to hear it.
I really didn't feel like going out tonight - I even left work early just to relax and have some soup for dinner. This sore throat allergic reaction thing has been a bit of a bummer unfortunately. Anyway, I told Andy that - and he's like, "OMG why did you even ask him then??"
LOL -___- i don't know - i really don't. There is no logical answer - or maybe there is...but being on so much benedryl, i can't figure it out. I just knew it would make me feel a bit normal again or something. o_O
I honestly don't know why that made me happy [because i guess it shouldn't]- but in the whole day of being around retarded guys that don't take me seriously and feed me lines that they think I want to hear - I guess it was just refreshing to hear someone's honest opinion.
It's almost as if, well shit - at least there's someone else normal/abnormal...whatever [?]; someone else like me [/shrug?] that doesn't get distracted by people of the opposite sex. That's so bullshit, lol...i halfway take back that statement. I totally get distracted by some people, but I TRY REALLY REALLY HARD to not let the distractions control my life I guess. /shrug I dunno how to explain this one -_-, nevermind.
k im gonna relax and soothe this fucking sore throat of mine w/ some strawberry fugging halls & play some AB <3 lols.
<3 carpe diem <3
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+1:39 PM]*
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"Versatile teams are ones who can counter strategies quickly, and gain control of the fight. As with any level of pvp or even fighting game at that, control of the fight = victory. Here are some examples of the highest versatility teams and their strength/weaknesses.
Paladin/Warlock – The warlock has fear, the paladin has bubble. Perfect example of a team that has a lot of outs. Equally with a paladin that’s hard to oom, and a warlock with infinite mana as result, this team can outlast anyone. The only problem is the warlock lacks the burst dps if in an arena spec. Drain mana needs to be used liberally when able against the enemy healer, and the paladin must play somewhat offensively in order to put additional pressure on the other team. This team should be able to defeat most caster teams, running mages and shadowpriests oom, and timing fears on enemy healers. It can have trouble with dual melee dps on the warlock without a carefully timed paladin stun and deathcoil, or your lock will go down like a sack of bricks."
SACK OF BRICKS... :) you have NO idea.
<3 carpe diem <3
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(Wednesday, December 12, 2007-) +2:51 PM]*
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This is a clarification post...
LoL
So I played a bit w/ AndyAnday today. He was concerned because he thinks that I think warlocks are the only people targeted - or the first targeted for focus fire.
-_- So we TALKED about it.
Anyway, he ended up saying, "OHHHhh why didn't you just say that in vent?"
I don't want to explain my point in fucking VENT because half the people aren't paying attention anyway - so they're going to fill in the blanks however the fuck they feel like..and misconstrew my point ANYWAY. What's the point?
So the statement was following something Josh was saying, "Holy GOD - now THAT's a gangrape. There were like 4 guys on me!"
So I replied with a, "That's what it's like for warlocks ALL the time - welcome to my world."
So FUFE and Andy thought i meant - like NO other person gets targeted ever...like WARLOCKS are the ONLY people that get targeted [which WASN'T WHAT I MEANT AT ALL...] but that's what they thought because they're GUYS.
NO, warlocks aren't the FIRST targeted or the MOST targeted. DUDE what IDIOT would want to try to solo a warlock w/ soul link + blessing of sacrifice on them? Good FREAKING luck trying to take them down, dumbass.
FOR ME [as a warlock], I target HUNTARDS, Priests & Mages, then Rogues. I don't even target other warlocks - just banish their pet, put a curse of tongues up and pay attention to the main 3 targets.
I target huntards because they give my healers a hard time...and their pets fucking rape me. I hate them, lol. They just fucking silence shot me, frost trap my healer, and have their pet rape me.
THEN - priests, because especially if i have flaaroon - they're so GODDAMN squishy it's not even funny. I can prevent their heals and out dps their heals so fast. Same thing with Mages - they're too damn squishy and flaaroon can cleave the shit out of them while i make it absolutely ANNOYING for them - fear/nubcoil/curse of EFFING tongues.
Rogues are last of the top 4...but they're easy in group pvp because it literally takes like 2 or 3 shadowbolts for them to drop. Flaaroon's melee is just too annyoing for them.
OKAY - so my point was...
As a DPSer, I look at the fucking BG list like NO other [well when i'm giving a shit about the game at least]. I always check who's the top horde dps/top kills and make sure either to target THEM, or to make sure I have back up if they're a class that I have trouble with primarily - Warriors, Huntards, and Undead Rogues.
Warlocks are USUALLY PRETTY HIGH up there in the DPS charts and/or Kills. WE GET TARGETED really REALLY fast...and there's much GANG raping involved.
ANY TIME i BG and I'm in the top 3 dpsing bracket - I'll get gang raped. I'm sure it's the same for Anday. He tops dps/kills a WHOLE heck of a lot. Lots of people focus fire him.
I'm used to being at the top of the dps/top of kills - so the gang rapage is pretty goddamn COMMON.
OH YEAH, and NOT ONLY am I targeted because of that - but also because I was pvping in frozen shadoweave for a heck of a long ass time. Yeah my defenses were low - but if you're pvping w/ good support class people - the extra damage output capability was pretty nice. I used to push 1400 spell dmg in BGS and two shot rogues.
PEOPLE target FSW Warlocks especially in Arena...it's just LAW. GOD, for a while Arenaing w/ Riki + Sho, they'd just BoP me right off the bat - because if ArenaMaster showed up a melee heavy opposing team, WE ALREADY KNEW that my ass was targeted for a fucking gang rape.
I'm not saying, "OMG everyone's out to get me." They're NOT. I'm saying, I'm USED to getting gang raped - it's like everything else in my life. IT happens.
I'm sure Nitsu gets gang raped a lot too - he's squishy AND freaking tops dps charts like a madman PLUS isn't fully decked out in PvP gear yet. OF COURSE he's targeted.
I've just been targeted for a LONG time - and it's OLD NEWS, that's all.
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Stupid random thoughts...
Yeah I could've gotten 4 pieces of merciless, instead of 2 pieces merciless, and 2 pieces gladiator, but I didn't really care at the time - and still kinda don't.
Not that I regret it now - but playing with sho and riki make me want to have a more complete merciless set, just for their sake. Thankfully - Shingle's less pvp geared out than Michie is by FAR - so I can slowly work my way to S3 gear eventually.
Honestly, S3 gear still doesn't compare to t6 gear to me at least. I think it's absolutely 1337 to have t6. Not that s3 isn't 1337 either, but coming from an RPG background and not a fighting game background, killing fucking Archimonde is still fucking a million times cooler than killing any normal ass human nerd w/ too much time on their hands. It's just what I'm into - I'm not saying PvP isn't JUST AS important for other people as PvE is to me.
I appreciate PvP, honestly - but when it comes to progression...killing bosses and advancing in the game, is still more of a priority to me. Maybe it's the hardcore gamer inside - but the stress of wiping or like...when the bossfight starts to make sense, where people SHOULD be standing - or what people SHOULD be doing...that's WAY more fucking elaborate and extensive than just doing the same damn tactic repeatedly to get to a higher arena score.
Like really, what's the goal? Gear that isn't as efficient in PvE...and sort of bragging rights that you have a certain Arena Title. Yeah go to fucking Hyjal and see if you can take him on - because you WONT survive.
I dunno, I've already done my share of arena. It's not exciting to me. WOOT, you can kill a team - repeatedly. It's the same dots, the same debuffs, and the same fears.
I know, you can say that about PvE also. The difference is, the outcome of a 2v2/3v3 match is decided on the 2 or 3 players on each side...versus the 25 people of a raid.
Every fucking raid [until farm status, I GUESS], is never the same. I mean you HOPE that people will stand in the same spots and output the ideal amount of dps/heals - but you'll never really get the same time it took to kill stuff, or the same amount of dps. People respec, wear different gear +hit/+dmg/+crit, and there are so many goddamn combinations to it that ONE person's dps can make up for two people, etc.
OH THEN there's deaths. If people DIE - it's a whole different other factor. In many end game raids [well so i've learned so far] is that when a person dies...you really have to consider the option to just WIPE it. Especially in the 25 mans nowadays, if your MT dies, there really isn't any other chance for the offtank [even if he's equally geared] to catch up on the hundreds of thousands of threat that the MT made.
If a DPS dies >.> SOmeone's gotta flask or change pets and output TWICE the amount of damage - the strat CHANGES. Like If the mages die, I'm not gonna keep up stupid Curse of Elements - i'm going to fucking amplify curse of Doom and dps the SHIT out of the boss w/o holding back. I'll probably summon my imp & soul link for the decrease in threat and go balls to the wall.
The MT has to then step it up and make sure that the dpsers don't out threat him. It's not our job to make sure he's above our dps - it's his job. It's our job to make up for the death....with all the support from the team as possible.
SO YEAH - I KNOW, Arena is pretty goddamn complex. I think it's a great idea - go for it, w/e. I'm just not as into it because the challenges and goals [i guess] that it provides don't give me enough incentive to WANT to stress out that much.
If I'm going to stress out - it better be because I've fucking just GOT to Bowser's Castle and I'm about to save the princess...and NOT because I get to fucking battle Luigi in a POW war.
WOW that's like EVERYTHING I meant to say in one large sentence. If you get the POW war reference, you're probably just as much of a nerd.
EPIC Battles = AWESOME.
Arena Battles = "GREEN Battles"...that are FARMED for Epic Items.
BGs = Have the potential of being epic. Which is why I favor them, I guess. You'd just have to do a WSG w/ a NZ preform against a Blackrock Preform...and you'd understand.
It's basically PvE - against SMART NPC's. It's like watching two really great sports teams play against each other.
Arenaing just reminds me of like...badminton or something. >.> not that badminton's bad or anything...it's just not for me, LAWL. Hahahahaha...
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So all in all - Andy gets it now...
He even said, "When I first started PvPing w/ you I thought you didn't like it. But then I heard you pvped w/ riki a lot...and saw your old score. You just didn't seem like the type that would like pvp."
I like pvp a LOT. WHY THE HELL do you think i'm on a pvp server? Because it's CUTE? PFT if i wanted to be cute - I'd roll a female orc hunter [beast mastery], name myself Thraylle [or something of the sort] and get a brown bear pet named Michie. [YEAH I KNOW, my definition of CUTE is WEIRD.]
I LOVE being able to "GET MY MAIN" when someone ganks an alt. I almost look FORWARD to it.
Anyway, so I told Andy, "No I <3 pvp...I just pvp with different reasons."
and he replied, "Yeah i know - you like to protect us and guard stuff. It's cool cuz most people don't like doing that."
SO NOW we're all honky dory.
HOW DOES FUFE NOT GET IT YET? I DON'T UNDERSTAND -_-. I've played with him for so long.
STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME. I'm having a good time, GOD DAMNIT. The worrying makes me anxious and not have as much of a good time.
the constant "are you okay?" thing. NO I'm NOT okay if you keep ASKING me that. JESUS CHRIST. I like PvP damnit! I just like PvE a lot too. It's okay to like BOTH. I'm not sith and I don't deal in absolutes. GRAAAAWRRRRRRR!!
EAT A DICK!!
<3 lol...
Im gonna go get gurlified for my interviews tomorrow. >.> Adios.
<3 carpe diem <3
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xoxo~
I hate being a girl sometimes, it's SO fucking lame. I'm just interested in things that happen to aggro mobs -_- which i can't soulshatter out of. THEN, when shit hits the fan and I've aggro'd a fucking MOB - it SUCKS because I AM a girl - so i DEAL with it how girls do sometimes. It makes me feel bad all around. I don't know how to explain it.
Yikes.
I had fun tonight. Riki made time to play with me and Sho. It meant a lot. *_*
I don't wanna have to feel GUILTY that I'm having FUN with them. That's fucking BULLSHIT. I'm not in an intimate relationship WITH ANYONE in WoW. What I WANT TO SAY is..."Stop being so fucking possessive and give me my goddamn space, SHIT." But what I end up saying is, "Sorry -_-." and then genuinely feel bad that I might be unknowingly giving other people a hard time.
Even Andy was pissed off at me...because we didn't immediately invite him when he signed on. WELL MOTHER FUCKING SHIT, thanks for fucking /whispering me to let me know you're around. I"M FUCKING DISTRACTED - my friends that aren't usually on...are ON and I'm DISFUCKINGTRACTED! Like I've got my fucking buddylist open 100% of the time in HOPES that you'll effing sign the fuck on.
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Frank I HAVE NO idea what the hell you want me to do. You say you care, but then as SOON as I friggin bring something up, you're like - "BAH, i don't wanna explain it. Have Josh do it." Okay...?? SO YOU DON'T want me to talk to you? O_O I don't FUCKING understand -_-. How close [as friends] do you wanna be with me? I always feel like I'm goddamn smothering you or something - so then i freaking deathcoil myself and avoid you like the plague...then we do AB or some other shit and this whole cycle repeats itself again. WTF DO YOU WANT me to do? Just clarify it so I don't have to freaking feel like I'm pressuring you to be something special to me that you don't want to ever be.
WHY ARE GUYS SO WEIRD? It's so fucking easy to just say - I don't feel comfortable talking about this shit w/ you. Or, just GIVE the fucking answer...or Gah, I'm "listening" but I HONESTLY don't know what to say. It's SO FUCKING easy to respond - I don't understand -_-.
YOUUUUUU Might understand what the hell is going on w/ them all - but I DON'T!! AND maybe it sounds absolutely STUPID - but i'm not looking deeper into any of that shit because I SHOULDN'T BE. I don't fucking waste my time trying to figure out what most people might be pondering...because NEWS FLASH - IM MARRIED and HONESTLY what the hell is overanalyzing what they "COULD be thinking" going to accomplish other than make me worried for NO reason.
SO WHEN I SAY, "WTF? What's going on?" I totally mean it. "I think they're upset." that's it. THAT'S ALL i've thought about - seriously. "they're acting different." YUP that's it.
JUST FUCKING TELL ME. Just SAY IT. It's so QUICK. What the fuck is wrong? They don't like me, I PROMISE. They're both in relationships - so I DON'T UNDERSTAND! -_-
god.
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AND NO - if you KNEW me by now...[which you apparently DON'T] i DON'T like killing people in WoW as my Warlock. Why do think I don't like arenaing? Because hmm....
i LIKE teamwork...so it's not that one...
i like pvp...so it can't be disliking pvp...
What's left?
I don't like KILLING people. It makes me feel guilty.
I still DO it because there's a goal behind it that I follow usually. Every once in a while, I'll BG/PvP with the intent of killing people - but that's usually NEVER on my warlock.
In BG, I like protecting my healers and saving bases.
OH - I ONLY ONLY ONLY GO FOR BLOOD - if Riki preambles me into believing that they're after Gegsn [or another healer]. Then...there's really no holding back.
THE maniacal cackle tonight was when I ASS RAPED a hunter that kept annoying Gegsn. AND ANOTHER cackle was DEATHCOILING a warlock that was going to freaking howl of terror Azer...then I proceeded to annihilate him - he was NOT going to survive [the warlock...i mean.] Well, if he would've lived - he would've continued to give both healers a hard time and I don't tolerate that bullshit.
The cackle also comes if I prevent a fucking healer from casting a holy light then TWO SHOT him. Or.....if the odds are totally against us and we still win. That's when I rejoice.
There's no thrill in killing one person. As a warlock - if you haven't gotten over that...pre bc, then you must play on an RP server or something retarded like have less than 100 kills total.
The thrill is in knowing that my healer's not going to die because i'm killing the hunter that's silencing shot-ting [?] him. Or the fact that I have a blessing of sacrifice on me...and i'm getting RAPED - but w/ blessing of sac + soul link....they WONT kill me and it feels so OP. I think to myself...once i get this Howl of Terror off...you all are dead. I have JUST enough time to hop away while paladins HoJ targets, flaaroon intercepts...and i use up my bandages on healers that are still around. Not to mention underwaterbreathing/detect invis, other paladins that are still around - JUST incase there's some purging action.
I used up all my 18 bandages today in BG...and only 2 of them went to me.
Like in ONE of the AB's we played today, Sho and Frank both were down at the farm. I was stuck at LM...watching, but I couldn't save them. It was like the WORST feeling ever. I wanted to just say fuck it, lose the LM and go down there. Saving my healers is definitely a higher priority than a stupid LM that we can retake. Frank made me stay there...and it was like the most WORRIED "zomg you asshole why are you making me stay here...i wanna freaking save you" feeling EVERRR. Don't make me watch you guys die, lol. It makes me QQ - really I kid you not.
I felt so damn isolated. WORST FEELING - EVAR.
BUT YEAH, don't believe everything you hear from other people. Fufe doesn't know everything I like to do and neither does Anday ...actually MOST FPDers don't know what I really like to do - which is WHY I don't really have that much remorse for leaving.
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well im going to bed. cya<3
<3AB! :P
<3 carpe diem <3
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Gez Fry